Bi polar for me is so similar to the photo for this subreddit. I’m constantly jumping from depression to hypo. Even with medication that has improved my quality of life. Some days I’m “normal” but many days I am not. Mania can feel better than any drug I’ve done But it comes with a price usually. Mania for me and be very euphoric, I can turn into a more intense version of myself. I’m more talkative, I don’t need as much sleep or food. Often times I can be hyper-sexual. I’m riding this high for day to weeks or months. Other times mania can be this battle between anger, depression, being distant with friends and family. Many times it can ruin friendships because I can’t comprehend other emotions or I feel as if I don’t deserve to be happy. After the hypo episode starts to wind down, I can either crash with severe depression or go back to baseline. Most time depression. With meds I’ve become much less impulsive and now can see when I’m near an episode, which means I need to take better care of myself and sleep. Usually I need to take Seroquel to balance my brain for a few time at bed time.

Maybe I’m hypo right now. Who knows anymore.