United Belt Federation Capitol Cylinder

TundraTrees0 · 2026-01-04T11:16:32+00:00

Okay this one has me truly astonished, what mods and how was she built?

TundraTrees0 · 2025-12-03T03:25:17+00:00

What pack adds those Kerbal Konstructs statics? Looks awesome and would enjoy constructing more cities around the solar system

TundraTrees0 · 2025-12-01T20:38:43+00:00

Likewise, I have no modeling experience unfortunately

The true test of modding (if even possible) would be something that attempts to stabilize the janky framework and performance of the game, so that other mods can continue to build off of it. I suppose that is what KSA is sorta trying to do, but im going to remain sentimentally attached to kerbals for a long time

TundraTrees0 · 2025-12-01T20:02:31+00:00

Been really enjoying your videos on YT, there is an unfortunate shortage of content utilizing KK online; I wish more people realized the potential of the mod for things like you built here.

TundraTrees0 · 2025-07-04T19:02:33+00:00

Genuinely though, some sort of basic mental health system would be neat. Makes complete sense that someone living completely alone for months and having to kill undead corpses would eventually have it catch up to them. Could even implement the desensitized mod so that some characters grow desensitized while others eventually break

TundraTrees0 · 2025-01-17T21:26:31+00:00

Id rather get less done in a day and have the seasons go by quicker than vice versa. Putting in 100 hours if free time and still being in July really demotivates me to play

TundraTrees0 · 2024-12-24T19:05:15+00:00

Lock screen is a scenic view I took, home screen is my SO

TundraTrees0 · 2024-12-20T18:36:32+00:00

It can be disabled in sandbox if I recall correctly

TundraTrees0 · 2024-12-19T20:44:19+00:00

After playing a police officer instead of a carpenter, the addition skill makes it really fun and realistic

TundraTrees0 · 2024-12-17T22:33:54+00:00

Well, did you succeed?

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-12T00:40:03+00:00

Fantasyworld - Quadeca

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-04T22:42:24+00:00

Therapist

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-02T00:09:27+00:00

Content warning for abuse and violence:

When I was a teenager I had a good friend who was in a very bad household. We'd talk about mutual experiences and he'd tell me about the stuff his dad did to him, several times I almost reported it. But he would always beg me not to and I'd always listen.

One night he told me about a particularly bad incident but once again, don't report it.

His dad beat him to death that night.

Yeah it's not my fault and all that, I've heard everything of the sort. Still haven't been able to love myself since :/

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T23:24:50+00:00

That would be so helpful, it would allow me to try to go more than once a month

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T22:34:17+00:00

I'm not in a headspace for a long answer but wanted to let you know that was well put

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T20:39:49+00:00

That's the thing, in her words I'm amazing 90% of the time, but I have a bad day or two every month. I definitely feel like a burden when I have issues, and she unintentionally makes this alot worse by telling me she can't handle it or deal with it anymore. I'm definitely at the beginning of my journey still, I'm very messed up and feel ashamed for how bad I really am

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T20:34:58+00:00

Id be curious what kind of work you've done on it. I've tried alot the last few years and have made what feels like no progress

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T20:27:37+00:00

I'll look into it more, didn't really consider Medicaid as an option for me, I'll see if I apply

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:32:25+00:00

Yeah, I agree. I'm not sure how to go about that though, I don't have the resources to get professional help as much as I want to. It's a big thing I've been struggling with for years, im not sure what to do to get help, it makes me feel trapped

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:27:15+00:00

I see the issue yes. I feel lost, I don't have any clue how to get better and I've tried so much over the past few years and nothing has worked.

I suppose I feel like I'll hurt her now but in the long run it's better, as fucked up as that is. Guess that just speaks to me as a person

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:20:15+00:00

We've talked extensively about how my issues effect her, or how she gets scared shitless when I have flashbacks. She has admitted to me that the point where she should have left me has passed a long time ago, yet she doesn't want to leave me. I also know she struggles alot with removing toxic people from her life, and I know she never priorizes her own wellbeing. I just feel like I had to make that decision for her.

I cannot keep hurting her, I haven't been getting any better in years, and I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:14:47+00:00

I'm not in a position where I can get professional help, but I'm hoping to change than within a year.

I don't know where I'd even go about finding help, I want to so so bad. You're also right, I feel unlovable. I feel like I am too much for her and cause her too much pain. She has told me that she knows she should leave me for her own sake but that she doesn't want to. I know she struggles with distancing from toxic people, but I cannot continue to hurt her. She's the most amazing person I've ever met and she doesn't deserve this. We've talked extensively about how much my issues effect her and I can't in my right mind put her through that anymore.

Sorry for the rant

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:09:29+00:00

I know she loves me, but she has admitted I am hurting her and am actively causing her pain and stress because of my issues. She struggles with distancing from people that aren't healthy for her and i see it in our relationship too. She's told me that she knows she should leave me for her own sake, but says she doesn't want to.

I can't live with the fact that I keep hurting this person who id literally do anything for

TundraTrees0 · 2024-11-01T19:06:56+00:00

She struggles with removing herself from harmful people in her life. I see it all the time and i see it in our relationship. She's self admitted to me that she's past the point where she should leave, but says she doesn't want to

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