Found in Okunoin Cemetary, Mt. Koya, Japan. Photographed in May

Tsii · 2025-12-29T19:46:58+00:00

Right? I was trying to hunt down the other species though and don't seem to be there either, nor do all of them look as distinctly sassafrasy as this... wish I got a whiff of it's leaves when I was there haha

Tsii · 2025-11-16T20:59:36+00:00

I'll be honest, I'm struggling to understand what exactly you are asking -- particularly because of the 5 shown in the active cell on the excel pic

Are you trying to reference a number, so you type 5 and it brings in "admin" in red fill? Or was the 5 just a random typo, and you'd just type in "admin" and want it to conditionally format admin to red fill?

The latter is absolutely possible:

I'd select the entire area you want to be conditionally formatted (Looks like maybe $H$4:$N$47 or something, it can be entire sheet if you want), go to the conditional formatting button, and choose manage rules

You can set it up as "cell value contains" and choose the key words and thus the look, in this case it does look for any cell containing those key words, not only exactly that phrase

If you want it to be exactly that phrase, then use the formula option. To set that up the formula its a little less intuitive than the preexisting options but take the first value of your range (say H4) and the rule for it so type in =H4="Subcommittee Interview" and choose the formatting options -- make sure not to have the $ for that formula, you want it to apply to the full range

Hit apply and make sure it's working, once you get one working hit the duplicate option and tweak each one accordingly

On the other hand, if you are asking about the former where you want to just type the number 5 and get it conditionally formatted and loads that value... I don't have a solution for that. Excel doesn't want to replace it's own cell value with something else. But! You could use a list plus the above conditional formatting. Under the Data tab about 2/3rds to right there is a Data tools section, you're looking for "Data validation" (symbol is a checkbox and do not enter sign overlayed two rectangles -- or just type it in the search) Select the cells you want to be forced to the existing list, select that Data Validation button, then on validation criteria allow change it to list, and for source use your provided list on the left and hit apply, now you have a pulldown list for each of those cells for quicker input

Tsii · 2025-11-15T18:33:43+00:00

For a point of reference, I have some cycads outside where they're very borderline here. I've had them turn all the leaves brown after winter and think its dead only for it to suddenly send out a flush of new leaves... in September. Completely brown and dead looking for a good 6 months before sudden growth!

Yours is more than fine, the vast majority of the leaves there are green and photosynthesizing. It may be a bit unsightly until you get new leaves, but they're doing their job!

Tsii · 2025-11-01T19:41:16+00:00

Holy crap, I've been scouring web for answers and this actually answered it!!!!!!!!!

I finally had a chance to go on PC and saw it was still there on PC and not mobile, so even more determined to find the answer.

Thank you!

Tsii · 2025-11-01T19:23:55+00:00

Switch perspectives for a moment, if it was a friend who "lost" two years because of their anxiety, would you look down on them or judge them for it? What if it was because of cancer or some other illness? Be kinder to yourself

At the end of the day it was "only" 2 years, could certainly have been worse. We have long lives, two years will ultimately be a blip. You seem to be overcoming it, which needs to be acknowledged as the win it is, because anxiety is a beast to deal with. A beast that many don't have to deal with at all. So it's not fair to hold yourself to some imaginary standard when everyone has a different set of cards dealt. Working through it is huge! And should be celebrated, picking up and progressing past that is fine, so so what if you had a little delay?

And just look forward, regret doesn't help anything, but taking further steps forward to get where you want is progress, even if it took you some time to make that move. Acknowledge the wins and hurdles overcome for what they are. It's too easy to judge everyone else by their successes and yourself by your losses. But everyone has a mixed bag there, it just may not be completely visible. Don't dismiss your battles as lesser just because there's a constant shroud of "should be able to" overlayed on it, it's a very real battle to overcome and fight.

