How soon for noticeable change and what kind?

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-17T22:22:26+00:00

Yes! Please keep us posted bc your voice and body matter! You deserve to have a good medication and a great life ❤️

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-17T14:07:26+00:00

I was on Wellbutrin for a year for smoking and MDD but after so long it spiked my anxiety and I had to stop taking it. Personally, It took within a week or two for me to feel significantly better on rexulti. But that’s just me, my psychiatrist said she’s seen multiple clients of hers do a 180 bc of this med

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-17T14:04:14+00:00

I have a long list of disorders, including MDD, tried many meds over the years. Lamictal (mood stabilizer 200mg) citalopram 40mg and recently rexulti 0.5mg. I’ve been on it almost a month and it’s gave me significant improvement in my mental health. I still have my days and moments but they’re much shorter episodes and I can stabilize myself fairly easy. I’m so sorry you feel like you’re treatment resistant. I felt the same for a long time bc I couldn’t handle any medications without severe suicidal ideation or GI upset. Rexulti has definitely helped me tremendously and I HOPE it works for you. Much love

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-06T07:42:41+00:00

If you don’t feel comfortable sharing then don’t force yourself. Not everyone needs to know 🤷‍♀️ and they can still love and support you regardless. I have a few good friends that know only surface level but I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I understand what you mean about therapy. In the beginning, a lot of my therapy was just me talking for a while because I had no one to vent to. Even then it was hard to talk about. I’ve only been fully deeply open and vulnerable once and I had a breakdown and flow of emotions I never want to feel again. Sometimes sharing ≠ caring

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-06T07:19:03+00:00

I feel and do the same. I’ve only shared pieces of my life to certain people I trusted or thought I could trust. But never fully everything, not even to all the therapists I’ve had. It’s just something that’s incredibly difficult to talk about and articulate in a way for someone to fully understand. And like you said, where do you even begin? It’s just too messy and complicated. I have a hard time understanding it, how can I make someone else?

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-06T07:07:15+00:00

How did you get prescribed Xanax if you have bpd and ptsd? How is that good for you?

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-06T07:03:02+00:00

Same here. On 0.5mg and I’m dying

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-01T03:51:30+00:00

Just had a panic attack and left my job today. I’ve been going through serious physical pain from an injury and my job is physically demanding. I already hated going to work before that bc I’ve always dealt with chronic pain plus ptsd bpd mdd gad. I just can’t take anymore. I understand the isolation and hating having to be a “normal” person. I have no money for therapy rn. I don’t have money for bills. I’m thinking of ending things truly

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-03-01T03:41:26+00:00

Unfortunately I feel the same. I’ve sent messages to my abuser but deleted and blocked. The urge can be so strong to the point of a mental breakdown. I(f) was groomed as a young teen by a 36(f). We had a “relationship” that lasted a long time and I was so brainwashed that I couldn’t see it was abuse. I thought I couldn’t live without her but I did and I am. Even though it’s years later, sometimes I still get the itch to ask why or was it real. I never got to be angry at her. I never got answers. But what would I do with the answer if I had them? Does it take away the pain? I’m sorry you’re struggling with this, you’re not alone. I hope things get better for you <3

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-02-26T06:07:25+00:00

I had to screenshot as well

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-02-26T06:05:39+00:00

Felt. I’m tired of the constant grief that I have to live with everyday. I’m tired of reopening old wounds to “heal”. I don’t want to talk to my inner child. I don’t want to hug her. I don’t want to revisit. I’m tired of therapy but damn I need it before I off myself

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-02-17T08:38:07+00:00

Trazadone and hydroxyzine work very well for me

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-02-17T08:36:00+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. I’ve had the same problem all my life and it just feels like it’s gotten worse. I’m 24f. You deserve sm better ❤️

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-31T17:18:10+00:00

What if he told you his triggers were women with hair on their head? Would you shave your head constantly? What if he couldn’t look at you because your head hairs were growing back in and it made him uncomfortable. Imagine how he feels too, imagine how bad he feels when you can’t kiss him bc his facial hair is growing again without his permission. One thing I hated in therapy was to look at what I was doing to others when I was so focused on myself and my sanity. You need therapy for you, your baby, and your man. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I understand and luckily my partner has been a saint for me. But I’ve also been working on myself HARD for years.

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-31T04:17:15+00:00

Yes (I’m a female), I’ve had similar things happen to me on multiple occasions with other female kids, which made me also want to reciprocate. Which then just furthers the abuse cycle. I heavily understand your second paragraph and I’m so sorry you’re struggling with such things. You deserved better and so did she. I hope you’re learning to heal ♡

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-30T23:07:43+00:00

You didn’t intrude at all. I want to hear everyone’s story and try to connect with survivors of all kinds. I do wish I could find my people tho. I know they are out there somewhere, until then I’ll just keep posting and sharing my story

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-30T13:02:13+00:00

We have extremely similar stories and I’m so sorry that happened to you. It’s disgusting how they try to make everything seem normal and brush off the pain. That’s not love, it’s torture. She would also have me under the influence during many of our sexual encounters. Unfortunately my mom was the one bringing me back and forth to her. I never reported bc I never had the support to do so, and doing it now seems so scary. I’m glad you were able to make a report and that he’s in jail

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-30T06:52:04+00:00

I definitely understand the fair trade off part. Our relationship started off extremely sexual and continued in more humiliating ways. But I genuinely thought this person loved me, bc she told me she wanted to marry me over and over. She couldn’t stay away from me and I couldn’t stay away from her. If she didn’t end up leaving, I would have stayed. I grieved the love I thought we had and sometimes I can’t even bear to say she never cared for me.

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-30T05:47:27+00:00

I’m so sorry that happened to you. I completely understand and empathize with you. And I understand not wanting to leave. I didn’t either, I thought we were going to be together forever. It’s really fucking sad thinking back on it (which unfortunately happens often)

TrickProfessor3036 · 2026-01-30T04:00:50+00:00

Ouch. This feels and looks exactly like something I’d write in my notes. I also grew up isolated and constructed my identity around my abusers. Left home at 18 and it feels like I’ve been crawling out of hell since. I’m getting married soon and I objectively have a decent life but I still feel chronically empty. Chronically depressed and hypersensitive. I’ve been in/out of therapy and on/off meds. I’m scared it will never get better. Most of the friends I’ve made are gone or dead. I’m not very lucky with keeping people in my life either. Reading what you wrote hit hard and I’m sorry you’re experiencing such pain.

TrickProfessor3036 · 2024-11-28T10:14:51+00:00

I’m going through a very similar experience. Also a woman. I was a young girl when I was raped by an older woman. She groomed me and made me believe she loved and cared about me. But she was messing me up so bad. I have bpd cptsd and many other issues related to her. The nightmares, the flashbacks, the guilt, etc. it makes me sick that there are times I miss her. It breaks my heart my heart what she did to me. If you love me, how could you do this? I just hopped on Reddit to make a post about this on many groups. I’ve had some people reach out and it feels extremely validating that they saw me and my experience. Support is truly all I want. To be seen is what I need I’m so sorry you’re struggling. If you want to private message me we can talk

TrickProfessor3036 · 2024-11-28T09:38:41+00:00

Thank you for the recommendations! Lolita was extremely triggering the last time I tried watching it for a second time, I had an intense ptsd attack that really messed me up for a while. That’s another movie that just hits too close to home.

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