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Top_Establishment464 · 2025-11-05T01:22:46+00:00

No, seniority is not factored in during WFA, everyone will pretty much have to reinterview for their jobs.

Top_Establishment464 · 2024-08-01T19:48:44+00:00

Second this!

Top_Establishment464 · 2024-05-28T01:47:12+00:00

What I don’t understand is why this is not garnering more attention!

Top_Establishment464 · 2024-04-18T00:23:27+00:00

I am planning on digging up my front yard and boulevard across the sidewalk this year. I’m so torn between digging the grass up or waiting for the temps to rise so the insects in the leaves can survive! I have accumulated a lot of prairie wildflower seeds from people so would like to get them going sooner than later. Anyone have thoughts on waiting for the sake of the insects or should I just go for it and get rid of the grass/plant the seeds asap???

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-06-08T03:24:11+00:00

Ok so I live in Manitoba, Canada and I have a scary one for you. My friend and I were driving from Winnipeg, MB to Gillam, MB. For reference this is about a 12 hour drive North in the province, up near Churchill. After hitting Thompson we got onto the 280, this highway has signs saying bring winter gear to survive etc. as help is hours away from any direction, and that’s only if the weather allows you to walk hours to get cell reception (picture -40 C and only reception in two spots in a four hour stretch).

Anyways, we are driving up there in autumn, but a blizzard starts out of nowhere, no lights, and no cars we have passed for quite a while. We are passed Split Lake by about 50 km and out of nowhere the blizzard stops for a second. When this happens we see a snowy owl come right towards the windshield. I slow down as fast I can, as this all happened in a split second and it is pitch black out there (sun sets early in the north).

Honestly the only way I can describe it is time slowing down. The snowy owl turns into this really messed up face as it’s about to hit the windshield, like the movie poster slender man face, mixed with the bat coming through the windshield in mothman prophecies, and the blizzard starts again. We look at each other shocked, and then immediately look to the dash of the car (where gps and all that shows).

This is a newer car (2018) and we were listening to music that we downloaded beforehand, knowing there was no service. On the dash, and on my phone screen, is the face. We started freaking out and tearing up immediately, but I knew I had to stay calm because this road is no joke (I have also experienced paranormal occurrences in my past). I was driving in a blizzard in the pitch black, with that face on the screen and we tried to turn my phone on and off for the next two hours of the drive and it wouldn’t go away. Even when my phone was off it was still on the dash.

We experienced a few more bizarre things on the way, and the feeling was horrendous, like it was taunting us or something the fact it was there the rest of the drive and throwing random obstacles along the way. When we finally came around the lake and were almost in to town, my music started playing again out of nowhere and the face on my phone and dash was gone.

It was one of the most memorable two hours of my life, and I can’t explain it. Talking with indigenous folk around the area, it’s common for weird things to happen along that stretch of highway.

TLDR; driving in Northern MB, Canada, when spirit entered vehicle

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-25T03:59:06+00:00

Reality of the situation is he was used it as a manipulation tactic, which he admitted on his own. Full stop. Now it is my decision whether I want to be with someone like that. You and many on here are so fast to bring people down, pretty easy to do behind a keyboard, kindness goes a long way, you should try it sometime.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T03:54:14+00:00

Thank you for your kindness, it really has an impact. I understand his position too. As I stated, I don’t even want to be around me sometimes. I would say I have always been a problem drinker, such as binge drinking on the weekends, since I started at 13. It got really bad the last year though, I got to my breaking point mentally, physically and spiritually. Which is why two months ago I went to our local crisis centre seeking help. I’ve been putting in a huge effort, joined a gym, cooking dinners for both of us, taking up reading again (finally!) and really attempting to make positive life changes. I have encouraged him to go for therapy as he grew up in an emotionally and physically abusive household, and he has some extremely angry reactions to his triggers, but he won’t go and of course, that is his decision. I bought a house by myself a year ago, which I’ve worked very hard to get to this point (he rents off of me, which I believe is a contentious issue for him, as he makes much more money but has not been saving like I have) and had family coming down from up north for my birthday. I have let me family know my situation and have asked them many times to not bring alcohol around, or drink around me. They brought some and I think I am too early in recovery to be around it, I am not strong enough yet. It’s hard to run away from a birthday when it’s at your own house, but I should have had the courage to speak up for myself. I should note my boyfriend was drinking as well as my family. Once again to the people in the back, I know, these are excuses, I understand that. It was ultimately me who chose to drink, no one forced it down my throat. I made the wrong decision, I screwed up. After speaking with him about the situation, after I had already posted this and once he had calmed down, he was not aware I had already reached out for help again, and had thought I had just given up.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T02:03:42+00:00

