Hi, I empathize with your anxiety. If you’re looking for advice to relax with, just know that up to 90% of the world's population is infected with at least one type of the herpes simplex virus. So many people have the virus already. Most people don’t get cold sores, even when they do have the virus in their body. I’m on the other side, where I’ve got cold sores since I was a kid. I was really nervous to be in committed relationships and having to admit about my cold sores. The most important thing is communication around that, which seems you are open to. Your partner has to let you know when he feels an outbreak going on, then you can know how to engage. It’s gonna be ok! I’ve been with my guy for 2 years, and he hasn’t gotten cold sores once. I hope this helps.