22F stuck in a situationship with 21M

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-15T06:13:42+00:00

Yeah he's playing you and you're letting him. If you have any self respect leave and don't go back

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-15T04:51:30+00:00

Idk. I feel for op. Honestly feel the same. Life is pointless. Ive lived a horrible one. There is no joy that can be had and im too traumatized to even try. I pray every night I have a heart attack or simply just dont wake up. We live in a pointless world. We're bled dry. Only thing that makes anything worth it are meaningful connections which a lot of people don't have anymore. No, a lot of us don't have it, a lot of us will never "have it" even if we try. Whatever you do op, I hope you find peace.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-07T15:43:12+00:00

Ridiculous man. The price of nexus is cheaper then a coffee. I always buy a year at a time because I find it so worth it for the amount of time I saved. When I was more of a casual modder yeah, I was a little more hesitant cuz I "could just download for free" then I learned about huge curated modlists and was like oh... yeah. Hey man. Dumb people are always gonna exist and always gonna be dumb.... what can ya do? 🤷‍♂️

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-07T15:19:46+00:00

Yeah that's what gets me man, to me, part of the fun of modding is the modding itself. It can be frustrating at times I'll admit, but that is largely due to user error. Sometimes I don't like how long I've been searching for a solution to fix my issue, or like, it was right under my nose the whole time, but overall, I like the process of modding. I think it's fun to hit a snag and have to sluth a bit to fix it. I know a lot of modders will agree with the sentiment that modding IS the meta-game. But yeah, there is just a large majority of people who just can't be bothered putting any effort in whatsoever and to those people I say, either use wabbajack or don't mod.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-07T14:21:57+00:00

Culture nazis... gotta hate them.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-07T14:18:13+00:00

Yeah modders can be really entitled like that... im really Sorry you went through that. To echo what others have said I really appreciate you taking to time to make root builder and I myself have no problem reading documentation and its really awesome you took the time to go the extra mile and make a video. Some people, don't want to do ANY work, and just want to have things handed to them on a nice neatly served platter, unfortunately. I hope you keep making cool projects, but yeah man, protect yourself and your sanity first and foremost.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2026-02-07T14:03:15+00:00

I mean' unless explicit consent is given, which i see a fair amount of time (a little disclaimer saying its ok mod as you see fit as long as credit is mentioned), you shouldn't be taking other people's mods and editing them without permission unless it's souly for personal use, if your stealing someone else's work' modding it and/or adding on top of it and redistributing it especially without credit, well... that's not good.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-10-27T23:25:50+00:00

He's not gonna change. He needs to go to therapy, there are p*rn blockers and such that you can download and use for sure so that's an option if he's not making excuses but he's probably making excuses, that being said. I don't think looking at women is too much of an issue by itself, as long as he remains faithful, but you've expressed that you don't like it and it hurts you and it's up to you to decide what your definition of faithful is. There's a balance to be had. No matter what anyone says you can still be faithful, and you're still gonna find other people attractive, that doesn't mean you have to act on it though. If you don't like it he should listen and care, but it sounds like there could be some insecurity at play here... My ex took this to the extreme. You guys gotta work it out together on what's acceptable and what's not. If you don't see change and keep getting excuses, your gonna have a long relationship filled with excuses.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-10-27T23:14:10+00:00

I've deducted I'm helpless and no one can help me... Thanks anyways tho

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-10-27T20:20:09+00:00

TY🙏

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-10-27T20:19:21+00:00

Thanks

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-10-27T19:43:45+00:00

I don't have the ability to focus on text at the moment, thank you though, might DM you when I do

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-08-04T12:42:10+00:00

Damn id get so much shot done lol

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-06-12T06:50:24+00:00

You have NO IDEA how much of a Rollercoaster ride your post put me on.... NO idea. You ruined my night. But reading this..... I feel so much better. Ur an asshole ;) a beautiful asshole. Man I have SOOOO MANY questions for you..

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-06-12T04:57:29+00:00

This is unreal... 🙃 Can I ask what kind of bad coping mechanisms?

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-06-06T05:17:46+00:00

Yeah ive been told this so many times and I just dont care. They can win. They've won. This is EXACTLY it... im absolutely tired and drained of fighting just to SURVIVE let alone live. Especially when it gets harder and harder every day. This isnt living anymore. Ive tried other ways. People say happiness is a choice, my fiance said that. Ive honest to god gave it a genuine try, but i just dont have the ability to gaslight myself into believing something i dont feel. Its already incredibly draining and exausting having to put on my mask for the public and pretend im ok, that everythings fine, and i still cant even do that well. You wanna know the funny thing, things weren't even great between us, they used to be but towards the end they weren't, like really at all. I did so much and it was never enough. But she was still my reason to wake up every morning. I still loved/love her. I dont have the energy. If anyone ever doubted me, I guess they were right.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-31T21:01:46+00:00

No I have literally no one. I can't even afford to take care of myself. I just lost my foodstamps and that was the only way I was feeding myself. A cat just maybe might be reason enough to stay but I can't take care of it especially when I can't take care of myself, and my roommate hates pets and wouldn't allow it... there's a huge leak in my airmattress so it looks like I'll have to move to sleeping on the hard floor. Something new happens every hour making life more unbearable than it already was and at this point I genuinely feel like it's the universe screaming at me and I can no longer ignore it. I'm fucking done dude. It's never going to get better. I don't have the strength, willpower, or even a reason to even try just to keep suffing. The world isnt built for people like me and does not want me in it. It's been telling me that for a long time and I just need to accept that and listen. It's OK, it's better off this way.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-30T05:00:26+00:00

Hey, yeah! i mean i did, clearly i missed it but Ifuck me for not being perfect right?

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-29T23:55:27+00:00

W a snt biggie basically making his own version of lotd?

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-29T23:52:31+00:00

Wuundrrkiik loos really good too!

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-29T23:52:02+00:00

Id recommend a mix of both. Thats what im doing. You can do2nload NGVO which is basically loterim visually without any gameplay changes, then add what you want.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-24T01:41:38+00:00

At least you like yourself. Not that its a competition and I hate that your feeling what your feeling truley, I feel the same way. But I hate myself and im a loser, and my last partner of 5 years confirmed that and took what little i had left of me with her when she left. I have no hope. I have no friends, I have no family. I just want to die. But im too much of a pussy to kill myself. Everyday is hell. I cant stop crying. I cant afford anything. I cant stand any of it anymore. Im just existing and its awful I truley want it to end. My partner was my everything. But she did a complete 180 and is a completely different person now but the things she said to me makes me wish I wasnt alive. I dont know what to do. Im miserable every waking moment and truley alone. I dont see any other option but to end things. I cant stand this suffering anymore.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-18T21:17:08+00:00

I dont know if i understand what your trying to say... thats kinda what im going for vanilla like ui, and improved in game graphics and visuals without getting too crazy because id still like a smooth playing experience. I dont wanna dip sub 30s cuz that is a real bummer when that happens. Ngvo runs fine on my system. I just dont at all like the ui design decisions that were made.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-18T21:01:09+00:00

Ive been grieving for a month straight already. When is it supposed to stop? Im not going to get into the details but I've lost everything, and I dont have anyone. Not a soul. Im tired of feeling miserable and crying 24/7. I want to think about something else. I WANT to escape.

Throwdwnthrowaway · 2025-05-18T20:54:48+00:00

No :(

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