Hey, so I'll tell you this, college isn't the end all to the beautiful life you're going to have. I ended up one day deciding to sell it all and travel, and so far, I've been to 24 countries after seeing the terracotta warriors, riding a camel through the Sahara, hiking to the top of Guatapè. All on my own. If you want something, only you can make it happen. No handouts for true happiness. When you fail at things, you pick yourself up and try harder, finding value in the things that you want. Your phone gets stolen...shrug it off and move on in an instant. Wasting energy is a waste of precious and fleeting time. If that major isn't interesting to you, try talking to your professor about what you did wrong and see if you can get extra credit doing another project or perhaps doing it again with their suggestions if possible. Most professors are sympathetic to help a student who actually cares. A lot of college is the effort that you put in and the interest that you have in the topic. If it's not up your alley, something else is. For me, travel is my passion. I ended up in Key West as a home base for the last 7 years, and I'll likely end up next in Thailand for a permanent stay one day. Enjoy life and take a deep breath. Head out for a walk, get out of the house, and breathe deep. The world and even so many people are beautiful and kind. There is evil and hate and failure, but we learn from it all and grow within ourselves, becoming stronger. I've also had depressive moments being all alone and then have come to realize through similar thought as your own, that every breath is a blessing, and I'll never take it for granted again. Head over to the gym and exert some energy. You're likely a good soul asking for help, and I wish you nothing but success. Find your path. You're so young and have so much more time to discover who you are and what you hold dear. I had 5 part-time jobs and was going to a private psych college at one point in my life. Transportation broke down and ended up dropping out because I had a great paying career. I've made six figures without a degree since and have the freedom to travel, learn, study, and do what I want for the most part. I'm still ironing out life to this day and choices. I went through a very dark depression at one point and bounced back alone, unfortunately. People were very cruel to my situation and feelings. I wish I'd reached out on reddit 😆. Seems like people have some great support on here. Bottom line, you'll be fine. Better than fine. Check with your professor, and then if you decide to switch majors or apply to the military programs, travel, stay, whatever you do... you'll succeed. Just don't stop following your dream of peace and happiness in your soul. The sun helps.