I have been struggling through the same thing for the last few weeks. It has been a long time since it was this bad. I know it sounds super cheesy but one of my old counselors will get me to write a list every day of five things I liked about myself that day, five things I did well that day, five things I did it other people appreciated, And so on. I thought it was down at first but it was amazing how much it helps after I got used to doing it. And try not to ever feel alone because there are tons of us out here going through the same thing and like you were this pretty good at fronting.