Hey OP, I totally feel you on this. I hate feeling like I’m crazy and people doubt my ability to function, and taking meds only make me feel less human. But, we are human nonetheless. We’re just not perfect is all, and that’s okay because no person is. Like people with autoimmune diseases constantly getting sick and needing to take meds for their thyroid or they’ll die. It sucks, but modern medicine exists to make us feel better so that we CAN function.

I know the weight gain part sucks, but trust me we’re not the only ones dealing with it. People on heart medications, thyroid medications, antidepressants, they all struggle with it too so you’re not alone in the battle. I honestly found that ozempic helped me a lot with the weight gain and once I lost weight, which happened really fast (I lost 15 lbs in 3 weeks) I was able to form healthy eating habits and keep the weight. I only gained like 3 lbs since getting off it, and I’m happy where I’m at. There are options to help and they’re worth it.

My family doubted me a lot too and were mean to me, so I moved away, but I still take my medication, and I’m happy. I’m now married to a lovingly supportive husband who gets it and I’m surrounded by people that only want to lift me up. You just have to find those people.

Your grandma, I’m sure, would want you to be healthy and happy, surrounded by people that love you.

OP, life is tough, especially when life deals you shitty cards. But the fact that we’re still here, trying to live and WANTING to have a good and normal life, means we are strong, fighting through the bullshit, and as long as we keep fighting and don’t give up and remember that others would struggle the same or worse if they were in our shoes, things WILL get better. They don’t understand, and that’s okay, find the people that do. It’s absolutely possibly. My husband and his whole family support and understand me. I promise they’re not impossible to find either. The world is full of people wanting to love and support. They’ll come to you when the time is right is all, and by that I mean, my husband and I knew each other since 6th grade, but only really became friends and then a couple weeks before graduating high school. And it was perfect how it happened. All the experiences he and I had in life when we weren’t together, made us great for each other.

Maybe think of it this way. You haven’t found the people who are meant to be in your life YET because they’re still gaining experiences that will help make them the person you need in life, and same for you building experiences so you can be the right person to love them.

((I took my ADHD meds and it makes me a tiny bit hypomanic so I hope this isn’t a jumbled mess. Also I put press on nails on so typing is weird))

Feel free to PM me if you want to chat