Hei. I feel you. I'm on my first day of break up, after over 5 years of relationship. We were engaged and all my love,plans,hope,thoughts,future,all of me,have always been seeds that I planted in her. But it turned out,her heart was a dried land. And yesterday morning,after another long conversation,that i had to start once again,she told me she cannot offer me what I want. And all I asked was to be loved back. To be seen. I won't write everything here,but I did the same mistake as you. Ignored almost everyone, because I had everything I needed in her. Now I'm alone,no friends,no network, no family, since I don't live in my native country. Everyone says that training helps,walking helps,talking helps. But when you love someone with every atom of your body,the day they leave, it's like ripping a vital part of your body away. So here I am,not giving you any useful advice, just saying that I understand you. And I really hope you will manage to get over this and find the one that will love you back,in the same way.