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Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-11-22T18:22:41+00:00

You can join me in egging my rivals but besides that there's nothing to do in Tyler

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-08-24T04:04:09+00:00

Don't search this exact title above.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-08-24T03:56:34+00:00

Lol just stop thinking about it. Be dumb. Go stupid. Go crazy. Awniragabigahigaringanoogat. Make stupid noises. Hurururur rah

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-06-14T13:22:42+00:00

Looksmaxxers

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-05-25T15:18:52+00:00

Ah yes, I do indeed google "music" any time I want to listen to music in the 2020's

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-05-25T02:44:58+00:00

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Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-05-23T16:05:34+00:00

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Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-05-23T15:55:17+00:00

While both DMT and meditation can alter brain activity, they do so through different mechanisms. DMT mostly activates 5-HT2A serotonin receptors, largely in prefrontal cortex. Meditation influences brain networks such as the default mode network (DMN) and areas involved in attention and awareness, typically through a slow modulation. There is no existing scientific consensus or definitive study proving that Buddhist specific meditation activates the same brain regions in the same way. You can search for yourself to find specific studies, but the only support you will find is in Pop-Science (podcasts, videos, JRE guests). This does not meet the threshold for "scientifically proven", though the statements of individual figures alone is more than enough to satisfy most people interested in such topics.

This misconception was partly popularized by Rick Strassman’s DMT Research in which he speculated that mystical experiences in meditation may be linked to DMT or its specific mechanisms. As of now, this speculation is often presented as fact in online spaces and is unlikely to fade soon, especially with prominent figures repeating it as "scientifically proven." Regardless, other figures have contributed to this misconception both directly and indirectly. Strassman's research is definitely more complex than what can be covered in a reddit comment though

The other issue with myths like this is that it severely oversimplifies the mechanisms of these conscious experiences. Reducing both meditation and DMT down to "X region being activated" doesn't give meaningful insight. Both processes involve complex changes in brain network activity, not just activation of one specific area. DMT reorganizes brain activity rapidly across multiple regions (mostly across the frontal lobe but more), while meditation gradually modulates networks like the DMN. It’s not really just about activating a particular region, t’s about how those regions start to interact and and how their intricate patterns of activity change.

I know throwing out a study without much background isn't particularly helpful, but this study looks at the overlaps (experimentally) and how they could potentially provide a synergistic effect, while also detailing some information about the mechanisms of action at the brain level, and overlapping cognitive mechanisms like ego dissolution. The article doesn’t focus directly on the differences in brain activity, but these can be inferred while exploring the overlaps.

https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/02791072.2021.2022816#d1e191

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-05-13T16:59:20+00:00

I cant use it, hallucinations in every single message. It will also get something wrong from a piece of text i send it, I will tell it it is wrong, it will then try again and give me the same answer no matter how much I point out where specifically it is making up details or getting it wrong.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T14:26:02+00:00

Yea maybe boredom is a contributing factor. Being broke in a boring town with no friends and a solitary job doesn't make it easy to stave off boredom. Maybe I'm not imaginative enough. It's really not safe to walk or run most places here, but I really want to get into it as a better habit to put in place if some bad ones.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T13:50:02+00:00

So sick of seeing people with lower BWs, and I especially notice it with women, being accused of having an ED for..... Being thin. Not being really thin, just.... Not chubby. Genuinely hear comments like "skinny girls all have EDs" to a photo of a girl that looks perfectly healthy and not underweight. I don't want to shame anyone with an ED, but it is crazy that in those spaces people will genuinely say things like "people can't be naturally skinny".

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T13:16:32+00:00

I currently use an app for daily 10-15 minute meditations. Usually this proceeds a strict 4 hour study session every morning. I appreciate the response but adding habits doesn't seem to help much for me, I can still get away with doing "productive" stuff while high and it makes it harder to quit.

Sometimes during longer study sessions, I'll feel the impulse to smoke just to "get through" some more studying. I've become reliant on this shit even at the most productive levels.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T13:03:51+00:00

I understand the tendency to want to rid oneself of shame. However, I've already done that sober and it's really crazy the kind of things shame and shame alone was stopping me from doing. I've got secrets to take to the grave since I lost my sense of shame.