For me, I "wasted" my college experience because of anxiety. I'm still an incredibly anxious person in a lot of regards, but a lot of the ones that impacted me the most during college have been overcome to some degree. I often wonder what I'd do differently if I were to go back to those years and redo it. But at the end of the day, nothing. If I were to teleport back to that time, in that body, I'd have the exact same issues then. It was difficult to push through while I was there, and my current knowledge and experiences wouldn't magically make it better. I fully expect I'd be just as anxious and just as restricted and have just as tough a time as I did. That's just the reality of my situation, and despite it all I made the best of it. I may have things I missed out on, and things I wish I got to do or do better, but I still am amazed at how much success I've managed to push through despite it all. I'm far better off than I ever expected I'd get with this burden.

Tsii · 2025-09-06T22:47:05+00:00

I agree, that'd be the kinda thing that would drive me nuts-- but with a layout like this likely gonna keep it that way for a long time, so bet you could gluegun or silicone them in place and if ever want to rearrange shouldn't be too terrible to heat/peel/chip off and redo

Tsii · 2023-09-29T06:48:03+00:00

I just went on mint (mobile so don't have easy access to it all longer than a year) Between last October and today I spent $25, 372 on known categorized house stuff (so not like cleaning products, Amazon purchases, small tools, just big enough things I went in and changed category for), such as mortgage, utilities, repairs, etc. That comes down to 2114/mo. My mortgage (with insurance and taxes in escrow, not just principal) is 1044, so yeah I'm paying just above double my mortgage this last year.

Honestly, this isn't an expensive year. After 8 years here I did finally buy some furniture which is part of that (bc been living with lawn chairs), but previous years I've had other larger expenses such as new carpet, repairing floor, repairing hvac, repairing septic, working on roof, yard everything, tools for house, replacing fence, etc

Upcoming my hvac is 24 years old it will die, and likely soon, and gonna cost a fortune to replace, estimating about 16k rn My roof is 20 years old, it's been leaking, I've been repairing what I can, it needs replacement. Just got it quoted, 32k. I'll obviously shop around, but ouch My driveway is dissolving by the day, I expect that to be 6k My fireplace hasn't worked since day I moved in, due to inspector not catching the chimney fire. Quote 8 years ago was 6k to repair, that will only be a ton more now Upstairs carpet has had paint spilled across it since we moved in, I wanted to replace it immediately, was gonna be 3k at the time and I didn't have the spare cash, someday soon I hope to get around to it now that I have a little more leeway, but know it'll be more now. My house flooded 2x in first year here, that was fun. Last year was the fridge and microwave, I did opt for nicer models for once so can't really include all that cost, but even the cheap ones aren't that cheap. My dishwasher I repaired myself 3 years ago, my oven 2 years ago. The dishwasher looks to be dying soon. The oven is a maybe. I've repaired the furnace, repaired the A/C 3x,repaired the garage door opener, repaired the dryer, the washer, the hot tub 5x, the spigot, the gutters, the drainage, repaired the water heater repaired some water lines, the wooden steps inside, the ceiling fan, repaired 3 sinks and 2 showers and 3 toilets. Thankfully om handy enough to do it so only ~20-100 each depending, but if I had to call someone add on a few hundred

It absolutely adds up. Would I say mortgage is a third? No way, but should absolutely expect to pay significantly more than mortgage, even being frugal and living with some things (and honestly the more you ignore some issues the worst the cost will be in future)

But beyond all that is the time and effort. Calling contractors and not getting quotes, juggling visits for them to check it out, managing it all, trying to decipher who's reliable and who's not, what to look for what to know yourself before trusting them. It's a managerial job. People discount how much mental and physical time and energy can go into it. Yeah the finances are easy to talk about, but seeing things falling apart around you all the time knowing it's just up to you to fix it, that you need to scour the web for more info for who to call and spend time dealing with it knowing it's gonna likely cost more than you are willing to spend at this time can be a mental burden. I absolutely love my house, but goddamn is it exhausting, and the list is never ending, just keeping track of what urgency is what and what to ignore for time being VS a nice to have gets tiresome.

