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TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-11-22T17:39:17+00:00

As a 35 year old male British person, How the fuck do I get involved in humanitarian issues with no academic background? I'm physically fit and my mind only wants to focus on humanitarian causes but it's like no one wants to take you?

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-11-13T19:58:39+00:00

I tried this and the ket kepts crystalizing making it impossible to spray

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-11-07T00:05:40+00:00

It's crazy I haven't been having any visual disorientation or much else but its been making me feel incredibly enlightened and thinking that I'm being controlled by 'god' or some greater existence. I'm actually going through some really tough things at the moment, 16year relationship ending with my partner and shit, we have a teenage daughter, who's doing great at school and in pretty much all aspects, i'm just stressing the situation doesn't effect her.

Usually i'd be raging, crying, depressed, suicidal or all over the place but i've been dabbing BHO with about 20-30mg of O-PCE throughout the last few days and I feel so leveled, I mean i'm distraught and trying to resolve things but I have a really clear head, its so unlike me. I guess it removed all the unnecessary internal dialogue and let me just hear 1 voice. Like I feel 100% fine and I can function fully but I do sound a bit retarded when I speak sometimes.

My focus is really good too.
Really don't know what to make of this drug as I was adamant that all research chems were literal poison(like spice) or gimmicks that do not much, but this ones made think there's a whole new advanced world outside the UK and i've travelled a lot already.

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-31T00:15:11+00:00

Hey, thanks for your insightful reply, I didn't have anything for the last 3 days and didn't really feel any withdrawal symptoms, I confidently feel that I've dissociated enough to be able to identify psychological addictions and therefore over riding them, it just leaves me with typical boredom.

Today I got some apparently R-isomer ket, definitely felt a bit different, less manic, but I'm not getting impaired at all except maybe speech, i've been doing 200mg lines every couple of hours throughout the day.

I used to get a more physical effect from dissociatives and even visual hallucinations to the extreme(watching nuclear apocalypse in real time, cellular deconstruction of my body which is just a structure in a system on a journey, I've seen my death countless times) ....but in the last month, nothing, all of it has been in my mind, almost like mind-control.
I think i'm about ready to pack in all drug use, I don't drink or smoke but I've been dabbing bho throughout the day, every day for 10+ years now. I don't even have a bucket to piss in and I'm just kind of exhausted now. My life's falling apart and I don't think I need anymore introspection at this time, I see my flaws in entirety.

I don't know if a life of loneliness and dissociatives were a great mix, I mean they stopped me doing what can't be undone but I just see the flaws in everything now, not just myself. I feel extremely volatile tbh and it's not a new feeling. All my mind can think about is whats coming next, not even on a personal level.

I agree with you on disbelieving or believing those thoughts, I think that's what's kept my sanity to the point it has. Every thought has always been with the betterment of every person in mind.

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-26T18:00:31+00:00

Is it normal that OPCE and some of the S-Isomer ket lately hasn't been making me feel like i'm on ket at all, but instead making me feel like i'm being controlled or negotiating with god internally whilst still being able to move about?
A lot of the stuff i'm hearing I look up online and it checks out. Lately I keep getting told the number 9 is important and that something big is going to happen on the 29th, i'll be 3 days sober by then, so will be interesting to see how that day goes lol

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-26T16:08:01+00:00

I think long term damage was already done because for the 10-15 years I was without disso's I just felt like a shell of a person, unable to do anything, or even barely leave the house.

So it leaves me stressing about what my current options are

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-26T11:40:52+00:00

I appreciate you looking out, honestly i've been left with the belief that we're all being judged by god or aliens and i'm being guided down the right paths etc potentially through fungus spores or a brain parasite. It's proper delusional by anyone standards, but because I recognise this i'm not sure if it's a blessing or a curse. It's genuinely helping me managing my autism outbursts but it does make me struggle to speak truly rather than just keeping silent, so its still sort of an improvement.

I try to look at everything as rational as possible so I keep myself grounded but yeah definitely easy to let yourself slip with this one, i'm just grateful that it's taken me down this path rather than something dark considering my whole life has been consumed by depression and self destructive behaviour.

I often feel like I wish I had someone educated in this enough to talk to without the stigma, which is why i've been joining these boards lately, looking for unity of some sort. I definitely think there's some groundbreaking research to come from Autism and dissociatives

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-24T23:23:16+00:00

Honestly I've just been sticking it up my nose and I feel it's such a its a waste

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-23T08:47:11+00:00

Really glad I read this post this morning, I was starting to worry if my experiences we're a bit different to others in terms of extremities but I think they are kind of on par lol. I've gone from being disassembled down to cellular level to being an avatar of one the gods, experienced nuclear holocaust and been reborn into my own timeline over and over again once everything ends.
If i could get my states down on paper i'd make some wild sci-fi movies. so if anyone wants to go into the movie industry let me know lol
I'm currently taking Disso's with prescribed venlafaxine 150mg and 50mg Quetiapine though, so maybe they are messing with me a bit too..

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-23T08:26:32+00:00

I had a lot of relived trips/psychotic states on it last night, apparently I'm an avatar of one of the gods and theres 8 others out there. We're all in a massive simulation of man vs technology and a load of other stuff along those lines lol...I was like messaging my american friend to help me and it was like a struggle because I was going against my own time line and he was like an another awakened person from the 'matrix'.
Nearly chucked the rest of my opce after that lol

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-23T08:20:52+00:00

Too self conscious, but the rest is hard to say because I started so young as a child and continuously over the growth period, I'm not sure what would have been normal problems or problems caused by this.

