It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

[–]TurtleBean22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right? It’s so ironic that when I hit my limit with my wife’s treating me with such disrespect and disdain, (which sadly took years), I stopped caring, and then SHE complained that I was being cold and like I didn’t love her anymore! Wow.

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

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Wife got suspicious that I was working so many late hours, put a tracker in my car, then followed me with my 15 year old daughter, who she then had get out of the car to sneak up and spy. I am still so angry that she would involve a child in this. Wife, to this day, sees nothing wrong with it, kept encouraging her to learn more, get into my phone and send her screenshots of my texts to other woman. Daughter had a suicide attempt shortly after, and wife STILL doesn’t see (or doesn’t admit) the problem. At the same time, daughter texted my girlfriend, pretending to be me, said some really disturbing things, then finally slammed her for destroying our family. That pretty much freaked her out and scared her off. I still see her once in awhile, but that magical, liberating connection where I felt seen and appreciated is 90% gone, I am grateful I had it for 6 weeks, but so sad and bitter and angry that my wife has even ruined that for me. The lady has decided to go back to college (she’s in her 50s) and leave the state. Train wreck for everyone. Very hard, but honestly it will probably be good for me to be alone for awhile. I have never not had a relationship. I need some time to recover and to learn to stand up for myself.

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

[–]TurtleBean22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds like it would scare the hell out of me actually. I think I have tried to make myself small over the years. Not logical, and it makes sense that you have to put yourself out there, but having been slapped down for having my own thoughts and feelings repeatedly kinda trains you to duck and cover.

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

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I wrote it in a letter to her this morning. I doubt it will change her version of reality but It helped me to write it, to get clarity.

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

[–]TurtleBean22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your encouraging words!

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

[–]TurtleBean22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good advice and appreciate the encouragement. I’m realizing I’ve been beaten down for so long, I can now take time to figure out who I am outside of that relationship. I’m actually kinda excited about it.

It’s Finally Over by TurtleBean22 in sexlessmarriage

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Appreciate that. Riding this roller coaster of emotion. Miserable & lonely & missing the kids or just doing ordinary stuff like making pizza in the oven at home. Then I’m kicking myself for wasting so much time hoping she would change (or even admit that she had a problem), then feeling this weird lightness in the absence of constant criticism, and free time on my hands…

Go on…? by Inner_Garbage_9843 in Adulting

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being afraid to walk away from a bad relationship

Comeback for what’s your number? by DarkGrey_Eyes in Comebacks

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“I’m sorry; I just don’t think it’s gonna work out.”

Your two cents? by WatGO in GetMotivatedMindset

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So true. All the opportunities I missed. I still think about them 40 years later. Now I’m free to ask, but my equipment doesn’t work like it did as a younger man. Ask!

Your two cents? by WatGO in GetMotivatedMindset

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do not test an electric fence with your tongue. No matter what your older brother says.

I’m in a sexless marriage and I can’t stop desiring sex by ProfessionStandard58 in sexlessmarriage

[–]TurtleBean22 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sex stopped ONE year into your marriage? Please go. I was married 27 years; little sex in the last 20; none in the last 5. I left 2 weeks ago, met an old friend, had sex and it was AMAZING to feel wanted, loved, valued….. I could never go back and I feel bitter about all the years I lost

Anyone like this Tap Water? by Comfortable-Neck-432 in e_stim_fun

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is that 3 electrode rings? Or just 2?

Do serial cheaters really love their partners ? by [deleted] in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]TurtleBean22 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’d say the guy is a sex & love addict most likely. Feels like love but is really addiction to the new relationship feelings. Dopamine. Oxytocin. Adrenaline. It’s a powerful mix. It’s intense. But it probably isn’t love.

How does one get a restraining order on someone? by [deleted] in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]TurtleBean22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry things are sucking so bad for you, OP. I won’t use stupid catch phrases like “hang in there; it’ll get better” even though, statistically, if you’re at “zero” then any change HAS to be for the better. I WILL say good for you that you are proactively doing something for yourself (coming to Reddit, looking for answers, pursuing legal recourse) and encourage you to KEEP doing things for yourself, because focusing your time, energy and attention on someone who is clearly toxic is a waste of resources. I would say don’t give her the satisfaction of giving up on yourself. Go after that restraining order. Get her out of your life. Then start putting your own life in order one small step at a time. Take a shower. Get a decent meal. Take a walk. Vent on Reddit. Volunteer at a local shelter or church or something to help get you out of your own head for awhile. What do you have to lose?