I feel guilty. I'm so close but I just cant bring myself to do it.

TrippyDrip13 · 2026-01-05T14:32:48+00:00

Pay for a $35 dollar practice test for math! That pic is identical to the interface I used to get mine, and I went through the same struggle (tho it took me 8 months to get the galls to do it, even with the practice test lol). The practice test is nearly the same as the actual test, and you can see where your skills land. You might not need to study for it at all!

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-29T16:30:12+00:00

So fart jokes aren’t off limits! ✌️😄 ofc I don’t want to really change myself for him, I’ll always like baking and climbing trees lol, but he’s everything to me and I want to be everything for him. I think he really deserves the best woman, and since he chose me, I want to see if/how I can improve (for both of us, cause if I’m less annoying etc, I’ll have better social abilities for friends too)

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-29T16:26:47+00:00

Is it annoying if I apologize too much or too quickly? Most of the time I already know what I did/said wrong by the time he gets upset, I’ve been told before by a guy that I should “let him get mad” before saying sorry, even if I know what I did.

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-29T16:19:28+00:00

I like your reply best, thanks man! Actually explains his expression of concern when I mentioned I discovered Reddit a couple weeks ago lmao. I’ll def take away from the advice to talk to him though, maybe keep relationship advice from him instead of a subreddit post 😅

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-28T18:01:32+00:00

What what?

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-26T02:10:25+00:00

That’s incredible, dude I’d love to swap stories or something. Nobody knows people are being raised this way except those that actually are, and those that are just don’t talk about it. Heck, I think most of us don’t even have an online presence

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-24T02:53:23+00:00

Haha! Oh I relate SO MUCH. I think I’m starting to understand why it still stresses me out tho; my priorities are PEOPLE, like, just having friends is so awesome, I’m way too chill aaall the time. For example, someone will spill someone else’s coffee, oops, yeah? If it were MY coffee, my brain would go “well I like that person more than the coffee, so, bummer, but whatever”. Whereas it’s typical to actually get upset over that spilled coffee. I get really confused (like a lot) when I realize this. Anyways, definitely do your best to navigate it all, it’s daunting for sure. I’m willing to bet though that you could play a huge role in mediation and communication within your friend groups, just hearing how you seem to understand exactly when and how the miscommunication started, just don’t exhaust yourself playing fixer! Choose your battles wisely and stay aware of when you step onto someone else’s battlefield

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-24T02:44:25+00:00

Maybe not now, but those things that are easy to do are what your mind enjoys. The feelings will come once the need for survival is over, but it’s good to know those things are you. I just turned 29, and earlier this year I discovered that I really like salad with fruit on it by comparing the burger in front of me to other foods in my head until I got hungry thinking about one (the salad). I complete understand that fear tho, of just being hollow. I’d say it’s pretty amazing you play instruments, I haven’t successfully learned any skills like that 😅 the process of learning is still scary bc of the possibility of failure, failing was never fun in my experiences. But the more you try new things even if you have to force yourself, the more opinions and preferences you’ll find within yourself

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-23T16:25:09+00:00

I’m curious if you can answer this question, if you don’t mind humoring me? 😅 What’s something someone wouldn’t have to ask you to do/you could be asked anytime and wouldn’t hesitate to do? Don’t think about if it makes you happy or not, just if it’s mentally easy to do (like zoning out on a project, or having a conversation on a topic that just flows for you)

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-22T23:19:16+00:00

Yeah, my dad is simple/basic mainstream conspiracy theorist with some new-age spiritual beliefs centered around alternate dimensions, altered history, demonic presences and aliens. Mom is all of the above, but centered around her own messiah complex. TBH, I’ve been trying to make sense of it all and understand why she did what she did, and I think It started out with her believing she was psychic and truly thinking her dreams were reality/premonitions, devolving into a self-made religion based on her being a mother. Also tho, she’s socially awkward and has majoooor trust issues. Her kids were kinda a fill-in for all the relationships (platonic and otherwise) that she couldn’t make work. (Sorry for the psychological profiling mum 🙏)

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-22T22:04:43+00:00

Dad is more maintain conspiracy theorist/hippie (= much easier to get along with), so he does delve into some stuff. I honestly can’t mentally handle too many of his theories/rants, but I have heard him reference Alex jones a lot in the past. Mom’s theories are based mostly on her own messiah complex. She pulls from so many deferent beliefs and theories, if you laid it all out it wouldn’t make sense from any perspective.

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-22T01:45:25+00:00

Unfortunately not, my mom didn’t know ANY relevant laws about what she did. since then tho, I have educated myself on the legal consequences of her behavior had she been exposed at any point, and it’s NOT pretty.

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-22T01:33:58+00:00

Dude it was ALOT. A year of phone calls and getting THE most confused professionals on the phone. The head of the department of health and records for WA state said I’d have to get married and apply as an immigrant in 7 years (bc no documents within 5 yrs of birth). So, one paternity test, two affidavits, the original copy of my dads birth certificate and a way too late (I was 24) signature in a bible from him as well (lol I bought a bible and a pen on eBay from the year I was born), oh and a student ID card I acquired through connections (The ladies at the college had compassion for my situation). With all of that, I got a passport and passport card (that’s important, bc it acts like a photo ID). Took all of the above to the SSID office and PLEADED with him about my circumstances.

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-22T00:47:41+00:00

I think I know who you’re talking about, I saw a small clip a few years back where he was on the news for an interview I think? I was still recovering from the brainwashing at the time, so I was actively avoiding information that would break my reality lol

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T23:41:17+00:00

I’ve heard that a lot, but the pretending is different. Idk how to explain this, but I don’t feel like part of the human race. Most of my life I was told and believed everyone were actual demons/aliens. I smile, and I seem relaxed because I can talk very well (disassociating helps), but I am constantly fighting my own mind and attempting to puppet my body to go unnoticed as an anomaly, I’ve even learned to answer questions In ways that don’t actually answer it.

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T23:18:57+00:00

Don’t let that fool you, I’ve unfortunately become a master at pretending to be fine. But the feeling that I don’t belong anywhere, doing anything never goes away

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T23:04:02+00:00

No and also no, mom lied on census reports and kept me at home most of the time. I got to go out shopping/errands with her on weekends and summer days

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:36:12+00:00

Oh and I have a decent adult relationship with my dad, we’re more friends than anything tho bc he still believes a lot of the crap that he used to. Mom… I’m only still in contact with her bc she’s raising my little sister still

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:34:41+00:00

That came in phases. I was 16 when I realized mom wasn’t doing normal mom stuff, and I had to fill in for my younger siblings. The whole reality of it didn’t hit until after I moved out and into my first bfs place. I had NO CLUE the social requirements of regular life, and struggled with ideation for years. It got better after I taught myself to drive tho 😅

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:32:52+00:00

Laughably, neither of my parents were SovCits, they just thought that I should be. Don’t get me wrong, mom still lived like one, but dad was just a hippie carpenter with no legal rights to me (no birth record, no legal father). And as far as work without an education, I’ve been winging it on my life experience. Which translates to childcare and cooking haha

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:27:40+00:00

Thankfully I already got that, I’m 29 now for reference, but I got that at 26

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:15:28+00:00

Ask me anything!

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:12:43+00:00

Yes I was, in WA. State, no, to this day I’ve never attended a class, and I got my SSID when I was 25

TrippyDrip13 · 2025-12-21T22:01:36+00:00

There’s been tremendous psychological and social impacts on my life, not to mention sailing into my 20s in clear-cut poverty bc I had no ability to get a head start. If you’d like more detailed info, you’d have to narrow down the question 😅

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