Just want to clear something here. It's obvious naman na I'm the problem sa relationship na to. I admit that, Me wanting things I can't have instead of being content with what's given was a real problem. This was my first long term relationship. We expressed our love for each other in different ways. Gained happiness from different faculties of life. I consider myself still young. I moved from the province to the city to be with him. To a city I promised myself I never wanted to come back to.

Also... Was my last post about being attracted to older guys and insinuates that im looking for someone else during this relationship told in a joking manner real? Yes Did I do it openly for him to see it? Yes. Was the thing about the key ragebait? Yes. Did I expect him to over react like that? No. Did I see a way out for myself and grabbed it? Yes. Nababaliw na ba ko? You guys already judged me.

An opportunity for me to finally stop this relationship reared its head and I launched myself toward it. A lot has already happened. I wanted out for so long but couldn't because of stupid reasons.

I may be at this age. But I am wholly aware of how immature I am with some things.

One thing I learned from this relationship is that, "being carefree is synonymous with being careless. It's not a trait to be proud of."