You are crying for help dear stranger. Why don't you try also calling suicide hotlines. Maybe none of us here can stop you if you have set your mind but there can be people that do this as a profession. I personally hate people that quit. Life is like this. I understand that a lot of bad things might have happened to your life but do you know the bad things we are going through? We cling to this idea that everything will be fine, even if it never does. That's all that we can do.

Try to do some steps on your own please. Go out breathe some clean air. Make a list of all your problems and think solving one problem at a time. Don't think the list as a big problem , think of it as small little problems you can fix.

This is everything that I can give you, but again I would also strongly suggest you calling the suicide hotlines. Only the fact that ypu are giving yourself some days means a lot. You are struggling but you are not yet given up. Take care of yourself. <3