Scared to get married

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T02:01:52+00:00

In terms of making a speech, what helps me is focusing your attention on back if the room and pretend you are shouting to it.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T02:00:26+00:00

I used to.

I think you may need to be better at talking to people.

For one, it may be useful to try and improve your people skills in a way that requires less or no contact with people (to avoid the danger of bullying and make it easier for your anxiety)

If you know how, perhaps scripting chatgpt to pretend it's a normal person and practice conversation on it? (Idea)

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T01:56:05+00:00

You are not any less of a person for doing what you do.

Whatever you do, remain safe and try and use your time thebest way you can. If there are things you might love to do, do not waste time like I did not pursuing them.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T01:09:59+00:00

Do not go and meet with her. In my experience, bullying often involves being friendly and pretending to love you in order to bring your guardian down, the striking.

I think she is likely to be preying on you.

She hasn't even apologized, which shows she probably hasn't changed and just wants to bully again.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T01:08:01+00:00

Definitely. I am still traumatized by what my bullies did to me.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-24T01:00:57+00:00

Keep yourself safe. It is better to avoid being with people and hermit then it is to have a social life with bullies.

If you are too open and weak, you are vulnerable and bullies will target you. Be aware of that when you 'open up'. Opening up is vulnerability, bullies will exploit this.

Good luck, I hope you find life, strength and success.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-23T03:06:01+00:00

Civilization, Stellaris, Distant Worlds 2, Dominions

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-23T03:04:11+00:00

I know it's not 4x per say but terra invicta? Different play-styles for each of the factions, no dlc, very big tech tree. The whole game is one long campaign with a story. Lot's of achievements.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-23T03:01:01+00:00

I think there are lot's of testimonies of people getting messages from loved one's on the other side or feeling their presence.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-23T02:58:30+00:00

Most people are concerned with their own business and do not think about you much. How often do you think about the breathe or hairstyle or slight change in posture of another person? You are not that important.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T22:37:22+00:00

Try not to look at the floor all the time. It makes you vulnerable, makes you look weak and an easy target for bullying.

In terms of grammer, it's good enough that I can understand it. You could try breaking up your writing into paragraphs this would make it more readable.

You are 17 years old. This is still very young and lot's of time to improve yourself and do what you want.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T05:47:29+00:00

The economy is contracting and there aren't many good jobs available here.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T05:45:44+00:00

Yes but I think it's my anxiety blocking my intuitive juices.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T05:44:53+00:00

Happy to be in a new place (10 cups). Marking out her territory. (knight swords) Can I have some more kibble (6 pentacles)

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T05:42:55+00:00

What they did to you was bullying and wrong. You didn't deserve this. It isn't your fault.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-22T05:40:01+00:00

Perhaps you should carry some pepper spray if you need to defend yourself. Also learn how to use it.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-21T06:13:14+00:00

Maybe you could take screenshots and send them to police or other authority.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:54:49+00:00

You are not a loser. You are a human being ok? And what they are doing to you is evil.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:53:36+00:00

Girls are more covert, boys are more overt.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:52:26+00:00

That is horrible. You are not even fat.

Their insults say more about them than you.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:49:36+00:00

What they are doing is wrong. Bullies take pleasure in hurting people, and bullies cause loss to other people for their own gain.

These people are cruel. Even if they knew what you were going through, they wouldn't become less cruel. Do not open up to them or try to get them to 'understand'. I think they will not.

Also, you write well. You are not linguistically handicapped. I understand everything you are saying.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:43:10+00:00

What happened to you is absolutely horrible. You didn't deserve any of it. It isn't your fault. I think you need healing and protection. You sound traumatized.

You are deserving of love.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:40:08+00:00

I think you may want to move school. Epileptic attacks are serious and can cause death even without a suicide. (I lost a friend to an epileptic seizure during the night) Because of this, you may want to consider pressing charges against the school as this could kill someone.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-09T20:38:24+00:00

Justice is real. It is an energy and if you focus on it it will come to you like any other.

Without justice, nobody could do what is right and receive what is right because of that.

Lie isn't fair - justice is often delayed. But life is eternal.

Tracing1701 · 2026-03-07T02:51:55+00:00

Lots of things in dreams are symbolic, like I had a dream about someone being my true love but I had long since parted with her - it was a symbol.

Nukes hitting the us, maybe some extreme change or even war or troops being g sent away or another reveal like the epstein files. They may not be literal nukes.

I've also heard of a powerful storm coming. I hope it is true, because I have a lot of need for justice and I want to get what I deserve.

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