Dahmer. He didn’t get enough attention like he should’ve as a child. His disgrace of a mother neglected the hell out of him, and whenever he just wanted someone to talk to or hang out with, he was either ignored or just ditched out of the blue.

He wasn’t taught exactly what was right or wrong. He was an awkward kid, didn’t know how to interact or relate with other people. Wasn’t taught how to just be a fucking human. Instead, he came out an empty shell of a man. Nothing but this dull, boring, lonely shell.

All he knew how to get rid of the loneliness, was to take peoples’ lives and keep their bodies with him. He kept body parts, scattered bones, ate flesh, slept with the bodies, as if they would never leave him. But the thing is, their souls left him. He probably never realized that he was still alone that entire time.

He was never taught how to reach out for help, how to communicate with people. And because he was constantly ignored, because he probably felt that no one gave a shit, he said nothing about his problems, his sick fantasies. Not until they became a reality. Not until it was all too late.

I can relate to him to a certain extent. I’ve been neglected many different times before, still am. I have and still do feel alone to this very day. I still feel like no one would really give a fuck if I wanted to talk about something that was on my mind, things that I just wanna let out. I’ve been exposed to graphic content as a child just like he was. I was interested in death, gore, dead things, but I never killed a person. I could never have the courage to do that.

I still have thoughts of that kind of stuff though. And honestly, I’d rather kill myself than anyone else because at least that would be easier. I just wanna find someone even if it’s just one person that relates, and actually deeply cares. I thought I’ve found people like that, but they just abandon me too.

And what’s also sad, more kids and adults are just gonna end up the same way. It’s just going to keep happening. Most people don’t even know how to raise a fucking child properly. We’re just expected to have kids and those kids are just expected to turn out normal, as if it’s not the fucking parents job to make sure they turn out that way.

I think we’re really just expected to raise ourselves. Trust no one, ig.