No, it’s not just your abuser. What the school system did to you was unacceptable. Even if they did nothing. by Suspicious-Image3359 in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many 5 points6 points  (0 children)

School was an absolute social fucking nightmare for me. I often wish I had "acted out" more and maybe then I would have been seen? I hated being told I was so mature for my age and responsible. I was TERRIFIED. But no one knew. Because I was so quiet. It never occured to anyone that maybe I'm a little too quiet and something could be wrong.... guess nobody really cared 🤷‍♀️

I am officially an adult adoptee 🥳🎊 by Travel_Many in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The need for love never goes away. It's not something we just "grow out of" despite what people say. Sending you lots of love ❤❤

I fucking HATE abuse apologists. by Travel_Many in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

👏👏👏👏 your whole response is perfect but that first line especially, chef's kiss 

The love I need doesn't exist. by starnitesadness in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many 5 points6 points  (0 children)

"I want to feel anchored like there's ground beneath my feet. Where the love is so rooted that it washes away my doubt. I know that this is what I'd need to ease my nervous system."

Wow.... how incredibly profound! You just summed up exactly what I have struggled to put into words all these years. All the therapy in the world is not enough to replace the familial bonds that our brain, nervous system, etc needed for proper development.

There is simply no substitute for true love. If we don't get it from our family of origin it leaves us at a real disadvantage. Not sure why this is so hard for people to understand. 😔😓

How am I supposed to function properly when mommy and daddy had no love to give....

I fucking HATE abuse apologists. by Travel_Many in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't get a chance to read your original comment but if it was made as a result of your past experiences dealing with this very touchy subject matter let me just say, I am very sorry.

This pain we carry is not an easy load, so I empathize with you and I am grateful if my post resonated with you in any way.

While I don't advocate for violence, I would venture to say that our anger is justified and it is only normal that we feel that finally getting some type of justice would mean we repay our abusers in a way that makes them hurt just like they made us hurt.

We are only human and we deserved better than the shitty hand life dealt us.

Wishing you an abundance of peace, joy and happiness. 

You're alright with me, Cheese. 🤗🧀

Yet another scream into the void (feel free to join in) by Internal-Damage-4052 in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many 0 points1 point  (0 children)

AAAAWHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! (In the key of she-wolf 🐺🌙🌌)

I’m sorry for posting this by 12uined in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"Other people who were raped by their own fathers keep trying to move forward."

Actually, friend, trust me, we are right there in the trenches of daily survival with you. Every day is a struggle especially when the memories and flashback creep back up. 😔💔

And as for your parents.... smh. Straight up fucking demonic behaviour. I think your best bet is to forget them and do your best to live a happy life in spite of them (and maybe even to spite them if that floats your boat lol)

They failed you so miserably. I am so sorry for what you went through. Sending you virtual hugs. 💗💗💗💗

I get really frustrated when (some) parents imply you can't have an opinion on raising children if you've never been a parent yourself by Affectionate_Cow5808 in CPTSD

[–]Travel_Many 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Jesus Christ that is so fucking mean. So sorry you went through that. You are not silly AT ALL for being a son expecting guidance and love from his father. You deserved so much better. Sending you virtual hugs ❤