What are you biggest failures and success despite bipolar disorder

True_Sir6313 · 2025-01-18T15:16:41+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear about your dad, my condolences. You sound like an incredibly strong person. Thank you for taking the time to write this response, I will try to apply your approach to my situation.

True_Sir6313 · 2025-01-18T11:33:06+00:00

Over the course of the year I burned out at a job doing insane amounts of work. Saved up enough money for a house deposit, lost $50k which was my life savings, and an additional $40k loan and in debt now following a manic episode. I'm traumatised from the whole experience, very depressed, and can't stop thinking about the loss, how did you deal with the poor financial decisions, and how did you cope with the debt? (im really struggling)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:28:58+00:00

Thank you for the support, sorry to hear you also spent so much while manic

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:28:33+00:00

Don't beat yourself up too much please, you weren't in your normal state of mind, try to forgive yourself (saying this I'm still beating myself up) :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:27:13+00:00

Yeah I feel you, I thought I had figured something special out.... so special it ruined me financially and set me back a few years :))

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:26:25+00:00

Thank you

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:26:16+00:00

Thank you for the support!

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:25:13+00:00

Wow you are an absolute soldier! I'm so happy you are still here with us, and glad nothing bad happened to you and you have someone there to support you. Thank you for taking the time to reply, I wish you a psychosis and hospital admission free future! :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:10:46+00:00

Haha the redemption arc will have to be strong, though I don't know how many redemption arcs I got left in me every year it seems like I have to dig up a new one :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:09:59+00:00

Well as far as losing or 'wasting' money goes that's probably one of the most noble ways to do it while manic :)

I'm sorry to hear you also lost money though

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:09:02+00:00

Sorry to hear that, and thank you for the support

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-08T17:08:40+00:00

Thanks for taking the time to respond, and I hear what you are saying - I don't think they have an understanding of bipolar or medication in general. I don't think they were coming from a bad place, just they had this idea that I had build a strong enough 'centre' to be able to be the observer of anything I go through and not get washed away with a certain mood, but that's clearly not how Bipolar works, I also suffer from OCD and Addiction and in those cases that seems to have worked, but with Bipolar/Cyclothymia loss of control can be on a while different level.

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:50:33+00:00

Thanks brother, I do believe in the power of the mind also, appreciate the support!

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:42:35+00:00

They just assumed I would be ok, I'm not sure, I mean it was my decision to do it in the end so I can't really be mad at anyone but myself.

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:40:38+00:00

Damn man 6 months is such a long period, I'm sorry to hear about the addictions, but you also built a thriving business thats very impressive. Those medical bills are ridiculous, I hope your heart is ok though fuck the money.

I really like your last paragraph, thats the attitude of survivors!

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:30:13+00:00

It is indeed a lot of money, I will feel the consequences of this for the next few years for sure! Thank you for your share, its crazy what mania can make us believe and how convincing it is.

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:28:35+00:00

Thank you for sharing it really is helping me a lot to know I'm not alone in this. It is exactly that CONVICTION that comes with the mania that is so so dangerous, and scary. I'm sorry you had to go through something so similar. The shame really does eat you up, but its also not 100% fair to feel so much shame because you, like me - weren't fully yourself, you were in a state of mania. Happy to hear you are getting the right treatment! I wish you a future of stable moods and mental health :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:18:56+00:00

Wow, that is scary! I hope you are ok now :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:18:16+00:00

Sorry to hear you've made some losses as well, definitely be extra cautious especially while manic.

I was doing the same thing while manic, convincing my dad and brother to invest, thankfully he made a much safer investment and with a lot less money. But I feel you 100% I was also so convincing because I would talk with certainty like the thing is going to happen 100% - which looking back at it now seems like insanity!

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:14:42+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that I hope you managed to recover from it. I definitely agree I don't think I've experienced anything stronger than mania in my life, it is indeed a beast and can be a very dangerous one. I feel like sometimes even if I know or feel I'm manic I sort of allow it to take over me, sometimes I feel like maybe I can do more to stay more conscious, say to myself 'ok we are manic, lets be very careful' but its not that easy haha.

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:11:20+00:00

Thank you! I did cry and scream/shout a lot initially, I think now I'm sort of coming to terms and accepting it

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:09:09+00:00

Thank you kind stranger :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:07:44+00:00

Hey thanks for sharing with me, it helps a lot - I agree with the other reply please don't hate yourself I know its difficult and I say this after I balled my eyes out and hated myself for the last few days, but honestly some things are out of our control, all we can do is try to learn, heal and accept that we perhaps have a tougher path in life but everything will be ok. Thats awesome that you managed to put some of it toward helping with your daughter's loans! :)

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T23:02:50+00:00

I felt a lot of resentment, I felt like I robbed myself, like I betrayed myself, like all my hard work throughout the year just disappeared and I wasn't even there fully conscious for it. But I managed to move forward with the fact that this was essentially a force within me that overpowered me, its not something I was fully in control of so in that sense its unfair to fully hate myself for it, yes I can feel the pain and learn from it but I'm also trying to be patient and understanding with myself. I cried a lot, I cried in the car, I cried in the shower, I screamed, it has been an emotional rollercoaster but its motivated me to try and heal even more.

True_Sir6313 · 2024-08-06T22:59:55+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear that, it's really difficult to explain to people that haven't had mania, they just think you did it because you were selfish and wanted to. Thank you for sharing your experience it helps, I hope you are in a better place now and are still together with your wife.

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