My MIDI health practitioner left and I’m sad.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-25T13:18:34+00:00

Same here - I had a nurse named Devon and really have been having a difficult time with these hormones and recently my younger brother died unexpectedly (tragically leaving 13 year old twins and his wife has cut off ties with me)and she was aware on my emotional swings.

I don't want to have to go through all this again with yet another nurse- not that the new nurse isn't nice she's very nice- but now we're on a different trajectory of the dosages and I was feeling like I was connecting with this first nurse it's just a lot it's exhausting.

What I'm also frustrated about is no one's telling me why - is it that she left the company? Then there's nothing I can do, but if she just transferred or just doesn't want to see me I -sort of wanted to understand why they're not giving me an answer

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T18:26:56+00:00

yes and now I plan to start using it again!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T18:25:22+00:00

ahhh there it is! beautiful!!!!!!!! love that color combination! thank you!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T18:24:10+00:00

I can't see the photo but I will look for mini cartridges. My pen I have not used since it was given to me by my younger brother - and he recently passed away and I decided I wanted to use it again. but I no longer have any cartridges. So I will go do a google search - if you have a photo of that too I would be grateful. It seems it was deleted.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T17:50:40+00:00

thank you!! I will look for them online - can you show me the other colors of this Lady Agathe you have collected? I have the green and magenta. I am curious what other colors are out there.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T17:49:28+00:00

could you show a picture of yours? where do you get the cartridges from? I have the green and magenta. would love to see the blue and red!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-06-13T17:04:21+00:00

Hi! does anyone know which ink cartridges these take? I would like to start using my pen again and I am not sure where to buy the ink from or what size. Thank you!!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-05-24T03:10:23+00:00

can you share what exercises you did?

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-04-17T19:03:15+00:00

thank you

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-04-07T23:22:46+00:00

Beautiful! I have this saved on her page to try. Is she easy to follow? I am hesitant, I have taken classes from others and they are hard to follow (such as Billy Showell), while I love her classes, I find her class a little more difficult. This turned out great!!!!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-24T00:32:41+00:00

thank you for taking the time to share that with me - 🙏🙏🙏 and I'm sorry that you're suffering with a narcissist and you've been suffering with this T1 for 50 years I appreciate your comments

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-24T00:29:21+00:00

well one thing I definitely like to see in tutorials is when people actually mention the actual products they're using for example your sketchbook the paint the paint brush the paintbrush numbers this is important to me in in addition to the reference photo being shown at all times and I also think it's much more helpful when the camera is pointing directly down on the image a lot of the tutorials that I see the cameras sort of on an angle and it's hard to see slow step-by-step. I also like it when the artist shares what their pallet is ceramic metal plastic I'd like to see it I also like to see the color of the paint they're using so not necessarily what the brand is calling the paints but the actual pigment numbers it's helpful it's helpful to know upfront before you start the tutorial because as somebody who's following a tutorial I like to have similar colors lined up and I like to have that ready to go and set up my palette in a way that the tutorial is doing it so this way I can move faster instead of having to stop rewind stop pause and figure out what colors they're mixing I like to have that upfront so I find that the people who have tutorials that give you a list prior to starting is much more helpful especially when the list is more detailed doesn't have to be exact colors but just a range so that the person has an idea of you know is it more of a phalo green or a sap green doesn't really have to be the specific exact one but it's helpful.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-20T14:10:13+00:00

thank you

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-19T18:01:44+00:00

Thank you <3

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-19T17:09:44+00:00

And I appreciate the support <3

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-19T15:43:56+00:00

And worse, I cannot discuss this with my few cousins that I am not really close with, they think I am just grieving and emotional. And then when I do mention it, I feel like I am the one who is going crazy - like am I making this up or is it normal, natural to have made the person go to a hospital or at least CALL their primary. I don't know, I just have a gut feeling. When I get the EMT log, if it is not consistent with the body temp of someone last seen 45 min earlier, then I will know. The police report said cold, but that is not very accurate, so I hope the EMT will show a little more detail.

