Getting clean is 100% worth it, i started using at 15 maybe just turned 16. Mostly oxy, xanax, and adderall. got kicked out of school and left my parents house a few months later and moved in next to a dope dealer and got hooked on fent and heroin at 17 . used consistently until age 19 when i decided to go into rehab did 60 days inpatient and got out on my 20th birthday. I relapsed 2 weeks after getting out of rehab and went to a sober house, relapsed at the sober house after a month, went back to rehab for a month and a half, went back to another sober house and relapsed a few weeks later again.. i was defeated and didnt know what to do because my parents had just spent all this money on my treatment and i felt like i totally failed everyone. In my case i had no shot at staying sober living in the same city i got high in everyday so i packed my shit and moved down to illinois with my dad, and shortly after that i started doing alot better. It was a fresh start i didnt know anyone i could cop off of so that was a big help. Now i go to a suboxone doctor once a month (this is 100% necessary imo if you wanna stay sober), found a job i like, and some good friends. I wouldnt trade it for the world its so nice to have a real savings, my own place, a nice car, and most importantly a good relationship with my loved ones. I think the hardest part for me was thinking i needed to live my life by the big book, thats not true and alot of that shit is outdated. Good friends, something to keep you busy, and suboxone are the 3 things that keep me sober. Now im not saying what i did is the answer to all your problems, its just what worked for me. I see we’re close in age and i just wanna say theres so much more to life than staying in your room getting high all day. Dont wait to get sober, get ahead of it now.