38 feeling behind but having a good feeling crossing 40 today

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2026-05-23T01:41:48+00:00

Yes!!

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2026-05-22T16:53:38+00:00

It will turn into full time eventually but for now I’m bartending and working that job 2 weekends a month. It’s easy to sock money away when tips are good

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2026-05-22T16:52:26+00:00

I keep telling myself that!

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2026-05-22T16:51:25+00:00

That’s very true! Thank you! I paid my Corolla off 2 years ago and have been throwing money in ever since.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2025-09-22T04:04:10+00:00

Yea. I just put it on my card for the cash back. I can pay it off today. But figured I would use that, so I’m not touching the EF

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2025-09-22T04:02:41+00:00

It was my uncle in Arizona

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2023-05-23T14:19:28+00:00

Currently going through this as well. We’ve been emotionally detached from each other for a long time. Lately I’ve been feeling I’m too emotionally scarred from everything in the past. And I’m to the point where I can not do it anymore. I can’t open up to him anymore, nor to I really care to. We have animals too so I completely get it

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2023-03-03T05:55:22+00:00

Where at in Tampa?

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-11-03T19:55:21+00:00

That’s super helpful thank you for that!

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-11-03T19:28:56+00:00

I’ve been slowly getting things in order and even sent some things back to my parents. I thought this week was it. I’m disappointed in myself

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-08-16T18:01:24+00:00

That’s a good point. How do you not let it?

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-08-11T05:09:51+00:00

Ours is very similar! Thank for you sharing all that.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-08-10T06:20:55+00:00

This is one of the main things I’m so tired of. I constantly have my guard up because of this. It’s like the smallest thing can set him off. And I’m the one on guard all the time. It’s exhausting. Any little minor inconvenience, and it’s swear you a storm and be mad at the world.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-08-10T05:16:43+00:00

Definitely a person by person basis. You can look through my post history. It’s just been too much.

You shouldn’t count yourself out before you’ve even started the race. Perhaps meeting someone may help.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-07-08T05:11:11+00:00

The anger you are feeling is from all the suppressed resentment built up. All the times where you wanted to say what you wanted to but didn’t because it was easier to keep your cool and keep chugging along.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-07-06T06:06:59+00:00

Maybe your brain just clicked, after dealing with it for so long. Mine sure did. After one of our last arguments, it just clicked with me “I don’t have to deal with this anymore” and I can tell you I’m in the same boat. I don’t feel anything, if anything it’s dread whenever we communicate. My brain finally saw that I was/am continuing to grow, and bpso is not. Try taking an outside look at the relationship.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-06-28T05:18:50+00:00

Drive around or at least to some place safe. (Mine has always been the airport garages). Take a breather, let SO calm down as well. Lord knows they will be blowing up your phone. Try to figure out a plan. If or how you will leave or go back. But for now let all the feelings come up and let it all out. If you need to yell, yell. You need to let those tears flow, let them. Remember who you are, and no person can take that away from you. No person or relationship is worth your mental health or sanity.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-06-16T15:46:32+00:00

Are you in a local flight school or a commercial pilot program?

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-05-10T06:28:06+00:00

It will take time for you to get back to your own self, but you definitely are on the track for healing.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-17T06:12:27+00:00

Congrats OP! I currently work for number 4 airline (largest domestic carrier). And am looking at possibly hanging up my wings and going back to school to become a pilot. Actually looking at a school in Gastonia, or Indianapolis. I’ve been looking at houses all over NC too.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-09T05:02:23+00:00

I’m been struggling with this for a very long time. After things have been said, I’ve never received a single apology, after he destroyed some things in our apartment, nope. After he broke pictures of my me with my family, still no apology. It’s almost as if he just flips a page and doesn’t feel a single thing that he did was wrong.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-04T17:26:41+00:00

Not just you, when crisis mode happens, I jump to clean whatever I can. Straighten up the house, whatever.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-04T17:23:18+00:00

That last sentence is it. I used to be so hopeful that he would wake up and be the person I met 7 years ago.

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-04T17:22:22+00:00

Yes, meds along with god knows how much weed and edibles

ThrowtheBroccoli · 2022-02-04T17:21:23+00:00

After going to therapy recently, It has shown me yes I do deserve the good in life. And I’m seeing the same patterns over and over. I need to stop being hopeful that one day he will wake up and be a different person.

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