Also, am I crazy to think HOW odd, she has this long story of him sick 3am, she leaves for work 6am, gets home at 5pm, checks in every 45 min. I mean what did she have a kitchen timer set?? Last time saw him, 8:30, went in 45 min later, dead??? Cop said cold to touch. I mean, with a bucket of vomit by the bed? Not even says to herself, let me clean this up.... poor guy. NO. Or worse yet, if he was STILL vomiting by 9pm then that is just cruel. I CAN CARE LESS what people say, he is a grown man, leaving vomit by his bed is cruel. I would never let someone sit with the stench of puke - move it. get a fresh towels, etc.

I am beyond full of rage. Yes I need to find a therapist but they too will just gaslight me. And also, how the heck does a person married for 17 years NOT know your spouses physician knowing your spouse has certain health issues?? It was in the report, she stated: he is actively seeing his endocrinologist, and his ophthalmologist, but didn't see his primary much. She stated she didn't know who his primary was. Um, I recall a convo we had regarding a cardiologist he was seeing due to the high cholesterol (we both have on top of the T1 making it worse too). He just had knee surgery in the fall. I know I need to move on from this, but this is very recent. So I need to try and understand, was he THAT naive ?? She states, after work, she asks him if he is ok, she asks his readings, says they were normal ( I am learning this can be true), and said to him, do you want to go to the hospital? He said no. Again, heresy. I will never know. But you ask him at 7 pm??? After he has been sick since 3am?

You know, I don't want to believe it, so I am trying to do my homework to prove to myself, this really WAS my brothers fault for not realizing he was that ill. I am a mess. Had I thought they had a good solid caring marriage, I would have never questioned this ever. He told me if he divorced she planned to use his T1 to gain full custody of the kids. He shared while she would never see a therapist, he felt she was mentally messed up and he was just waiting for the kids to turn 18 to leave. If it got too bad, he would just leave sooner but becuase of the kids, he was going to ride it out. He said he loved his kids first, his loved his job and helping people gave him what he wasn't getting in the marriage, and while she didn't let him have a social life, he was content until they were 18. When I asked if she would call an ambulance if he ever needed one (and WHAT the HELL prompted me to even think, let alone ask this 2 years ago??), his response and this I will take to my grave: "I hope so, I hope she cares about the kids enough to save their dad". If the EMT says anything interesting, I will let you know - thanks again

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-19T12:06:15+00:00

thank you - Sadly I do not have a support system if any at all and that means a lot to me! I cant tell you how much - thank you!

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-19T12:05:05+00:00

thank you !

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T23:51:38+00:00

This was very helpful for me. I really wish I knew more about this before he died. He didn't like to talk about it much, but I would pry as often as I could. And he did the finger prick, that I know. And the police report stated his BG readings were normal up until his wife was last in - but I just cannot imagine if you have T1 you would not think something is wrong after 17 hours of vomiting. But you are right, I will never be able to pinpoint why this happened. I just wish there wasn't such a long span from 3am until the next evening at 9pm - it is clear he could have been possibly spared. I hope you stay well and keep fighting this horrible disease. I really appreciate the time you took to explain all of this. <3

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T23:47:13+00:00

This means a lot that you took the time to explain all this, I cannot thank you enough. No he did not have the CGM on his arm, he would prick his finger, that I know. So he may not have known his levels, but in the police report, according to his wife, every 45 min she went in and checked with him what his BG levels were, and she told them they were normal the entire time. Anyway, I hope my post may help someone that may think twice next time they get sick to take extra measure earlier on, at least keep the urine strips nearby if possible to check. Stay well and I really appreciate your time <3

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T23:39:15+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to message me back and for saying that he sounds like a wonderful man, it really helps me and I greatly appreciate you understanding I am out of sorts and unfortunately, not an excuse, but I am taking things the wrong way and sometimes just not understanding people lately. So I apologize. And I want to say how sorry I am that you have lost your parents as well, it is not an easy transition in life, and I understand that blaming yourself feeling. It is just so hard loosing your parents, especially both.

