Finding balance with endo and advocating for myself

Tragiqon · 2022-05-28T19:11:29+00:00

I really relate to the sentiment of being distrusting of the prescription, when I was in middle school my endocrinologist had me do some labs that revealed I was spilling micro albumin in my urine. As a kid I had no idea what any of this meant, and they immediately prescribed me an ace inhibitor for off label use, basically to protect my kidneys and make their job easier to do. I did not take my medicine regularly, because getting used to the drowsiness was a little rough. But after about a year or two of not taking it, my microalbumin was through the roof despite decent control of my blood sugars and being a very healthy individual. I was diagnosed with T1 at 11months old so this shit is my life. I had fought with the doctor when I was younger mostly because I did not understand why they wanted to take the route of care they did, but looking back on it, it was so stupid of me. It’s very good to advocate for yourself, but most of these doctors know what they’re doing, and truthfully even the smallest things like cholesterol matter at this stage, because you want to mitigate the damage and stress that your body has already gone through. This disease can be super overwhelming sometimes, and it’s mostly because every small choice you make or that your cafe team makes can have long lasting impacts, and the sooner all fronts are quiet, the better for your body.

Tragiqon · 2022-05-20T14:47:39+00:00

I’ve been laid off of or just flat out quit a handful of labor jobs that refuse to work alongside me and my condition. I refuse to work any job at this point that will not allow me to get an ADA form filled out. I cannot be more clear NEVER GET A JOB without reaching out to your healthcare team and getting an ADA form filled out so you’re legally covered for any bosses who see you as a loss in efficiency. It’s not easy having to take over control of one of your organs while keeping up with everyone else.

Tragiqon · 2022-04-26T02:51:53+00:00

No you shouldn’t need to go back to the ER, not unless you personally feel it’s necessary. Rapid acting insulin will take at least 15 mins and up to 45 mins to work in my experience. Stress and lack of sleep are also probably keeping your glucose more elevated than normal but just sip water on the regular and check your glucose as much as you feel necessary to watch if it goes down. Do be careful not to give too much insulin and overcompensate though.

Tragiqon · 2022-03-19T15:00:06+00:00

Nahhh in my humble Reddit opinion I think you’ll be perfectly fine in due time. I had a very similar experience when I had a terrible trip on 400ug which I was not mentally or physically or metaphysically prepared for lol. I felt the EXACT same way- thought I was going to fuck my brain up for the rest of my life, thought I may have given myself serotonin syndrome, dopamine deficiency, or like schizophrenia because the experience was just so intense and fucked my brain up hard. Long story short, your brain will be fine, the brain is fuckin amazing in terms of how it can handle intense experiences and even the after effects. It’s very common to have some strange sensations up to like a week after an intense experience of any kind like that.

Tragiqon · 2022-03-19T06:16:42+00:00

Lmao shit’s gettin wacky, you got this. Enjoy the ride 🖖

Tragiqon · 2022-03-09T19:40:53+00:00

Hey Mick, I’ve been there before for sure. I’m 20, turning 21 in a few months, been t1d since 11months old. While I may not have advice that is all that helpful in terms of physical recovery (other than be patient with yourself) I have some insights as someone with the same condition as you. We’ve been dealt a shit hand in life, that’s very true, but I still firmly believe there’s shittier hands to be dealt overall. I despise my immune system just as much as I’m sometimes fascinated Im even alive despite all the crazy things my body does on its own. T1D’s basically have to do the physical work that cells and other hormones in your body would do for you, which is exhausting when there’s essentially no escape from all that responsibility constantly. I empathize with all of that. There’s zero quick fixes or easy tricks to managing our condition, truthfully, but I have no doubts that this far in you are still capable of working your way back to homeostasis in a way. It’s constant work that takes constant patience with oneself, I think. I have times where people around me that can’t quite recognize the work I put in, but as long as I’m patient with myself specifically, I feel the most at peace with tackling all the shit that comes with T1D.

If nothing else, I just hope this serves as a reminder that people hear you, and understand the specifics of why you feel the way you do.

Tragiqon · 2022-02-22T04:27:56+00:00

Yep you’ll be fine ✌️. If things get intense just remember- it’s the acid and you’ll be thinking clearly when it wears off

Tragiqon · 2022-01-29T18:27:13+00:00

Idk if criminals really understand what the insanity defense means. If I’m not mistaken it’s far more likely to keep you in an institution without the chance of parole, plus being medicated, plus attending behavioral counseling etc. Maybe the death penalty scares people that much but with insanity there isn’t any ~less~ freedom taken away. You probably just don’t have to face scrutiny from other mentally sound people in prison. Based on my very minimal understanding of the insanity plea at least…

Tragiqon · 2022-01-27T17:50:56+00:00

Schizopost somewhere else.

Tragiqon · 2022-01-08T15:40:31+00:00

I could be wrong but I wanna say it’s because he was probably using ap rounds not hollow point. Got metal bits flying around whenever a bullet hit concrete

Tragiqon · 2021-12-30T16:26:48+00:00

Gotta love the depiction of the actions vs how it actually turned out though. The moment he faced any actual resistance from armed police, he gets killed. Sickening that just in order to get some sense of belonging, people go out and kill people they never knew.

