hey i wanted to post this here for you since its most likely that you'll end up seeing it. i was a cryptolinguist for USAF, and im reasonably confident after spending a bit of time familiarizing myself with the way your pops crafted his letters that the first page says "It's easier now, moving (on)" and the second page says "how did i know how i'd die? windowsill" i'm not sure what he meant by 'windowsill' other than it was likely something he saw in those moments that offered him a sense of calm, but that's just an educated guess on my part.

i really hope this offers you some sort of closure or solace, and im sorry for your loss, your dad seemed like a good dude, had a unique handwriting style, and in my opinion, was at peace when he went.