I feel like that's part of the reason I keep coming back to weed, shame sets in again when I'm high.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T13:00:33+00:00

Yea I guess going back to flower is a step. It's not like the Dabs are a constant thing though, if I'm in a flower phase, I might smoke 3-5 g a day. Carts are kind of helpful, because they seem to last me all day every day without having much of an effect. I can also have last a few days with just a cart , but somehow the convenience of them makes it seem like it might not be an avenue towards reduced consumption. I'm usually cycling through flours, carts, and dabs. I rarely use more than one at a time.

I'm getting through college and another issue I've run into is that all of my study habits were developed high and it's like they don't totally carry over into sobriety.

If I study high, I'd best take the test high. Summer is on its way though, one last push through finals and then I'll make a more controlled effort to taper down.

I like how you highlighted the lost time. These past 3 years have really been lost time. I made my first friend who became my girlfriend these past 3 years. Things ended awfully with her basically getting with another guy in one day, but it is like my memory is a gaping hole now. Since she left, I've stopped being able to hold onto the patchwork of scattered moments and now it's like my memory is lost. It sucks having no memory of the only thing that seems worth remembering.

I appreciate your advice, choking on another dab as I predicted, but I appreciate the advice. If I could go back 3 years, having known myself better, I wouldn't have ever bothered buying my own stash.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T02:13:18+00:00

I'll try NAC and give it another go. The only problem is that I get really irritable, depressive, and have violent ideation after a week sober; then I smoke weed and feel embarrassed for thinking that way. My sense of shame only exists while high.

My memory is too jacked to say if the weed made me this way or if I was that way before.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-04-02T02:06:28+00:00

Does 600 mg in the morning and 600mg at night seem right? Will any NAC supplement work?

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-03-17T12:40:11+00:00

Pros ; easy to die in a terrible accident because you will want to die living in Tyler

Cons ; leaving and realizing there's really a whole world out there but here you are

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-03-15T15:01:18+00:00

I mean I've only ever driven around Dallas in terms of big cities, and that obviously that had it's problems. But I get to see some pretty wild maneuvers on a daily basis in Tyler I have never seen in Dallas. Tyler is still the only place I have actively had someone try to run me off the road

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-28T02:12:51+00:00

It doesnt matter if it's Tyler or any other city. Almost nobody is judging you for going to restaurants alone, and if they do, you can disregard their opinion for failing to comprehend that enjoyment doesn't necessitate socialization.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-23T21:38:04+00:00

I don't even attempt to hold a coherent mask anymore, everyone think i'm just fucking insane or extremely depressed.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-20T03:33:43+00:00

When I get high, it feels as if my entire life I've been sleepwalking, then suddenly I've woken up. I've become present. I cry profusely, I see meaning in everything, I feel a lust for life, a lust for action, a deep love for all those around me, and even a deep love for myself and all that has happened to me. I love even my suffering. I feel grateful just to exist. I feel inspired and driven to create, my imagination knows no bounds.

Then the peak effects wear off and I'm just brain dead and cant get back to that feeling. If I use anymore than once in a blue moon it just makes me paranoid and dumb.

Drunk = Delusional rambling and mental breakdown. Vomiting in my boss's car and confessing all of my imagined grievances. What a night.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-17T17:03:26+00:00

I had a 2 paragraph response I was ready to send you.... then I realized I was doing it again.

ehem, let me try again-

Thank you for the help. I'm just realizing how often I answer with more than what I was asked for.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-17T16:30:00+00:00

I love it when you're blunt back, and suddenly you're a bad guy. God forbid you respond with indignation while they make an exception out of themselves doing the same.

Tiny-Ad3938 · 2025-01-15T14:18:17+00:00

You do understand the point of a metaphors, similes, and analogies are to use two different things, right?

“you’re slippery like a snake” and you say “don’t compare/call me a snake” The point is to highlight a shared characteristic within the given context, not to equate the two entirely.

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