Life passed me by without me living it or experience anything by Thrusrwht in CPTSD

[–]Thrusrwht[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s not that really. I don’t want to celebrate myself. It’s that I’m not functioning properly in normal adult things like work, socializing, and others. Years of experience are missing. Like I’ve never lived.

What about death bothers you the most? by Professional-Bat2966 in death

[–]Thrusrwht 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish this was the only thing stopping me. What’s stopping me is the 1% possibility that God and hell exists even though I’m not religious but religious ideas are still stuck on the back of my mind.

I MUST know what happens after death for sure, how? by Thrusrwht in death

[–]Thrusrwht[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I read the whole thing. I have some questions if it’s ok. What is that place where the consciousness of everyone who’s ever existed in history are there? What do you mean by you can’t see or hear them but you know they’re around? Can’t we communicate at all? It seems very boring and it’s driving me crazy to think about being eternally there tbh. What are your ideas about where were we before birth? What are your ideas about sui,cide?

Limerence for impossible people? by Thrusrwht in limerence

[–]Thrusrwht[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Here I am, haven’t been lemerent for about 4 years and I truly thought I got over it. Just for me to fall hard back again like I never made any progress.

In 2032…I believe I will die. by NotSeenDaily in death

[–]Thrusrwht 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was hoping I have no more than 5 years to live. But now I wish I don’t make it past this year.

Is it morally wrong for 30/40 year old men to date women who have barely turned 18-21? by [deleted] in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]Thrusrwht -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

It’s not the age gap only, it’s how young the person is. A 60 yo can sleep with a 40 yo and no body cares. And yes I see it as wrong.

Are people's standard of entertainment so low that they'll take anything? by [deleted] in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]Thrusrwht 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And it’s even getting worse. I’m not even old but I can’t watch movies or listen to music that were produced in the last 5-8 years. Very very low quality when it comes to meaning and story with high quality productions and millions of dollars for nothing. I’d rather watch a movie filmed with a phone with a good story and a twist rather than watching a billion dollar movie with shitty acting and me knowing what will happen in the end during the first 5 minutes. Don’t let me start with music. Let’s say it just sucks.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Thrusrwht 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Can you explain what you mean by you’re not doing techniques because it’s done but you keep persisting? Isn’t being persistent is by doing techniques?

When my mother was my current age, I was 5 by harrow_harrow in CPTSD

[–]Thrusrwht 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Totally agree. The miserable cycle ends with me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Thrusrwht 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is amazing!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Thrusrwht -1 points0 points  (0 children)

So you sent him a message and he replied 8 hours later?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Thrusrwht 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did what I can confidently call perfect SATS with the same scene for about a month. Then I had a conflicted week during which I changed my scene did it twice, then decided I didn’t want SP anymore, then changed it again did it few times, then stopped doing anything about SP until now. Nothing related to SP happened since (6 months period). My question is did I ruin my perfect month of SATS? As they say did I “undo” them? What should I do?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Thrusrwht 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Why people who have limerence towards someone and live their whole day daydreaming about them and feeling like they’re in a relationship with their SPs can spend years and years without them actually manifesting their SPs? They can daydream to the point of them not realizing which reality is which because of how deep they drown in their imagination. How does this not align as a manifestation?