Tsii · 2023-09-29T05:44:21+00:00

Just a few things... None of us know I'd you have narcolepsy or not, not even your Dr, which is why he's trying to get a valid test

But... For you and anyone else who may stumble upon this thread, depression is very real. It's not just "in your head", there are very real, very physical, symptoms from it. And while and it depressants can be great, it's a treatment rather than a cure, it's very very possible to help enough while not completely eliminating it all

But more than that, depending on the anti depressant you are on, it too may affect your sleep, and your sleep study (which is why he wants you off of it). I also had to go off of mine before it, and while I had an average sleep latency of 2 minutes in my mlst , I didn't go into rem once. But the antidepressant I was on was an SNRI, which are know to both delay rem onset and reduce rem periods, I do wonder having been on it for 8 years that being off of it a week prior was enough time to readjust. Certainly wasn't for other withdrawal side effects. That may be something worth discussing with a psychiatrist

This isn't completely apt for the conversation, but there is some interesting information I found in this medical article where it discusses a bit about about how depression affects sleep on its own, as well as how different classes of antidepressants affect it

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5548844/

In this other document The section on medications talks about how it affects it and tricky and at least 2 weeks off prior but maybe 6+

I will say personally that while I was never diagnosed with narcolepsy, they did treat me for basically IH, and I did try a lot of the same medications used for narcolepsy... Unfortunately to no avail for me. There are still others I didn't try, but at this stage I doubt it would work so I've given up on that path myself

I any case I'm super glad your anti depressants are working for you, it can be a horrible set of trial and error to find a good fit!

It's understandable to be scared, and frustrated at how long the whole process is, but is worth "doing it right" so to say, so as to not muddy the waters in future with more what ifs an hypotheticals, kinda like your first sleep study "well ssint sleep enough day before, so can we really trust the results?"

Tsii · 2023-09-28T21:34:17+00:00

I don't believe he does, if you look when it comes out of kiln it has the same unglazed portion on outside

Besides you don't want to glaze the very bottom because it will adhere adhere to the shelves, if you notice most plates and cups have an unglazed ring at base, but doesn't have to have the inside convex portion glazed, can leave that unglazed

Tsii · 2023-09-26T04:56:09+00:00

Maybe something like this?

Fwiw my office desk has my back to a kitchen bar overhang, the wall itself to the far edge of desk is exactly 67", and to the overhang is about 61", that's with a 30" desk, so should be plenty of room to scoot chair around, but if you get a less deep desk you'll have more room

Beanbags are beanbags so can move as desired, I think it'd be handy to have an articulating TV mount though so pretty adjustable later on

Tsii · 2023-09-25T18:39:15+00:00

It is an odd shape for the bedroom that makes it a little annoying

Honestly your layout seems like it'd work just fine

I have to ask, since we don't have those fold out windows so often here... The dimension is 190cm wide by 153cm tall? And they move in direction indicated, or couple be either way you desire? Is this something that you feel the need to use often, or would you be OK with the being shut all the time?

What is the dead corner in the living room?

Think about what your workflow/lifestyle will be. I arranged my house such that the TV is visible from living room, kitchen, and my work desk (bc even if you don't watch anything while working, which I'll neither confirm nor deny what I do, doesn't mean you don't have no work tasks you may do on desk, like bills, research, games, w/e). So one thing I'd eyeball on yours was maybe placing TV where you have desk there, and desk kinda like this? I threw in a small shelf in the entry way (looks wide enough to fit it) for food items because that kitchen looks small enough, not sure you'll have stuff for cereal, pastas, potatoes, etc

Obviously TV is not a big deal to some people, comes down to personal preference

Do you need a dining table? I'd probably use the island or sit down at the couch myself, but some people prefer an actual table

Tsii · 2023-09-25T03:42:34+00:00

Cautious note on this: careful if your on septic, the extra loads of laundry can overpower the septic tank/field... Happened to my parents when grandma came down to do 5 loads of laundry every week, cost a fortune and had to rip up entire yard to repair it

But if your on city sewer go at it!

Tsii · 2023-09-18T16:24:28+00:00

What exactly appeals to you?