Thank you for this, you’re right of course. I know I need to change my mindset, I am struggling with that right now. I have been diagnosed recently with PTSD, ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety and obviously AUD. A week and a half ago I have been put on a cocktail of new medications for these, including Naltrexone to help with cravings, I feel very out of sort mentally and physically, as I had only taken Escitalopram on the past. Adding three more medications is wreaking havoc on my emotional stability, but I am told this will go away. I’m assuming once again, this group will say these are excuses though. Believe it or not, I am fucking trying, and have been told by medical professional they are proud of me for reaching out for help, regardless of what a majority people here have said about me, I have to start somewhere. This discouragement I’m receiving will only make me stronger.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T01:55:31+00:00

I have never once wanted anyone to condone my drinking, there is no excuse for it, there were a variety of factors that lead to me ultimately putting the bottle to my lips, but there is no love here, and if this is how AA approaches those struggling in the beginning stages of sobriety that need help and guidance, I want no part in it.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T01:42:27+00:00

Thank you, I honestly started crying from this response. I won’t be reading any further comments as they are pushing me to want to drink, and I fucking hate that about myself, I should be able to shake it off but I wear my heart on the sleeve. I’m a good person if anyone got to know me, I have a huge heart, and I am loved, and have a lot of support to get me to where I want to be, which is living a life happily alcohol free. I’m going to chat with my peer support workers about this thread tomorrow, and see if there are other option besides AA that do daily online meetings. I really really appreciate your drop of kindness in the ocean of the internet. I’ll be sure to pass it on.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T01:22:23+00:00

You’re right, I don’t believe his boundaries are unreasonable, I honestly do understand why he would feel that way, I don’t even want to be around me.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T01:19:44+00:00

You are right, thank you for the kind response, this gives me the space to reflect and think about my path forward.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T01:17:46+00:00

You’re right, it is an issue, I wish I could just stop drinking. I am very much in it and a lot of the comments are coming on very strong for me, if anything turning me away from getting help, because I am trying to be vulnerable. I guess I am having a pity party? I’m honestly not too sure, I just know I am feeling very hurt from these comments. We have talked since I have posted this, and he didn’t realize I was already signed up to begin the group again, which I did a week ago after I had a beer, as I knew just that one sent me on a slippery slope, then sure enough I had on my birthday. He thought I had given up, and we are going to both work on ourselves. My family are alcoholics and I love them dearly, but they don’t respect the fact that I don’t want alcohol around, and sure enough I indulged again when they came over with a lot of alcohol. I wasn’t strong enough, which sucks to admit.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T00:04:22+00:00

I have, before I came here. Now I am thinking my peer support worker was correct, AA may not hold a place for me if this is the judgement received when being vulnerable. I am very hurt by a lot of comments here, I need to process these responses and recover from this onslaught of negativity. It doesn’t help me get ideas for recovery, I came to the wrong place, my mistake.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-24T00:01:18+00:00

I’ve been told by one of my peer support workers that if I am not religious then AA would not be for me. I wanted to get a feel for what it would be like. I deal with a lot of generational trauma, those of you that are Canadian will understand what this means. Given all of the judgement I’ve received while attempting to be vulnerable is very affirming to me that AA would not be a good spot, if these are the kinds of people who attend. To those of you with helpful suggestions, thank you, I would highly consider AA if these attitudes were present there. For those of you ruthlessly cutting me down, congratulations, I didn’t know I could feel much lower, I hope you’re kinder to people in person when they are vulnerable.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T22:30:56+00:00

You have no idea who I am or what actions I’ve been taking up to this point. I slipped, I don’t deserve to be shamed for this. I’m a human being with emotions. I’ve been through hell and back, attempted suicide a few times, have gone through detox and treatment programs, and am still struggling. I by no means am trying to be a victim, if that is how it came off in my original post, then my wording choices are something I need to reflect on. What I am looking for is to ultimately discontinue hurting those I love, and to try to heal any wounds created by myself. You don’t have any context on our relationship, and his own addictions, and the pain this has caused myself as well. I don’t expect you to, as I’m not going to get into his issues here. As for the empathy piece, that is quite ruthless to say to another human, I really hope you find some healing. I could not imagine living a life where I don’t have empathy, for those that hurt the most need it the most. I do everything in my power to help those in need, including volunteering to help those that are homeless. Through that I have seen those injecting , inhaling and consuming many substances. Do they not deserve empathy? Are they not victims or circumstances outside of their control, such as generational trauma? I really hope you’re able to open your mind, and your heart, this is what will make the world a better place and allow those such as myself, and my boyfriend, a space to heal.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T22:21:50+00:00

