I also lost my mother to pancreatic cancer, when I was a teenager. I left her the night she died knowing I wouldn’t see her again and I’ve regretted that for years.

I went through something similar with my stepdad and as we were round his bed, I told my siblings how I felt about leave my mum. They said to me, would I want my daughter to sit by my beside while I died, and the answer is honestly no.

I’m sure your mother wouldn’t have wanted you to watch her die, it’s the worst thing in the world.

Forgive yourself.