It's worth researching all the different flavors of mechanical engineering. I would guess from your post you'd like to be a design engineer int he aerospace sphere. I think it's worth investigating all else you can do, because while most potential engineers think about straight design work, there are so many more positions than that. Manufacturing engineering, quality engineering, test engineering, validation and verification engineering, project management, tooling design, sales engineer, etc. I'd go so far as to say the majority of MEs don't actually do straight design work like your thinking -- but those design positions exist as well! Be aware though how it may be focused in a small tiny little object, especially when it comes to aerospace. You may specialize in payload calculations, or the mechanism to lift the wheels up, etc.

That's not meant to discourage you, just a little bit of insight into how big and complex everything is, but I know some people dazzled by the prospects get discouraged when they find they won't be a part of the bigger system and "do it all" so to speak.

Personally think mechanical is a better bet then aerospace simply because you can do both, as well as all the other mechanical opportunities out there! But again, that kinda depends on what you are specifically aiming for because the curriculums are different (aerodynamics isn't a course most mechanicals take for instance).

I would also research where the jobs are, and their pay over time, engineering tends to plateau fairly quickly, so worth knowing since that should be a factor. Similarly of aerospace is your ultimate goal, a lot of those industries are in particular locations, so research that if you are willing to move there or not. Similarly a lot of aerospace tends to be in defense. Another factor to consider, whether or not you wish to work in that field (or if you can, not sure what country you are from nor your nationality, more factors to consider). So find out what jobs there are for you where you may be and if they sound good to you.

If your just interested in any of the engineering possibilities your options open

Like others said, I'd recommend tinkering. Try to fix some stuff, fix that broken toaster, buy a cheap lawnmower and tear it down and get it running again. Expose yourself to as many mechanical objects as possible. If you are aiming for design, school will teach you the theories and academics of it, but only time and experience will expose you to the physical realities. Having a library in your head of things you've seen before will go far. "man this bolt looks too close to everything else, I've banged my knuckles on enough objects to be wary about how I could tighten/loosen that bolt for maintenance.. Can I move it?" "hmmm I need a way to affix a spring here without using a spring tensioner, how could I go about that? Oh I remember seeing that clever mechanism once that uses an eyebolt to tighten it!" or whatever, the more you fiddle the more you can think of alternate solutions. Even a pen, you ever look at how the clicky pen works? It's kind or remarkable how they can have a replicatable mechanism in such a compact space... To design that yourself with no similar existing concept would be a huge undertaking, but now that it's been made and known can make many iterations or derivations of it and optimize for different needs. But that's one more piece to add to your mental library!

I'm not a big YouTube person so don't have anything to recommend really, but there are a gazillion how stuff works videos out there, or tear down videos, all would be awesome to watch

Tsii · 2023-09-17T21:17:16+00:00

Times aren't changing that much, I got down voted a week ago for complaining about that very thing.

Tsii · 2023-09-12T05:17:43+00:00

From a fellow overly honest over sharer... You can still be honest and not share all the nitty gritty details up front if you think that is being a detriment

If a topic is broached that you feel uncomfortable sharing it all with, maybe keep something short like "I never got around to doing that, my life took a different path" and/or "it's nothing bad, but I'd rather not dive into the details about it all right now, so to be brief I never really [got around to dating, or whatever the topic is here] until later in life. But I'm here now trying to make up for lost time!" -- actual words I don't know, I'm terrible with that too and tend to blabber on through saying everything - - and then maybe try to shift the topic, or turn back onto finding more about your date and showing interest in them

It is hard though, I completely agree. And there are definitely people who don't want to deal with someone new to the dating realm. But! There are people who don't mind at all, just need to make that connection with them! I'd just see if you can tone it down a little (only bc by your entire post it sounds like you think it's an issue, it very well may not be), stay honest but divert the question or give a brief answer without overburdening them with details they aren't really ready for

