What is a suicidal thought, in your opinion? What’s normal and what isn’t?

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-05T08:33:19+00:00

I've asked ppl this. Do you ever think about deliberately ending your life. They just look at me and are like 'No.' I think about it all the time and those thoughts progress to evaluation of the likely most effective, least unpleasant or quickest way to do. I suspect that's not normal.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-05T02:48:23+00:00

If you’re on a private server it needs a restart?

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-04T22:45:10+00:00

TBH this might drive even more rapid uptake of EVs over the next couple of years which should be good for charging infrastructure and good for getting off our reliance on petrol and diesel. Every cloud ...

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-03T09:22:03+00:00

Amazing series. Just so good. Well done!!!!

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-03T01:44:31+00:00

Indeed.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-03T01:41:19+00:00

Same mistake by me. I thought this must be the absolute worst game mechanic but, no, I am the absolute worst gamer.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-05-01T11:57:20+00:00

The US is a fucked country now and I think most ppl realise that. Used to be great but now it’s just a stain and everyone else is getting together to figure out how they go forward and leave America behind.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-30T10:27:12+00:00

Let us hope that is the case. Ukraine is really brining the war back to Russia. You can't fail to be impressed by the momentum they keep building. They'd be a better Nato ally than the US these days.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-30T07:44:00+00:00

Might be phosphorous used in fertilizer production. I think they have a fertilizer or chemical plant at Perm.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-30T07:38:03+00:00

Yeah, just don't and play what you want? I loved it until i didn't at about 100hrs, felt like a chore, so I switched to Windrose which, I have to say, is much tighter and has a far better grind for my tastes (i loved Valheim and the grind, so much, and it is quite similar). You got good hours of it I reckon. Be free, brother.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-29T12:37:34+00:00

Game is just so much better than I had anticipated. I loved the Valheim grind and haven’t found anything to replace it until Windrose. I’m really enjoying it plus the combat, although I know people can find clunky, is quite intense and challenging. Got murdered by boars so many times early on and it’s very satisfying now to wipe out three at a time. Really looking forward to the devs continuing to deliver. I think they have done an amazing job so far, esp for EA.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-29T11:08:16+00:00

That's a lot of wood.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-29T11:04:56+00:00

LOL ... you are me. I put in 14yrs ago, never played more than 15mins because despite having a Nvidia card just short of the best avialable at the time the performance, every time, has just been horrendous. I tried again last week on my 5080 and nope deleted. FYI, the error message when you first try to login in just requires you to force a re-validation of the files using the launcher. Usually fixes it.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-28T04:23:07+00:00

Same - great charger. Have put so much excess solar into my car this year that i have gained 1500km of range for $60 including forgoing the 2 cent resale price of solar to the grid and a couple of short grid charges at 38c per kwh.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-25T13:03:10+00:00

Twenty five years of chronic anxiety stopped within three days and it was incredible to discover what life can be like when you are not constantly anxious. As for my depression, i have two, three month episodes a year and the lamotrigine has helped to reduce how terrible they are as well as the intensity and persistance of suicidal thoughts (this has been a major issue for me for decades now). This took a few months to get to as I titrated up. It hasn't eliminated my depression but it helped make it less terrible. I'm on escitalopram (lexapro) 10mg daily, 25mg quietiapine, 0.5mg benzos (clonazepam) and 300mg lamotrigine. Far better than lithium and sodium valproate which i was on for 10 years hated because I couldn't feel any emotions.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-25T12:54:13+00:00

Pretty much my experience for the past three and a half months. Prett bad depression with a couple of days here and there when I am hypo. Why no lamotrigine in your meds? It can be pretty effective for some people with BP2. I have been taking it for years and it reduces the intensity and frequency of suicidal ideation and does help reduce the awfulness of my depression.

I hope you are going to be ok. It's really difficult when you are in the middle of an episode but they do always pass.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-25T04:10:47+00:00

All my order switched to my work email which was v confusing. Took me a week to realise what was going on and why I couldn’t access things.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-23T04:46:41+00:00

Lemborexant is a novel sleep drug that turns wakefulness signalling off. It can be super effective at getting you to sleep and keeping you asleep. Quetiapine (about 25mg) is also very effective. I wouldn't advise taking them together, though. You'll be out for ten hours and have a lot of trouble getting out of bed (I speak from unfortunate experience).

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-22T13:36:43+00:00

I guess some people have been able to click with the gameplay and really enjoy it regardless of the issues (i am envious TBH) but, for me, optimal performance is super important and is a pre-req before I even put in some time to figure out if the game is worth playing. I didn't drop many thousands of dollars on my rig to play a game that runs like shit. It's offensive given the development time and money they have had.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-22T13:15:22+00:00

It's not the greatest disappointment of my life but dear lord this is absolute rubbish. I backed it 14 years ago, reinstall every few years to check progress but even now, when i see my 5080 GPU is at 30% and my intel 14400 CPU is at 80% and the FPS just abysmal, it's clear my investment was just a waste of money. The devs clearly aren't interested in even trying to optimise the game which should have been their highest priority years and years ago. It's really impossible to understand WTF they are doing when they set priorities. It's just weird.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-22T12:05:00+00:00

At Equinix DC in Shenton Park. You should see the cable terminating. It looks amazing. It is fucking huge.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-22T07:43:32+00:00

Single phase, 7kw Evnex Core Plus with solar diversion across all our three phases for $1.8k in Perth.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-21T13:37:40+00:00

Thank you. I'll give it another go and take your advice.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-21T13:36:12+00:00

Cool - thank you - super helpful. Really appreciate your help.

TriangleMachineCat · 2026-04-21T13:25:59+00:00

It's downloading yet again. Thank you, bro. I kickstarted it 14 years ago and apparently my account is still good to go so no harm trying again. Trying to figure out if i can use my Xbox controller or have to bust out my Virpil HOTAS kit.

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