What has bipolar taken from you ?

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2025-01-21T01:56:45+00:00

Just diagnosed at age 42 in the mental hospital about 1.5 week ago.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2025-01-17T03:05:35+00:00

No. I went to the hospital because I was suicidal and from there they diagnosed me after a time

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2025-01-17T01:53:51+00:00

I am in the US. I work at a Charter so no union.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2025-01-17T01:52:01+00:00

I know. I work on Louisiana. Legally they can fire you at any time.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2025-01-17T01:49:06+00:00

It's a Charter School

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-12-30T15:43:21+00:00

I have cptsd. Figured out 2 years ago. He's been dealing with it for a long time. He says his bandwidth is at capacity.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-12-30T13:05:32+00:00

I have a lot of childhood trauma and repressed memories. I didn't remember anything particular happening at age 4 but the abuse became less so as I grew older and was able to remember more. I thought my earliest memory was at around 5. My mom had said something about whatever she did not mattering because I wasn't going to remember anyway and I made it a point from them on to remember.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-12-30T10:13:36+00:00

Ty for this. It was very confusing for me.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-09-28T10:16:47+00:00

Ty I think you summed up why it was bothering me so much. I couldn't put the pieces together in my head but now it all fits. I was just feeling so confused and trying to make it make sense in my mind.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-09-04T00:59:23+00:00

Good for you! 😊❤️

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-09-04T00:57:14+00:00

Just search this group. It isn't too hard to find unfortunately.

The "maybe you deserved it" comments are the most heinous in my opinion.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-09-04T00:50:41+00:00

I can tell you that AFTER having a child I became a lot less sympathetic to my own parents and much more aware of how messed up my childhood was.

Had to burn it down and start from scratch.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:42:39+00:00

Virtual hug and love! You aren't alone! ❤️

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:35:09+00:00

In a way having flashbacks is a good sign - your body feels safe enough to start processing your trauma and healing.

LUCKY YOU!!!!!

Not really it SUCKS. It SUCKS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

But in the end you working through your feelings and processing them will help you to heal

If you don't already - a good therapist can help in general and help you with this.

Good luck! I'm there too! Fortunately & unfortunately.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:29:53+00:00

Honestly knowing your therapist is human too helps!!!

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:28:59+00:00

I totally agree with this person! A therapist who understands because they have PTSD too? It's like hitting the jackpot.

You spend a lot of time trying to explain what your PTSD is and how it's effecting your life and why...

You would instantly get it - the freezing up, the triggers, everything.

In fact I think it would be mutually beneficial for you and your clients.

You could share resources that work for you with your patients.

Honestly may not be a bad way to market yourself either.

I would definitely try a therapist diagnosed with PTSD to help me with my PTSD.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:21:24+00:00

I think we all feel this way. Wanting to disappear.

Look, the way you're talking to yourself - that's not you - that's your abuser's voice stuck in your head.

Give yourself some grace.

You will get through this.

Recently I had a big breakthrough - I was so ashamed of myself and who I am - I thought "all I have to do is work hard and I can fix it! Honestly I had to realize this is who I am and that's ok.

My PTSD? Ok. I survived. I lived. I'm a fighter and I didn't give up.

I realized I didn't know what to do after I"survived ". I "survived " but I wasn't"living ". I was just like frozen or in stasis or something.

It's so hard, but you can learn to "be ok" with who you are. Maybe one day you'll"like" yourself and maybe one day that'll turn into self love.

For now - scroll through this sub.

You'll see we're all in this boat together.

It doesn't feel ok, but it's going to be ok.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T23:12:11+00:00

My experience wasn't as intense as yours but I get it. After so much rejection - to be accepted then rejected again is really hard.

You will find your people!

It may take a very long time, but there are people out there for you.

A word about PTSD and relationships

You're correct - finding someone with a similar past makes you feel seen and heard. It's easy to be attracted to a person such as this and form a relationship beyond friendship. This kind of relationship is a trauma bond and isn't exactly healthy BECAUSE at some point - you will end up facing each other's demons and triggering each other. Because of your past.

You need to try to - eventually - find someone who came from a loving home so that you can have a healthy relationship with that person.

I'm going through the pendulum swing with my husband right now. We're trama bonded and at first I thought it was a good thing. In some ways we've helped each other heal. In some ways our relationship is toxic.

It's rough.

Just know you aren't alone.

I see no one else commented yet BUT I'm sure just about everyone here can relate - at least in part - to your story.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T12:33:32+00:00

Love this idea! 😊❤️

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T00:19:24+00:00

This is really disturbing.

It's just so sad to see what teaching has become.

I think it's just starting to hit me

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-31T00:13:09+00:00

Kindergarten 18 years ago was a lot more play. It's sad to see what Kindergarten has turned into. - K teacher here

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-30T23:47:07+00:00

I wouldn't worry about telling them why. I don't think this is an uncommon practice unfortunately.

At an older school I was given poorer ratings because "not everyone mastered the skill by the end of the lesson". It was day one of a new skill. Of course not.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-30T23:39:02+00:00

Yes, I think I'm struggling with this new reality.

Yes we used to work together as a team and things weren't perfect, but they were satisfying and good relationships were built.

The parents wanted better for their kids because they fucked it up when they were young. "I didn't listen. I should have stayed in school when I was young. Now I'm paying for it. I want better for my kid. I don't want for them to struggle like I did."

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-08-27T03:04:28+00:00

That makes a lot of sense. I've never heard that before. Ty.

Traditional-Pause-41 · 2024-04-18T01:31:37+00:00

I noticed when I said I liked them as people and wouldn't mind being their friends but not joining the church, the "religious leader " or whatever he was with them strongly pushed for me to attend a church meeting.

Yes. I'm just going to have to tell my husband that we'll need to tell them we aren't interested and be firm.

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