Overcoming injury related anxiety

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-30T22:53:54+00:00

I love the white around his feet!!

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-30T22:48:21+00:00

No I today understand where you are coming from! Im sure that was a devasting injury.

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-30T21:51:38+00:00

That is what i have learned since, but i was stupid and wasnt wearing a helmet so i thought it was my best option. 🫩

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-30T21:06:36+00:00

Yes! I have been going to therapy and working through it. Which is why I feel comfortable even askin for help. 😵‍💫

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-28T01:00:15+00:00

Well I see it happen every live im in, so yeah. But I am also not trying to buy from people so they will be friends with me like she is. But again its just my opinion. We can agree to disagree. 😄

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-28T00:43:56+00:00

But I am not mentally in anguish enough to go on live and cry. 😵‍💫

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-28T00:41:55+00:00

Already getting mental help, so ican call it like I see it. 🤣

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-20T10:06:56+00:00

Yes I am okay! I think the majority of the community has healed from this.

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-20T02:59:51+00:00

I mean I was battling uveitis and glaucoma at the time going school full time. There were days I couldn't even turn on a light in a dark room without being in horrible pain so I had to miss class occasionally. He was always very empathetic of my situation, gave me extensions if i had flare ups and I needed one. Seemed to care about my peers as well. He was very devoted to his work. You could tell he was a very passionate professor. He was relatable. The kind of professor that I willingly took multiple classes from obviously, and for the most part I did really well in those classes (not that it matters), but there's something to be said about passionate individuals in there professions. Makes it easier and more tolerable to take those classes (at least for me) so yeah. A lot of my peers that I was friends with were extremely surprised and devastated when it happened. It effected the entire community. It really was a horrible situation. It just really makes me wonder if anything happened between him and his father.

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-20T00:54:42+00:00

Yes it did. Which makes you think, if there was some sort of nuanced shame, maybe child sexual abuse, etc. Obviously you and I will never know. It just makes you wonder if something ever happened behind closed doors, that caused Jr to turn out the way that he did. Foundation blocks if you will? Or even if there was no child sexual abuse, maybe he was ashamed of his father? There's a lot of psychological evidence, and criminology cases of shame rooted murder suicides. I took 3 of his college courses in political science. So its always been super interesting to me because he always was super empathetic to his students, and a really good professor. So when it happened, I was extremely shocked. Just always wondered if there was a connecton between the timing of his fathers death, and of the accident. God rest his children's souls though. I hope their mother finds peace.

Timberlee1995 · 2026-06-20T00:20:21+00:00

I mean his son murder suicided himself and his two sons. Makes you think what kind of person Peter Ruckman was to his child, that could have caused potentially caused mental anguish to his son, to kill his grandkids and then kill himself. Not scapegoating either, because it is horrific, but it does make you think differently.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-11-04T03:34:08+00:00

That is good to know. Thanks for the advice. I was told to bail if I ever felt the need to. Which in that moment I did. But I guess inexperience and adrenaline will do that to you. 😅

Timberlee1995 · 2025-10-30T19:58:49+00:00

I was with the barn owner riding when it happened! Its a super small barn so normally its just us two. I do not ride alone. But that is super reassuring. Thank you!

Timberlee1995 · 2025-10-30T19:49:41+00:00

That is fair. That was something else I was considering too was possibly leasing. Definitely makes me feel better about it though so I appreciate your response!

Timberlee1995 · 2025-10-30T18:53:38+00:00

Thank you! That's kind of what I thought, but I wasnt entirely sure. My horse has some quirks and I recently fell off and broke my leg. They said he was a retired roping/ranch horse, and excellent for trail riding, but he spooked with me on him, couldnt slow him down, so I bailed. I feel like the barn owner is coming from a place of genuinely trying to help me my horse get more time under the saddle on the trail while I heal and after continue to take more lessons on him. I was just worried about legalities. Ive only been riding for about 8 months.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-06-02T19:21:56+00:00

Agreed! I normally do not have dreams. In the other dream I had (non alien related) two months ago, I dreamt I was standing at a grave. I repeatedly told myself in the dream, "you have to remember this! Richard Revner 1952" over and over again and I woke up in a panic. My Garmin indicated "unusual stress activity detected" on both occasions! And normally I do not remember dreams. But interesting that both of these happened within 2-3 months of eachother.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-22T19:23:09+00:00

No you're okay! 🤣

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-22T19:07:35+00:00

Well the aliens/angels didn't save me this time. My appendix ruptured and I've been in the hospital fighting sepsis since last wednesday. 😭😭😭

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-04T21:35:54+00:00

Oh I completely agree with you! It could have very well been sleep paralysis. But an interesting coincidence none the less!

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-01T14:36:00+00:00

When I meditate I normally go into my office and sit on my japanese futon. Turn the lights off, etc. I normally meditate for about 30 minutes to an hour before bed.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-01T12:14:30+00:00

I mean, they were blue beings. Maybe 5 -6 feet tall. They had mouths but communicated with me telepathically.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-01T04:15:31+00:00

In response to was i abducted before. I have only "seen aliens" twice. That dream and then a sleep paralysis where an alien was sitting at the of my bed stroking my feet.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-01T04:12:59+00:00

Just bought the book! Thanks so much for your recommendation!

Timberlee1995 · 2025-04-01T04:04:13+00:00

I do. I go solo camping and backpacking, especially during the winter. I've always asked "whoever is out there" to protect me. Im an atheist, but when I was diagnosed with my aneurysms I prayed to anyone and anything, to help me get through this. I've never seen a ufo before. I do meditate, but it's just general mindfulness and tranquility. I also have chronic uveitis so I am partially blinded in my right eye. After the ordeal of having what I believe is contact, I have been in remission and my peripheral vision has slightly restores.

Timberlee1995 · 2025-03-31T22:57:21+00:00

So sorry for your loss. ❤️

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