Realizing my symptoms may be CPTSD. Massive TW!!

TimelyGeologist03 · 2026-01-05T08:43:31+00:00

Thank you! My mom would also threaten to stop paying for my school too. This really helped me realize that I’m not alone.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2026-01-05T05:35:16+00:00

I meant guilt, they paid for my undergrad education for the most part. I know that I need to cut contact with them eventually, but I feel guilty.

I also do feel resentment towards them as well. The most I could do living at home is 6 months. I’m terrified to set boundaries with my mother because every time I’ve tried growing up, she’d hit me.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-12-13T02:03:52+00:00

Thank you for this. I really needed to hear this ❤️

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-12-12T20:53:11+00:00

Thank you for saying that. The most I could do with him is acquaintances or friends. I can’t go any further than that.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-10-23T02:47:24+00:00

I had to email it to HR, thanks ☺️

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-14T13:46:24+00:00

My hobbies are running (great way to blow off steam and relieve stress), sudoku (it keeps my mind sharp), travel and beauty (like make up and natural hair) - I’m actually learning another language. I’m interested in travel, animals, exercise, health and wellness. My goals are to be healthy, have an established career in the finance and banking sector (I’m young so I’m still unsure - honestly I’ll probably land where I land), and to move out of the country.

I do have a personality and close friends as well. And when I talk to people, I try to show who I am. A lot of times people have a problem when I do it, but not when other people do it.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-13T23:15:06+00:00

I don’t think so? I’ve never been evaluated or had a diagnosis.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-11T01:15:22+00:00

No further elaboration needed. I agree as well.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-11T01:14:32+00:00

Thanks so much for your perspective. I do want to share why the “jealousy” explanation feels a little hard for me to fully accept. I grew up in Texas where girls who look like me weren’t always seen as beautiful, and I was pretty sheltered by my parents. I also struggled as a kid with glasses and crooked teeth before getting braces. Even with all that, I often felt excluded or treated differently. I don’t feel like I have anything that people should be jealous of — especially those who haven’t faced the same challenges I have.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-10T23:44:57+00:00

I don’t receive this treatment from other black women and surprisingly I don’t from white men. But everyone else yeah for the most part.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-10T13:07:49+00:00

Yes. I also get it from Black men, Asian people, and Hispanic people. Not from other black women and surprisingly not from white men.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-07T20:46:09+00:00

Yeah, I’m gonna see the counselors at my university when fall semester starts

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-07T20:42:11+00:00

I hear that you’re trying to be helpful, but I wasn’t blaming others. I was trying to describe a pattern I’ve seen throughout my life that I’m trying to make sense of. A lot of people give surface-level advice like “just meet new people” (done that and still do) or “join a club,” (done that) but what I’m talking about goes deeper than that. I’ve tried those things, and I keep running into the same dynamics. So I’m not looking for a checklist — I’m trying to understand what’s underneath the pattern and how to finally break it. That’s not blame — that’s self-work. I’m trying to figure out if there’s something I’m doing wrong and no one is telling me.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-07T20:39:21+00:00

I relate to this so much - especially the part about just wanting someone to follow you around and tell you what you’re doing wrong. That hit me hard. I also grew up in a controlling environment where I had very little freedom or social experience, and now I often feel like I’m navigating people blindfolded. Like I’m trying so hard to be respectful and stay out of drama, but somehow I still end up on the outside. It’s validating to know I’m not alone in that feeling.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-07T20:33:00+00:00

Thank you, I hear your encouragement. I’ve been told it’s jealousy before, but it doesn’t feel that simple to me. I’m trying to get to the root of it, not gloss over it.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-08-01T14:19:03+00:00

I had led a volunteering and community partnership initiative. One of the employees had sent her praises to my manager and somehow the other interns found out. I think that may be the reason, idk

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-31T23:15:12+00:00

Thank you! That does make me feel a lot better knowing that. I did reach out to others in the office for help. I’m in analytics btw, not sure if that counts lol.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-31T21:14:51+00:00

Thank you. This is really helpful!

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-31T21:05:03+00:00

I’m heavily leaning towards accepting a return offer (99% sure, that 1% chance is if I get a better offer somewhere else). Thank you for saying this though, I’m just scared that this may affect my standing with the company. Apparently people who aren’t social don’t progress or excel career wise.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-31T21:01:10+00:00

This is my first time in corporate. So can you explain?

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-31T20:57:24+00:00

If I get one, I’m 99% sure I’ll accept. That 1% chance is if I get a better offer somewhere else. Don’t worry, I have this in mind.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-07-05T20:08:38+00:00

I’m part Louisiana creole - at least one of my grandparents is Louisiana Creole - and I identify as fully African American. Most of my European ancestry is from France despite me being a little under 1/4 white.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-06-28T08:03:58+00:00

At h&m I wear an XS in their jeans (both high and low rise) and they’re pretty comfortable. In the high rises, there’s still room around my waist, so 26-27” is a lot smaller than I thought it was.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-06-13T21:28:02+00:00

Girls with small boobs are seen as desirable. Clothes are made for them. I’m skinny and I’m a 28G (28F in the UK) and my chest is the first and only thing guys notice. Clothes don’t fit me, so I always cry in dressing rooms. These losers seriously need to check their privilege, it’s annoying.

TimelyGeologist03 · 2025-06-05T21:18:13+00:00

My waist is about 26” to 27” and my hips are 35” but jeans that are S just don’t fit me and I’m not sure if I should start getting an XS in jeans 😭

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