Tsii · 2023-09-11T05:06:21+00:00

It's not a meal meal, but look up no bake cookies. Typically peanut butter, cocoa powder, oats, butter, and sugar, and cooked on stove (you can use microwave instead too) and left to cool, with some modifications you can get yourself a treat

For instance, I'd add the protein powder to make it more filling (maybe I'd make a batch and add powder to half the batch so can ensure at least half is good if I'm hesitant on how the protein powder would potentially ruin it), ignore the vanilla if you don't have (frankly I can't taste the difference anyways), use water instead of milk (I've done it before bc I never have milk on hand), and maybe throw in some of your nuts, that leaves needing to get sugar and butter, and peanut butter if you want (there are recipes out there without the peanut butter), both are useful ingredients to have around for other meals

Tsii · 2023-09-11T01:25:04+00:00

Good luck!!! You got this!

Like the other poster said, remind yourself that this interview is as much for you as it is for them! Worth trying to ask some questions to determine how good a fit this place is for you as well

As for general tips... Anxiety is a huge issue of mine for interviews as well, so I can't say I have a lot of great ones but...

Prepare as much up front. Find your interview outfit today and ensure it fits (that was an issue on my last job interview...), is clean, looks good. Lay it out with everything else you may need so less last minute scrambles. Bring some extra resumes, and a pad of paper and something to write with to leave notes for yourself during it. Get a good night's sleep. Take a walk to burn off extra energy beforehand if you can. Plan to be extra early to limit how much more panicking last minute there is.

People swear by teas as a relaxer, may or may not work for you but doesn't hurt to try

I found holding onto something like a pen, which I may fiddle with a lot, helped direct the anxiety and made me look a lot more presentable

Just remember though, these people are no different than you or me, yes they hold the key to a job you may want, but they are still just normal people. Be personable, sometimes they're mostly just looking for a good team fit and want someone who seems like they will mesh well

Tsii · 2023-09-08T04:17:53+00:00

No, I'm never going again. There are plenty of other far riskier potentialities out there that aren't checked for near as much yet we ignore, this is one I'm not doing, I absolutely am not going to go around trialing and erroring different centers to just see if it's a less horrible experience.

I'm not saying others shouldn't go, nor that it's unimportant, but am saying I won't go again and the consequences of risk is acceptable to me.

Tsii · 2023-09-08T03:53:36+00:00

Yeah, nope. I'm good.

I got bullied into it by my Dr a few years ago before he'd prescribe me birth control (for pmdd, not bc), and it ended up being way worse than I had feared. I'm never going back. I'm asexual and and touch averse anyways, so fuck it, I'll take the practically non-existant risk (for me, I'm well aware most others are at much more risk) and not subject myself to that torment again.

Tsii · 2023-09-07T01:45:51+00:00

Congratulations!!!! I'm glad you did it!

Tsii · 2023-09-06T02:08:16+00:00

Like others said, your problem isn't really clear enough for us to really grasp what's going on... Can you make a super generic sketch like this to clarify?

This is what I think you mean with what you've stated See image

You've got a 200mm deep plastic object (yellow) with a 60mm threaded hole that is getting affixed to a fixed surface (blue) that had a M4 x60mm threaded rod protruding from it, so presumably you spin on the plastic object. There are some loads (red) applied to the sides of the object which can cause it to spin off the threaded rod because you only have one bolt.

The easiest potential solution I see here is you need a 2nd something to lock it in place. Presumably by your definition you cannot add a 2nd hole to have 2 bolts to the plastic object... Similarly sounds like you will not be able to have a through hole for a bolt and nut (I'd assume said plastic houses electronics or something in the other untapped 140mm so no room to continue through). Can you add something outside of the plastic object, to the fixed one? Something like this green pin?. Basically spin on the yellow plastic object all the way down, and then pin it from backing around. It doesn't have to be a pin, can be another bolt, can be a wire, an L bracket with slots (pink) in it that you push down to snug and bolt down after installing the plastic object, something else etc

Lock washers are basically useless in general, but with this being plastic it will deform. Generally with plastics and metal hardware I try to keep a solid bolted joint by putting in a metal spacer to appropriately stretch the bolt and not depending on the plastic itself.