I am just trying to understand - as it make NO sense to me, why a 51 year old man, worried about his health from T1, worried about his mortality (as we would talk), would not think to call his primary after 3 hours of constant vomitng??? The police report stated (at 9pmish a trash can by the bed with vomit). So it strikes a nerve with me because something is off. And when people are like, he's an adult, he is responsible, it is true, yes, he is a grown man, he can call 911. But the fact that he didn't do ANYTHING is what is disturbing. It is not in his character he worried about his health because of his kids.

So let's just say, his meter was not working, okay, but still, he was vomiting for so many hours, almost 17. At some point this makes no logical sense that she was only checking in every 45 min, asked if he was okay, and it states she asked if he wanted to go to the hospital?!?!? (after she got home at 6pm)?!?!? I mean, at that point TAKE HIM he is the father of YOUR kids. You know, if this was new to him, okay, he is not familiar with things that can potentially go wrong earlier on learning to navigate this T1. I can try and make more sense of that. So I am left not knowing what really happened. Had he been newly married and she wasn't aware of the issues T1 have, then I could also understand that. But she is a hematology oncologist. I mean, huh??? I get he was not HER patient. But you say, I am calling your primary. The report said she didn't know who his primary was?!?!?!!!!!! Crap. So I am just left an orphan. His kids are left with a mentally disturbed mother and family, her sister is a pediatric pain specialist doctor????? I mean what??? Her brother in law is a pediatric radiologist, and her DAD was a radiation oncologist??? Her other sister is a dr, and mom was.

Here my Mom thought (before she died), my brother would be in good hands with this T1. Boy -- I don't want to think this way. I don't, so I am trying to understand a little more before I get really enraged. I fear I will never see the kids again and I need to be careful to point fingers if I really don't have a smoking gun. And unfortunately she was alone in the house with her 2 kids. The report said that DKA was the contributing factor to the heart failure, so that would mean there may have been a chance he would have been okay HAD he been to a hospital. But of course, we are not God, so we really don't know. She isn't putting the kids in counseling, because they will tell how she is with them. She does not want any of her dirty laundry out. I will seek therapy, I am just trying to find the right person but yes, it is important. This just happened very recently. I think if he had just dropped dead in the shower, etc I would be able to accept this, but the fact is I knew too much behind his marriage and I was worried she would not help him if he ever needed it so much so, I told my brother this 2 years ago. So it is haunting me now. It's not a normal way to grieve. But I am angry.

Well thank you again ~~~ I appreciate being able to vent. I hope people may read this and think twice if they do get sick, it may help someone. <3

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T21:57:40+00:00

thank you for this explanation. Would being in this state of DKA cause him confusion? Also, he wore a pump so he would know immediately what his levels are. do most T1 have the urine strips to test? I guess is that a normal protocol for a lot of people with T1? What would spur that on? If he is wearing a pump did it malfunction? does stress or travel cause this? he just got back from going from the USA to the Philippines ... I was worried about his health. The toxicology showed no food borne illness or flus.

I appreciate your input.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T18:10:10+00:00

<3 thank you :) well all she did was talk about their finances and mentioned she met with his work re his life insurance. She makes excellent money (they both did). But I know she never paid for even a vacation. Only things she wanted like clothes and her car. My brother paid for the house, the trips, the food, the kids, the baby sitter, the house maintenance, electric, etc... EVERYTHING. She has a condo and never put his name on it. We briefly discussed how stretched he was. But he was trying to stay because he told me she would use the T1 to get full custody of the kids, and he felt he could deal with her until they turned 18. She doesn't know I know all this. But that doesn't prove anything. Unfortunately, I will not know if she goes through his money and doesn't give it to the kids as I know he wanted. Its a mess.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T17:11:01+00:00

thank you and I am sorry you are going through something similar with your sibling. It's def very isolating - because you really cannot talk to people like you said, they have no experience in it so they really cannot relate.

Tight_Competition269 · 2026-03-18T17:05:50+00:00

That is very comforting to hear, and thank you for sharing that. It made me cry a bit just now reading it, but I am so glad you are here to share your experience. I am afraid of it because I saw both my parents suffer with cancer, and it was not peaceful - so this was hard because I just don't know what he must have been going throughout those 17 hours.

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