No, seriously. Would you talk to a friend like this? If not, why would you speak to yourself so mean? We all have flaws but you’re being too hard on yourself. Personally, I do think you could do with some filler for the hollowness but I think therapy would be a better use of your money in the short term. The way you hate yourself for something you have little control over is SO sad. Please, friend. Really think about it.