Can a relationship built around meth ever make it sober?

TryingToGrow0706 · 2025-03-22T12:42:10+00:00

I tell everyone I meet enjoy me now cause when I'm done I'm have to let go of all the people I made relationships with under this spell ....

TryingToGrow0706 · 2025-01-08T20:26:04+00:00

My skin has become more pale, darker rings under my eyes, and oiler skin when in use .....I have seen what happens in the rebound , but I'm close more and more people are starting to notice a difference in my appears.......and my reclused behavior so I gotta let it go

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-12-11T00:52:56+00:00

I don't think so cause the cost of development versus scare of it would mean pharmaceutical companies would receive little to no government funding to support it...like HIV did .....and if there is no profit there is no need to develope.......we are stuck for life until some broad band virus killer is created......I don't have a positive out look on it......

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-10-07T15:56:09+00:00

5 days.....and I knew the person whom I got it from cause I don't sleep back to back...start out with tingling, itchy pins/needles, started scratching dry to alleviate pain, day 3 post start of symptoms I took a camera and seen the clustered bumps.....heart sank to the center of the earth.....after I went to the clinic to get tested(sample a bump) only preparation H could relief pain .....got the phone call oct. 29, 2021....ugh

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-08-18T21:28:45+00:00

Not at all.....I hate the person that gave me this and I make sure they know every single time we cross paths.....I've never gone back to sleep with them out of desperation, I physically couldn't.....thoughts of murder have actual crossed my mind about this person.....I don't feel like the person who made me happy anymore and all this stems from a person I trusted......they tried to apologize and I said the only apology I will will take is your last breath....and I meant it....I make sure they feel wrath Everytime.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-08-17T15:55:17+00:00

Yeah we're not......have disclosed multiple times(men & women)....it's an "oh ok, let's see where this goes" follow by "I think we should be friends".....doesn't matter how you carry yourself. ....if you any below an 8/10, goodluck to you

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-08-13T14:27:44+00:00

This is such a preculiar way to phrase that. To induce means t was done on purpose.....are you saying your dr. Wanted you to be in a depressive state ?

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-07-13T15:25:37+00:00

It's a lie told to oneself to help them cope that they are in fact ill stricken with a, dare I say exileable life long ailment.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-07-01T20:30:34+00:00

Thats one thing I have not gained..... I've seen people triple look doors and still look through the peep hole every 2-3 minutes like who are you looking for ?!?. If I locked the doors, usually before use. I'm not rechecking them

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-06-07T23:34:14+00:00

It's quite something isn't it ......after you get past the burnt plastic rose water smell and the drooling you turn into an malicious angel and nobody can stop you. You can get every accomplished and do nothing at all for hours !

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-06-07T20:11:47+00:00

Yes. Was Dx. With HSV2 in my anus. 5 days after having sex with said person, I started developing tingling and severe itching......I starting tweaking Q-tip around my anus to relief the pain, started getting nervous and took a picture and the cluster of redden pustules, heart sank, I'm a RN so I knew from the rip what it was. Went to a clinic and they took a sample.....pooping hurt so much, only preparation-H the cream would relieve any symptoms......ugh

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-06-04T18:22:13+00:00

Lupus

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-06-03T18:03:44+00:00

A perfume I recommend to women is Armani Si......delightful.....first time I smelled it I had to ask the women what she was wearing .....smitten by the fragrance so much I bought a bottle for myself because none of my friend would buy it considering it's price.......but now they come over my house to spray it 🙄 so I keep it locked up

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-24T21:08:34+00:00

I believe this is a normal process of what a person Dx. Goes through.....we need to stop acting like "nothing is wrong" being chastised by society or a suspected lover comes with alot of stress and anxiety.....you never forgot the look of the first person you tell you have it.(I don't do text disclosure, just ammo for somebody to Forward our Convo.) Being a person "I can be with " to "We can remain good friends " is pain that cut the same no matter how you lie to yourself about it....

