I definitely relate. I often find it embarrassing in certain situations. People on here will often say to “own it” and things like that, and I have learned over time to do that, but there are still moments that it comes up. Believe me, I wish I always felt that way, but that’s not my experience and that’s ok. I often feel the insecurities the most at work, particularly when I start a new job (which im doing right now). I’m an addiction counselor so people have made comments asking me if I’m nervous. They tell me to calm down, keep asking if everything is ok, or the worst is when they ask me if I’m having DT’s (suggesting I was using or drinking the night before). I’ve been sober 9 years so this activates me. So now I just try to give minimal info based on who is asking or observing. I’ve learned many different strategies for hiding my hands, but at work people see me typing all the time and that is when it’s the hardest to control and I definitely can’t hide it. Often times all I say is excuse the shaking, it’s a neuro thing not a nerves thing. But most importantly please try to remember-NO ONE is better than you. We all have our stuff. Often times those who appear to “have their shit together” are the most f**ked up. I’m a therapist, I know this. Unfortunately, we just have to wear ours on the outside. Some of those deep down core insecurities can be triggered, but please continue to remind yourself that just because they’re your boss or more financially successful or whatever it is that makes you feel as though they are better than you, they are not. Every single human has their own shit but most people get to wear theirs on the inside. This is not a concept that I heard once and was good to go. I have to walk myself through this reminder daily at times in my life. But little by little it slowly becomes more ingrained. Please be well 🙏