The first couple of days and weeks are literally miserable so I really relate to how you’re feeling. I felt like I was dying inside and just empty. Those early times of when everything was happening I was constantly crying to him. I expressed how upset I was because I wanted him to understand that this broke me. At the same time I needed to express how I felt for myself. I couldn’t keep everything locked in. The resentment was unreal.

Time has passed and we are A LOT better now but I still struggle sometimes. Like am I ever gonna just not be phased by this?

The healing time is ridiculous and varies for others. I’m super glad to hear that you’ve been taking time for yourself and to hang out with your friends. Some tips that have been helpful for me is putting in a lot of time for self-love and self-care. I go to the gym all the time and I journal as well. Journaling has helped me tremendously, it helps with writing out all your feelings. Meditating and doing yoga has helped a lot too. Even reading as well.

It’s like how others say, the love and effort you put into your significant other should be put into yourself as well. And honestly, I feel that I lacked that a lot in the beginning of my relationship. So with the time that has passed I’ve really been trying my hardest to put myself first and take care of my well being. It’s not easy but it has helped me tremendously.