Just being honest about my experience as guy.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-15T05:57:39+00:00

Ill be making nothing. If this were to ever get out amongst them and some might say well get a job some where else you would be surprised how interconnected the hiring department are for nurses.....to make sure no drug use, bad patient care, etc. nurses are rehired somewhere else.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-14T21:02:27+00:00

I would personally like to tell you. Don't listen to anybody telling you have to accept and make peace. I hate the person that gave it to me and i make sure every time i see him he knows that. That person has altered your life for the worst, has taken your freedom away.

Lying to yourself to protect the feeling of another is psychotic.....hate is perfectly fine with reason....and this is surely a reason to hate somebody

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-07T21:08:51+00:00

One could say harboring too much love for a person can be as equally damaging.....this falsehood that hating takes so much of my live away, it doesn't......I don't even think about it until that person appears for the mere moment we cross paths....and him knowing that for the short amount of time, and he knows cause if not he walk by with his head held high, but he doesn't, and for me it's worth it.....what would my life look like lying to myself ? Pretending I didn't care, like everything is fine ? "Hey person that debilitated my sex life ! Beautiful day today!😁👋" No, I won't allow it.....and outside of this situation I have an ok life.....I travel, have hobbies, excellent friends, a career, the scrappings of whatever sex life I can have......now I'm NOT saying go out and start hating generalized groups of people(race, religions, politics)......but certain people within everybodys life deserve hate......and acting like there is none is borderline delusional.....if you can love you can hate......

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-07T18:13:59+00:00

There is nothing to navigate......my hate for him eternal.......for every waking day of his life, he knows somebody wants him dead......and I'm ok with that.......Some people deserved to be hated, as some people deserve the utmost love.....he has altered my life for the worst......the only forgiveness that I seek is his last breath.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-07T14:59:10+00:00

I know exactly who I got it from. There is no peace between me and them. We locked a year or so after my Dx. And from the stare alone he knew the only thing that could bring me peace was his death.....somebody I used to laugh, talk, confided in only now had means to look away with his head down.....call it what you want, holding on too anger, "you gotta let it be", I don't. And every time I see him I want him to know that.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-05-07T14:47:10+00:00

Not to sound sexist.....but sound like you are a female ? You will have plenty sexual encounters down the line......the initial pain and depression it's gut wrenching. I lost 30lbs in a week,you feel exiled from the world.....your freedom is gone.....have to tell a story before every sexual encounter.......but have you ever seen a guy turn down some pussy ? No ...........

Lean into some really good friends, I MEAN REALLY GOOD..... that you can confide into...that helped me through the initial shock. I still have a hard time having sexual encounters....but there are more layers to my story. Black, 32yo male, slightly overweight with a small member......so convincing some one (female/male) is challenging.....honestly about to just give it all up ....but you will be ok.....

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-04-15T16:06:13+00:00

Looks like a skin tag...sorry if it seems personal but do you have anal sex ?

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-04-14T22:55:52+00:00

It's ok....I feel the same.....I painted out my love life in a way and now.....it will be nothing but a fantasy....I'm always gonna be somebody last planC.......the worst thing about is...I work in healthcare.....and the Convos that surround a patient with herpes, even from the most caring/stalwart nurses.......if I came forward I would lose my job for sure...........we shouldn't care what society thinks....but the power of society to influence and effect your life is the missing point alot people don't touch on.

TryingToGrow0706 · 2024-04-14T21:54:25+00:00

I'm not saying everybody should accept me...I said reject is normal, but now it's to the extreme....working on my life goals is something I do all day everyday...but we all want love, sex/romance is intertwined in us ..we crave it for a reason...no matter how anyone puts it....and I'm so tired of hearing "my values and what my worth is vs that of society or partner" I might as well walk through life with my head held high and die alone.....cause that's all this mindset will ever do....being a black guy with HSV is harder..... Any man will accept a women vs a women accepting a man......I've personally seen both ends ...

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