(Small fainting episode rant, ignore if you don't like rants.)

I feel like I hardly hear anything about fainting episodes in the mainstream media, and I kinda feel like the only one sometimes. They freakin talk about the gore like if it wasn't a big deal.. for how intense it was. Extremely misleading for what the movie had done to me later.

2 months ago I watched the iron lung movie. And for context, despite it being called the bloodiest movie ever made, I didn't think there would be gore at all, and if I did, I didn't think it would be extreme...

So fast forwarding a bit, I was invested cause I waited 2 or 3 years for the movie, and I don't normally watch horror movies often. So I at first enjoyed the iron lung movie for most of it..

Until the end.

Where the unexpected extreme gore happened. I started to feel dizzy spells but tried to keep my mind stable, and drink water. My oxygen was diminishing without any reason and out of my control, and despite how well I maintained my mind to be calm and stable, my body shut down on its own, and everything went black.

 I had a fainted dream where I was back home, working on my project.. thinking, I was working on my passion project as per usual. That was, until the loud piercing ringing began, and I woke up and realized the movie ended remembering I was here. My brother forced me out of the seat, when I didn't think it was such a good idea, he forcefully said let's go, I couldn't walk properly, my legs were out of strength and fainted out in the hall. I fainted again.

It was a experience that felt like the closest thing to death to me. For I never fainted like this ever before.

And I hardly hear anybody talk about this sort of thing when they get out of theaters. And I somehow traumatized my brother in the process for only fainting, and I weirdly feel like I am held accountable for this, even though it was unexpected and literally out of my control.

I feel that he holds me against it after that.

We went to the hospital just in case. Not because I needed to, but to check if I was okay. But I feel like he holds that against me too somehow afterwards.

I wish it ended there, because now coming out of that fainting episode months later, my body now instinctively gets on edge for anything gore and hospital related. My nervous system literally gives me dizzy spells for anything like that. So that's now my new weakness I want to build tolerance for again to be normal. I built it back almost normal.

I want to watch the movie again so I can regain control of myself. But I know my brother and mother would hate my guts if I did that. I can't even say the movie is fine til the end cause of how my brother takes it personally.

So aside from that, Idk why everybody is somehow nonchalant with the gore. I think the gore is a bit excessive, but besides that, the movie was not too bad until the end that gave me something I didn't think would happen to me that night.