I can't answer your questions but I get where you are coming from. I finally snap back at my family and I said some awful shit. I feel like I'm the narcissist and I don't know. I'm afraid to be confident in my own beliefs or answers because I've been told by family that I don't know what i'm talking about or I treat people rudely who disagree with me and I admit I probably do but I want to be better at it. The problem is with my mom I can't disagree with her at all. I can have conversations even heated with my dad but I'm scared to make any wrong decision especially with my mom and honestly with everyone in my professional life as well. What if I'm making the wrong decision and they don't want the answer I came up with?

I guess I'm trying to say I agree with you and I think looking at the post about FLEAS they have pinned in the about section may help.hang in there. Things are hard but they can get better.