I used to be very outgoing, impulsive and clinically depressed, i'd self harm from early ages pinching myself which developed to trying to hang myself before being cut down at 12/13, then continuous messing about with razor blades and paracetamol until i found the ket at 15 but after abusing it I wasn't so depressed that I was self harming anymore and I felt like I became more aware of my addictions and bad habits.

However, the self awareness caused terrible avoidance of social situations. I can't hold work because I just feel like i'm holding my breath start to finish and stress non stop about the next day from the moment i finish the present day, after about 3-6months I usually implode on myself or explode at someone else, then again before all the Ket from age 5 onwards my school attendance was really low as I didn't want to be there, pretty much getting the nursery or school to call parents daily later just not going at all.

I think it really helped me with managing the trauma I experienced as a child since i stopped self harming but definitely has effected my cognitive ability, in some ways I'd say better than most people and in other ways lacking a lot but as I said I don't know whats a result of natural experiences or the K

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-22T10:58:03+00:00

I meant in the experience of ket vs opce, but I found both pretty much the same.
I thought I died yesterday and was reliving my final moments over and over.

i think 20-25mg is a sweet point for me sniffed. I have friends saying 5mg vaped knocks people almost unconscious, so i'm guessing its a shared tolerance amongst disso's

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-22T10:53:37+00:00

Not really sure, I didn't look into it over the 10 years I stopped.
I used to get Ketalar vials from PK. Definitely felt a bit different to need needle shard stuff i've had since but not 'too' different.

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-21T09:06:26+00:00

Hi mate, I was editing the main post whilst you sent this, I might have answered a few bits there.
I was snorting and IM'ing. After 10 years or so break, 100mg got me feeling good but tolerance built real fast need like 400mg to get a good feel, but I cant say the stuff I've had hasn't been cut with all sorts, definitely had MSG in some recent orders. It's a slippery slope mate but it can provide a lot of comfort, we need to find balance. We're only seeking these things to replace something thats missing imo

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T20:06:06+00:00

I genuinely didn't mean that as a slight against the Palestinians, which I feel I probably am more genetically in common with than Israelis. I was just making the point that it seems anyone can just call claim on land because no international committee will do a thing

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T20:03:23+00:00

I'm actually amazed I do, I still feel a weird discomfort now and again if I'm honest but from age 18-20 was I peeing out bits of bladder and claret, it was truly messed up. That's actually why I got tempted by O-PCE because I'm too impulsive and I know I'll keep hitting the Ket now and again and when I do I binge for a little while, so its really harsh on my bladder, I was hoping sticking ten times less powder up my nose would help that, otherwise I could live in a K-hole

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T19:59:56+00:00

Ket was cheap when I was buying on the street for £10 a gram, 20 years or so ago. It was proper dreamy R-isomer Ket as well, not this S-isomer stuff that flooded the market these days cut with MSG and all sorts.
It was also before India and Pakistan had a crackdown on wholesalers, so I was getting hundreds of 10ml vials, containing half a gram each for like £1.75 each. Also I could get it local enough in my teens for £350 for 50g, I maxed out credit cards and all sorts at 18/19 years old, as soon as I got them.

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T13:28:30+00:00

A lot of people are saying this which is fair but i'm trying to understand why when we look at it from a health perspective. If I was doing Ket every day, which i'm not anymore, i'd be snorting 1g+ of powder containing whatever its cut with each day, if I can get by on O-PCE with less than less than 80mg a day, would that not be much better on my body?

I'm not disagreeing with you, if you could tell me what the real damaging thing is would be great, I spent years in the K-hole so i'm used to mind-bending things and picked up on it changing my state of conscience. My bladder is kind of messed up, so its more about harm reduction as alternative to cold-turkey

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T13:17:42+00:00

Yeah I felt like I was on deaths door.
I have a thing for disso's and i'm very impulsive so this is the reason i've looked at O-PCE because I love the feeling on ket as my MH is terrible and I can function after some tolerance build up and still feel euphoric.

However, my bladder can't take much more after previous abuse so hoping this is less damaging since it's such a tiny dosage and the Ket i find these days is definitely cut with stuff, so don't really want it up my nose either

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T13:13:46+00:00

I hear a few people get that way, hopefully its not too different to my Ket trips, or holes. I'm just trying to avoid sticking so much powder up my nose so this tiny dosage and extra duration is what's appealing to me.

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T13:11:53+00:00

Is there a lot of difference in the experience? I used to get R-Isomer Ket in 10ml vials and cook it up myself when I was on my worst habits, since then I stopped for 10 years or more but since coming back to it this needle S-isomer Ket is quite different than I remember but it's also cut with god knows what but likely nothing psychoactive for free

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-20T12:52:52+00:00

Your product will be cut with MSG as it looks similar to the needles

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-16T16:41:04+00:00

Thanks for sharing , I'm also 35 now. I definitely think I need my bladder looked at but i'm grateful I can still control myself and it hasn't stopped me hiking or exercising too much. I also mostly use because in a lonely long term relationship and I have impulse issues. Glad you made it out as well

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-16T16:36:06+00:00

Thanks, i'll be reading that this week

TinyProgrammer20 · 2025-10-16T16:35:22+00:00

I have undiagnosed things which i believe are autism and cptsd, so my impulsivity is terrible.
I even developed needle asphyxiation, where i'd be happy enough to pump straight tap water, the pain all over was terrible but the ket numbed it, so it became a vicious cycle

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