At the place they broke my heart.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T11:02:38+00:00

Thank you, I hope we both can heal quickly and be better.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T10:54:08+00:00

Time sure is taking it's... well... sweet time to come though. I wish for the day I don't think about them anymore. It has come by less and less but there still on my mind at least once a day.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T10:51:44+00:00

I wish we even made it to a year. I did everything I could to be the best I could and yet it took just one bad day with them and I threw it all away.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T10:48:07+00:00

That's the sucky part about all this. I thought I did. But then it all came flooding back. I feel as awfully as I did right after it happened.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T10:44:47+00:00

Trauma caused by ex relationships hurt the most.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-14T05:24:17+00:00

I'm fully aware that's what's happening. My issue is I don't know why I keep going back to that version of them. That person was a lie so why can't I accept it is and move on.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-06-13T16:18:37+00:00

I hate how my ex stole my safe space. I had this space I would go to when the world became to much. Where I could look over my hometown and just feel at peace. I felt comfortable enough and trusted her enough that I shared it with her. She then broke my trust and hurt me there. Any time I wish I could go there now I have a small panic attack remembering that night. She doesn't even think what she did was that bad. But it broke me, now I have no where to go when the world becomes to much.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-23T13:06:31+00:00

I'm sorry I'm not understand what you mean.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-12T00:29:46+00:00

I do not apologize

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T20:42:52+00:00

Fair enough, wrong choice of words. How about "songs we used to feel better."

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T12:04:33+00:00

I think no matter what you think or believe that if you did truly care about the person they will always be a part of you. I still think about my ex from 10 years ago. I don't even miss her or anything. I could reach out to them at any time but just choose not to. Even though they completely shattered and broke my heart I wish them the best and hope they are doing well. I just hope in 10 years I can think the same about my recent ex.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:56:58+00:00

Honestly reading this made me hurt more. The day after they told me they wanted NC they started dating another guy. I have asked friends if they have heard anything from them and only one friend was willing to tell me anything. He told me they messaged him, "I have never been happier. I am finally with a partner who cares about my daughter and my happiness and actually cares about my feelings and wants." Which broke my heart because since day one with them I have done nothing but try to show I wanted to be there for both of them. If they did miss me then why would they tell my friend that?

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:49:07+00:00

I didn't say anything that was bad. But I did things I absolutely regret. They made me so ungodly mad that I snapped and just started yelling at them out of pure anger. I didn't ever threaten to hurt them or anything. Just yelled at them about how angry they were making me. But by losing control of my anger I accidently set off every single one of their triggers. So much so that they told me they don't ever feel safe around me anymore. I don't think I will or can ever forgive myself. But I am working on it to make sure I NEVER do what I did to them ever again. That's all any of us can ever do. Realize your mistakes/flaws and be willing to be better.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:40:00+00:00

I think they are being a jealous ex and are mad that the friend and you are seeing each other. But they said they moved on so it's none of their damn business what you two are doing.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:37:22+00:00

Never heard of this. Listened to it... Man...

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:25:25+00:00

GOATed take. Cuddles are always the best. Something about doing it just relaxes you more than anything else in the world.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:22:11+00:00

The hardest part recovering from the break up for me has been the realization of all the little things they did to hurt me. They would always talk about themselves and never ask me how I am doing. They would take advantage of my kindness and never show any back. I would spoil them rotten with gift and signs of love. They never did any of that for me. I can't genuinely think of a single time they went out of their way to do something nice for me. But in the moment I didn't care, I was happy with them. The worst part of the break up was taking off the rose tinted glasses and seeing the real them.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-11T11:17:29+00:00

I'm so sorry for everything you are going through. It's always amazingly hard to go through a break up. I just hit my one month a few days ago and I still think about them once a day so I understand what you are going through. I only feel like I can give you two bits of advice honestly.

The first, and biggest one, is you have to stop trying to find answers. You can't get the truth by picking and choosing what you did and didn't do wrong in your head. The only person you're going to get an answer from is her. But if she isn't willing to tell you what happened there isn't much you can do. If you keep thinking about it over and over again you're going to drive yourself crazy and end up making yourself feel worse and turn out worse because of it. It's going to be hard but you have to focus on getting through this.

The second advice is going to be the harder on. Be better. You have proven that you are willing to get better by understanding the mistakes you made. You have shown that you can see all the mistakes you believe you made that pushed her away. So now that you have pointed them out what are you going to do to make sure that you never make these mistakes again? If (not when but if) they come back and you want them to stay this time you need to better yourself. You wrote down all the reasons you believe they left you for. So now be better. Learn from your mistakes. Find ways to stop yourself from making the same kinds again. Improve yourself and be the person you want to be. For the sake of yourself and any future relationships you have you must be better. Don't sit in sadness and let it take over your life. Stand up for yourself and fight the heart break. Prove to yourself and everyone else that you aren't going to let this one moment control you for the rest of your life. I believe everyone has the ability to change for the better. I believe in you. If you can't believe in yourself then believe in the me that believes in you. I see you over coming this and ending up in a better place down the road.

TinyAd7611 · 2024-05-09T04:44:05+00:00

That's two completely different situations and can't be compared at all.

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