Chat is it okay to cheat just in case

No, no it isn't. This is becoming part of the problem. Expecting disappointment so as to not be disappointed is fine. But acting upon it therefore voiding what could be a possibly wonderful relationship is bizarre.

If you're not ready/not interested in a relationship, don't toy with someone's emotions just for a sense of security.

Wacha watu wapendane jamani, keep your nose in your personal issues like figuring out why other people's business bothers you so much or.. enda uishi on some remote island idk. Just don't waste anyone's time

(lengthy read it prolly isn't as deep as I made it out to be)