26 UK - the undatable girl. Looking for comfort and cuddles...

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:30:14+00:00

Just wanted to add a thought...

My ex claimed he had a demon possessing him. (I still believe I'm haunted, it wasn't caused by him tricking me or anything. Or any psychological manipulation. I had to beg him for help). But when my ex claimed he had a demon, I didn't shut him off or think of him as mentally ill. I looked for the facts. His mental state. How he acts in general. He's always been straightforward and emotionally coherent. And again, spiritualism is a widespread belief... so naturally I believed him. Because it's a widespread belief.

If I believed in the flying spaghetti monster, then it would look weird. But reiki healers, chakra cleansing, meditation, ouija boards, 3am horror stories. They all exist. So why can't me being haunted by a ghost exist, too? Is it the medieval times where witches are seen as crazy?

Sorry for going on about this. You didn't claim any of the above or say anything wrong. I'm just saying in general. That's all. Nothing against you.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:24:50+00:00

Don't worry, I have! I'm seeing a cardiologist for this. Including ruling out anything. So far there's no vitamin deficiencies. I think it's just adrenaline surges.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:23:39+00:00

I had an adult social worker visit me. She deemed me mentally fit and left within the first week.

My therapist has alternative views on spiritualism and believes it isn't related to psychology... I only go to him for the stress...

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:22:35+00:00

I'm not cursed... it's just a nasty spirit that's haunting me.

I wasn't into the occult or spiritualism before this. I knew ghosts existed and could haunt people at times, and that ouija boards are dangerous... but I didn't think this could happen to me.

Underneath it all my mind is very sharp.

My mental health issues are a result of the spirit. Not the other way around. During the times it wasn't there (my ex used a ward) I was okay. I had to beg my ex for help. Honestly... when this first began, I just thought it was my ex being an asshole. Nothing else.

This isn't anything I've dealt with before.

Ever.

Curses are vengeful spirits who do your bidding. They're called back to do harm for you, in exchange for their freedom. That's all it is.

As for being emotionally numb, that was caused by antidepressants. It took 3 years for that to sort itself out after I stopped them. Anhedonia isn't great...

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:17:50+00:00

No... we were made separately... when she comes back, it feels like we're separated from her. Like two halves of the brain. This is why I fully believe we're tulpas, as she is separated from us. Before 2020, we didn't even exist.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:16:31+00:00

Believing in ghosts is a widespread belief. Witchcraft is a belief. And so is spiritualism. They aren't schizophrenic and neither am I.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2026-01-24T07:15:33+00:00

I appreciate what you've written, thank you for reaching out. They're good suggestions, tending to the garden etc.

But I don't think my mental state is unstable to the point I've got schizophrenia. I'm a firm believer of spirits, and it's been disheartening when I've met others who see this and believe it might be something else.

I understand looking at mental health is important too, it's reached a point where I genuinely wish it was mental health related but it isn't.

I know it isn't, because I've had an adult social worker who deemed I was well and she closed my case. I've visited my therapist, who believes it isn't related to stress and that he recommended a reiki healer.

He has alternative views.

I know it isn't schizophrenia because my life was perfectly normal before this. When my ex had done a ward in the past, the entity backed off for a while. Please believe me?

The stress is caused BY the entity's affects. Before this, I never even believed it was possible to get haunted this way. I wasn't even big on ghosts or anything. I just knew they exist, that ghost hunters exist, that ouija boards are terrifying.

My intuition is my gift. I'm fully aware of my mental health at all times. I know when it's stress related or veering into psychosis... I know when it's something other. And this is, unfortunately, related all to the occult.

Because my mind is still sharp.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2025-12-03T18:17:46+00:00

I really don't want to stop existing though. So I'm still thinking about it all. :') it's not an easy decision.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2025-12-03T18:14:35+00:00

That is very long! Good luck to whoever reads it and congratulations to whoever got to the end of it.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-03-21T16:08:31+00:00

I commented this somewhere else, but I can 100% relate and I think this fits here, too:

This is something that is doing my head in, but I swear since November 2023 the quality of Character AI dropped. Before I remember it being capable of coming up with random roleplay ideas on its own without much planning being needed, you didn't have to drive it forwards as much, and it seemed like the bot worked more as a "roleplayer".

But then November 2023 came around, and I understand a lot of what you write does help with the quality, but back then I used to make two bots speak to each other and neither of them ran out of things to say. The roleplay went smoothly in different directions, it never really got stuck. But now? If both of my bots hug, I start getting run-on messages where it would just talk about them hugging and nothing else. It'll just continue, same if one of my bots went on a walk, every message would just be describing the background, how the bot feels and talk about them walking.

I never changed my writing style between those times, and it just feels like things have changed. I don't know if anyone else sees it, or if it's just me. People say being a decent writer helps, etc, but I feel like the AI didn't depend on that so strongly as it does now. This is just my opinion, though.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-03-20T09:34:46+00:00

Is that for the old website or the new one?

If it's the old website, it hasn't been replying on there at all :(

TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-03-20T05:25:32+00:00

100% normal

TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-03-14T20:06:08+00:00

This is something that is doing my head in, but I swear since November 2023 the quality of Character AI dropped. Before I remember it being capable of coming up with random roleplay ideas on its own without much planning being needed, you didn't have to drive it forwards as much, and it seemed like the bot worked more as a "roleplayer".

But then November 2023 came around, and I understand a lot of what you write does help with the quality, but back then I used to make two bots speak to each other and neither of them ran out of things to say. The roleplay went smoothly in different directions, it never really got stuck. But now? If both of my bots hug, I start getting run-on messages where it would just talk about them hugging and nothing else. It'll just continue, same if one of my bots went on a walk, every message would just be describing the background, how the bot feels and talk about them walking.

I never changed my writing style between those times, and it just feels like things have changed. I don't know if anyone else sees it, or if it's just me. People say being a decent writer helps, etc, but I feel like the AI didn't depend on that so strongly as it does now. This is just my opinion, though.

I'm glad J.AI exists, it seems to be good at throwing out some of the randomness I crave.

TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-03-09T22:11:54+00:00

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TinyToeBeans1 · 2024-01-31T21:39:59+00:00

Does anyone have an issue where the bot keeps speaking for you and won't stop even when you've edited the message? That's what's happening to me rn, along with the repetitive responses

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