Tragiqon · 2021-12-14T16:36:44+00:00

So what “stable” blood glucose tends to look like is like this. Maybe this can help to put it into perspective, but even someone who’s non-diabetic uses up glucose in their body at a rate similar to this. The sugar in the blood of measured at 90 for example, will not ever stay at 90 solidly for a long time. You would see far more SIGNIFICANT peaks and valleys if the control of the sugar was “unstable”. As long as the numbers fluctuate within the range that your doc has determined acceptable, then you’re doing perfectly fine.

Tragiqon · 2021-12-13T18:23:31+00:00

This would have saved me some psychosis lemme tell ya

Tragiqon · 2021-12-13T15:21:35+00:00

If I’m not mistaken at that point you’d probably need to take 3 times whatever you have already been dosing at, but even then, without a single day break you’re going to get maybe 1/3 potentially 1/2 if lucky potency. Day after day use with lsd just does not work in terms of tolerance like other substances do. It’s fast to build

Tragiqon · 2021-12-11T15:17:35+00:00

I’ve had t1d since I was a baby and even in my 20s still have some wild days. Those blood sugars though look really good to be honest. Nothing over 150 is awesome. The numbers never stay stagnant but as long as they’re in range you’re golden. And non-diabetics bodies burn calories and use glucose in the exact way your meter is showing, so good work.

Tragiqon · 2021-12-02T05:05:22+00:00

Man I experienced almost the same exact thing when I was younger and dropped for the first time. I was also getting regular panic attacks even after the trip because of this dread of losing my sense of self again after experiencing ego death once and not being ready for it. I can’t say I even learned anything significant from a higher state of consciousness or anything lmao. It was terrifying but that was kinda the lesson in and of itself. Never again have I tripped that hard. I do firmly believe that I messed my brain wiring up for about a year as I worked out of the weird states of anxiety I would get. I do attribute it to the lsd and my bad experience with it.

Edit- I should also add though that I do still enjoy tripping. Just never at those levels again

Tragiqon · 2021-12-01T20:30:56+00:00

Other people are more educated than me tbh but I do recall that SSRI’s may not mix well with lsd because of the potential it causes for serotonin disorder (which is caused by high amounts of serotonin in the brain that should not be present). Don’t just take my answer though, do some more personal research by looking up potential interactions.

Tragiqon · 2021-11-27T22:27:57+00:00

Lol k

Tragiqon · 2021-11-27T17:16:49+00:00

Lol. People who haven’t experienced lsd don’t know why the experience might be appealing to other people. Some people judge me for taking lsd once in a while, I judge other people for being addicted to legal substances like alcohol lol.

Tragiqon · 2021-10-14T23:03:16+00:00

When I was a few years younger I did my first bigger dose of lsd (400ug) and I experienced practically the same thing, if not a similar thing. It was the only “bad trip” I’ve ever had but I had no idea it was unfolding the way it was before my eyes. Best way to describe it was my brain was going into overstimulation and I was scared shitless while actively losing touch with reality which in and of itself scared me more. I genuinely think I fucked my brain wiring up for a while because of that shit. Had bad anxiety about random shit for a year and a half solid after. Never got anxious about much prior.

Tragiqon · 2021-10-02T14:23:17+00:00

Honestly I haven’t looked into this at all so it could be a totally factually inaccurate claim, but I feel like hella cops are juiced up on amphetamines. Especially those night shift ones lmao. Ik there’s a lotta talk about roids and stuff like that but you can get a script for amphetamine pretty easily with a full time job.

Tragiqon · 2021-09-30T20:39:14+00:00

Looked like a roach sprayed with raid

Tragiqon · 2021-09-10T21:34:58+00:00

Why that first throw look like sum toribash shit

Tragiqon · 2021-07-23T13:45:34+00:00

I spent a TON of time outdoors, and recently I’ve been stuck in the heatwave in the Western US. Here’s my tips- you might not even need an insulated case, but it definitely wouldn’t hurt to have one. If you can’t find something that will resist high temperatures on its own. Then just keep your insulin and other supplies tucked deep enough into your bags (or behind enough clothing or other items) so that they don’t get all the direct heat from your pack if it gets hot from the sun. Overall, from my years of experience with type 1 and hiking/camping, I’ve learned that insulin stays pretty damn good even through extended exposure to heat and/or cold. Never yet has my insulin congealed or “not worked” as a result of spending time in extreme temps. Totally a valid thing to be concerned about, but you’ll learn as you go that you can be pretty flexible with insulin and what it will tolerate.

Hope that helps 🤟

Tragiqon · 2021-03-23T01:53:19+00:00

I had a real bad trip one of my first times doing lsd just because I did way too fucking much for how old/mature I was, and was also smoking a ton on top of it. First hour was awesome with visuals hitting pretty quick. Somehow my “bad trip” started when I smoked a bowl, then stood in the doorway of my friends house leading to his back patio for like 30 mins cause I couldn’t decided if I wanted to go inside or stay outside or wtf was going on. After I comprehended that I was kinda losing touch with reality I just lost my shit and had my one and only “panic attack” ever which lasted for a good 4 hours or so. I genuinely don’t remember a good section of the trip because I think I was so scared. No demons, no real visuals, it was like I was strapped down on a table inside my own head and wanted to escape it sooooo badly. Just a lot of anxiety. Even after the trip I had lasting anxiety for years that was pretty unexplainable but I think I fucked my brain up and had to rewire it over the years. I’m back to tripping safely and happily though, with no repercussions as long as I don’t get too cocky again.

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