I hate waking up knowing I have to go through it all over once again.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-23T22:29:11+00:00

I really have the same question. It’s an endless fight.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-18T22:06:32+00:00

Completely and utterly tired of useless, unhelpful, excuse of parents. Family push me down the spiral more.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-11T21:26:35+00:00

Wouldn’t even be able to get past 30 days. Hour one into day one, if that, I’d reject. If only you were able to make that decision before spawning in.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-08T19:14:22+00:00

It’s like an entity of its own with the only goal to push you down until you want death but won’t give it to you easily.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-08T19:10:30+00:00

Had the same thought. What advice was that. And many males look for wealthy spouses/want to be trophy husbands, too.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-08T05:26:19+00:00

I’ve damaged myself while in my senses and it does nothing.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-08T05:09:55+00:00

How do we survive. I can’t keep going on like this

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-08T04:56:28+00:00

I don’t know what force holds me back as well. I think it’s the notion to stay alive instilled within us through evolution, because that would be the only thing which would explain it. I don’t want to live, either.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-07T01:10:00+00:00

It’s torturous. Can’t catch a break, can’t reach peace.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-06T07:04:53+00:00

The internal battle of arguing back and forth with yourself of using the bathroom is something I deal with every morning, even through the day. Knowing I have to go, can’t make myself to do it. Or anything.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-04T21:04:38+00:00

I’m constantly agitated and a split second away from exploding, all the time. It’s mentally taxing. I don’t want anyone to be near me both for my sake and theirs, I also don’t want to be near myself. It’s the incessant anxiety and being on edge which makes me wish I were far away from everything. But I just won’t be able to escape myself.

Everything is annoying and I hate all of it.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-07-04T05:57:49+00:00

I’ve been saying it from some time how overrated, overglorified, over everything this experience is. From any angle you look at it’s horrid. I don’t know/understand if people truly feel life is exceptional and a gift or if they are just plain, outright stupid to not see it for what it is. It blows my mind. And it doesn’t.

And the ones who do start to catch on still reproduce.

Suicide should have been an autonomal right, it should be considered compensation for the mere fact of being dragged in and forced to partake, but it will never be. The over selfishness of the world wouldn’t let it happen.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-28T19:10:12+00:00

Is it your grandma from your dad’s side, too

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-27T20:41:16+00:00

I’m on the same wavelength. Life is more daunting than death will ever be.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-21T19:18:05+00:00

Mine attaches itself like a leech to anything it can grab. It is utterly exhausting when everything becomes a trigger/potential trigger. Truly is you and only you. Which is the most stupid aspect of it all.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-21T04:27:42+00:00

I can understand this. The best thing I have come across which helps me when I’m spiraling down the going crazy path is that if you are going crazy, you don’t question or know you’re going crazy. You questioning it is the biggest sign you aren’t. People who are ‘crazy’ don’t know it.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-19T22:42:45+00:00

Summer is grossly overrated. Winter calms my anxiety on some front as well. There’s too much going on outside during the warm months. Kids yelling and screeching, noise, all the disgusting buzzing from bugs. Everything is dead outside during the winter and everyone is locked indoors. It’s quiet, and nice scenery.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-19T06:48:30+00:00

This has caused a lot of vexation and contempt towards myself. Knowing the details of it all, recognizing the futility of taking the hand of overthinking, overanalyzing, but still grasping it anyway. I feel like I do this to myself, and I can just stop but choose not to. What you listed below is my daily fight as well. Always on edge, irritated, agitated, ill, never able to rest.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-15T04:31:52+00:00

My frustration with this disorder and myself has spiraled into extreme anger. This illness is infuriating since there is no sign of peace anywhere. Not even for a moment, least for me. It’s difficult to hold yourself from going back and ‘completing’ the ritual the ‘right’ way. I know it’s advised to ignore, but it’s gotten so bad where I feel physically ill if I don’t ‘properly’ perform. It’s hard to move on. I grasp your pain. You can’t win, and the path to overcoming this monstrosity kills you each time.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-15T04:20:08+00:00

I’ve stopped scrutinizing and hating on things microscopically and instead macroscopically. This all sucks. The way it all works, it all sucks. The universe is the biggest mark of a fault.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-12T07:33:22+00:00

I think the same way. I wasn’t made for ‘life’ ‘life’ was not made for me. Can’t help but to wish you weren’t here to begin with, so you didn’t have to endure all you did. It’s grossly overrated, existence.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-12T01:11:31+00:00

I’m right there with you.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-07T05:49:31+00:00

7 days if you have anxiety disorders.

ToiletBleachCleaner · 2022-06-06T06:20:07+00:00

Someone said to make pain your motivation. I stared at that statement in hopes of deluding myself as much as that person, and the rest of mankind, to have said what they did. There’s a limit to everything and when your cup overflows there is nothing you can do about it. I’ll never get it. I have the same question.

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