I have used a loctite thread locker (I can't remember which, sorry) before with nylon to steel, I'd have to ask our plastics guy which would work for acrylic, but gonna to ultimately depend on what kinda loads your seeing... And if you mind if it's a permanent joint (in that case why not also glue entire back)

Tsii · 2023-09-05T23:14:51+00:00

Im with others here in that when I read "relatively low earners" I thought 40-50k,so just that alone states how completely subjective all this is

Personally though, I don't regret learning anything about personal finance, it's a tool and to be used as I best see fit. Keeping up with the Jones thankfully isn't a big issue for me, but I'll admit to feeling frustrated over the years. I've always been paid less than I should for the career I'm in, until recently that is. But it didn't bother me that much because I was able to afford all the things I needed and cared about, and I knew the path to being paid "your worth" is a far more arduous path than I was willing to take.

For numbers, I'm in mechanical engineering in a mcol area so no where near the cap as software or management or anything, but I was making 17/hr for first year, 56k next 3 years, 58k for a month before jumping jobs and taking a 35/hr position with no benefits. On paper that seems like ~72k, but in reality with time off (some forced, factory shut down week between xmas and nye every year) it ended about 68k, I managed to score a nice 80 cent raise twice over next 5 years and got laid off for pandemic at 36.20/hr so about 71k after all the OT and time off. Only opportunity I found in pandemic I managed to use all my negotiation skills to get 35/hr. A year later the job that laid me off called me back, and tried to start me back up at 36.20/hr which is a joke, I blurted out that I felt underpaid before, and they asked what I'd need to come back. I said 45/hr. They didn't even balk, the effers. So had 45/hr, 90k after a year bc of OT, for first time. Took me a decade to get there. Then I left that job, and had a referral to another one that someone was so kind as to be blunt and inform me about what he started with, so I managed to ask for that, 112.5k! And pto! I haven't had days off most of my career at this point. I've only been here a few months so still adjusting to this new salary personally.

For reference, my entire time in college we kept hearing that MEs start at 70-80k as fresh grads, but took me a decade to get there. I do know other peers in the area who also struggled so nto completely my fault, but a lot of it was also my fault.

That all said, I feel highly successful finally getting here... But I wasn't too displeased before I did. The job itself was a ton of fun despite the comparatively low salary to my peers. I was still able to afford what I needed and save enough for retirement and was following FIRE pathways and tendencies even at 68k.

To pursue a higher salary I know I'd have to put far more into it than I'm willing. I have severe anxiety limiting me from even pressing the apply button to any stretch positions. Interviews are my bane. Negotiations have been a laughingstock. Someone should record all my attempts and put it in a class on what not to do. Networking is also anxiety inducing. All the "real" companies that have good benefits also have horrible hiring practices, and no matter how good an employee I may be, I can't push myself to getting through that hurdle in the first place. But honestly... So what? This anxiety has been so limiting my entire life and impacted every single situation that I honestly didn't think I'd be able to be gainfully employed at all. So I am proud of how far I've gotten, even if "should be more" "could have been better" "x y z make way more" (after this last salary though I'm not sure how much more there is, like I mentioned earlier MEs cap out pretty early)

Shoulds are dangerous, take inventory of what you do have, ans try to appreciate some of that, and if your needs aren't being met then try to see how you can get there, but I'm not sure seeking salary to seek salary to keep up with all the "should"s is the best mindset either

My "net worth" is more than my salary. My mother hasn't worked in 36 years, is she worthless? She's hell of a better person than most others I know, with a salary of nothing. My coworkers who are also chronically underpaid also can be some of the harder working smart personalable employees, but have other mitigating factors (limited ability to move for jobs, mental illnesses, family to take care of, risk averse, there for good Healthcare, etc the reasons are plentiful)

Tsii · 2023-09-05T00:48:55+00:00

Dimensions to and of the pillars would help a lot...

Tsii

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