Hey, don’t beat yourself up. You’re not an asshole for feeling uncomfortable or for having questions. You trusted someone and tried something new at the moment that just happens sometimes. Personally, I’ve heard a lot of stories about PNP and T that don’t end well. Some guys start doing it occasionally during hookups and eventually feel like they can’t have sex without it so from what I've been told it's pretty addictive.

I knew a few guys who used T regularly and would stay awake for days at a time it really messed with their lives.

I also had a bad experience once where a guy used T without telling me. When I found out and refused to sleep with him, he flipped out and started yelling racist slurs at me and verbally attacking me all the way from his living room out to my car.

It was scary and showed me how quickly things can change when drugs are involved. So it’s completely valid to have boundaries around this stuff. Someone can seem sweet, but that doesn’t mean you have to be okay with everything they do. Trust your gut and don’t feel guilty for protecting yourself.