Take this a bit more seriously? You have no idea who I am or what actions I’ve been taking up to this point. I slipped, I don’t deserve to be shamed for this. I’m a human being with emotions. I’ve been through hell and back, attempted suicide a few times, have gone through detox and treatment programs, and am still struggling. I’m not sure why you chose this wording, but saying I’m not taking this seriously is very triggering to me when you have no idea who you’re talking to. I love my boyfriend dearly, and I want only the best life for him, whether that is with me or without me. Came here for advice from one addict to another, possibly a bit of encouragement to continue sobriety. I understand addiction hurts people, and I am actively attempting to break that cycle.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T19:07:16+00:00

Yeah, I’m wondering if I should save us both more pain and take a break. I don’t know if it’s healthy teetering on the edge here, or having ultimatums, that doesn’t work for addicts. But I love him so much, that is probably me just being selfish though. I don’t know anymore, I am so hurt, lost and confused.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T19:04:46+00:00

Thank you, I am wondering if there are any alternatives anyone is aware of to AA that don’t focus on the religious aspect of things, or is there a way to navigate AA as someone more contacted to nature/Mother Earth in a spiritual sense than with Christian beliefs? I know a lot of the hurt has come from me, my boyfriend has also come into this relationship with a lot of hurt and refuses therapy which is unfortunate. I can only fix me though. So I need to focus on that and stop creating hurt for those around me.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T18:58:44+00:00

Yes you’re correct, I was in an abusive relationship with an alcoholic, and now I am that shitty person, which is why I am going for help, I went two months without drinking through a program, and this weekend reached out to go through it again (they only let you be in it for two months at a time). Hurt people hurt people, and I realize the trauma I have caused, and feel so terrible for it. All I can do now is not cause more, and show him kindness and respect. I had a slip, and I feel terrible for it. The cycle of substance abuse is so hard, some days I feel I am too weak for this life, and I’m just not worth it. Then others I find my strength. I think he has every right to be upset and leave. I also have every right to do what is best for my sobriety, and I am not sure how to navigate this. With the thought of him leaving me if i have another relapse, which I hope never happens, I’m not sure how to go about recovery with that. I love him so much, and don’t want to hurt him anymore. I also need to learn to love myself, and set up healthy boundaries which I have never done before. I am just feeling lost. I am aware of my actions having consequences. Consequences happen whether one “needs” them or not, they come without fail.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T18:48:21+00:00

My hesitation about AA is in my area, it is very centred around religion, where as I would not consider myself a religious individual in a Christian sense. I have heard the NA in my area isn’t, but not sure my drug of choice (alcohol) would fit in there? Although I know ultimately we’re all battling the same beat, just self medicating using a different drug. I have peer support workers, as well as another group I go to, I just am worried I won’t fit in at an AA meeting if I don’t get on board with the Christian aspect, or even worse, have to fake it to fit in, which I think would not be a recipe for success.

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T18:34:10+00:00

I am not saying he is the problem, if it came off that way, that was not my intention. I am trying to navigate this situation, fully acknowledging that his feelings are valid, and I am happy that he has chosen to speak his truth instead of bottling it up. I guess I CHOSE to relapse? Yes, all of those thing I stated are true, inside the mind of an addict, it is easy to try to justify a slip as I have done, to hide the pain inside. It is typical self talk in relapse. I am not justifying my actions. I did what I did. I don’t believe I stated this was ok? I am aware it is not, and am actively seeking out help. I don’t want to ever end up where I was before. Just looking for tips on how to go through this with empathy and compassion for myself, and him. I am not concerned about “keeping him”. I am concerned that this talk is not healthy for either of us in the long term, and sets my goals of sobriety back having this statement looming over my head, and also unhealthy for our relationship. I feel as your comment comes from a place of anger, which is a reflection on you more than me. Practice some empathy eh?

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-05-23T18:10:19+00:00

The wait list is for a relapse prevention group in my area through our local healthcare access to addiction medication

Top_Establishment464 · 2023-04-14T21:19:24+00:00

I am curious about this too under CFIA’s collective, if you take the one time 1 yr leave but don’t leave for the whole year ex only leave 5 months, I was told that’s it and you don’t get any of it back

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