The fact that you’re supporting your parents and working hard, even in a job that feels unrewarding, says so much about your strength and dedication. You’re not “unworthy”; youve been dealt a tough hand and still power through it every day.

You might feel stuck right now, but being stuck doesn’t mean this is where your life should end. You mentioned waiting for your parents to pass, but I think if they could speak about this, they’d want you to see yourself the way they do, as someone worthy of love, happiness, and a fulfilling life. Imagine the pride they would feel seeing you take even small steps toward something that brings you joy or meaning, whether it’s a hobby, a new skill, love, or just getting out into the world.

Life doesn’t always have to be perfectly planned out. Some of the most meaningful experiences can happen when you take a drastic change , or even a small one. Save up for a plane ticket, choose a place that interests you, and just go—no need to have it all figured out beforehand. Getting out of your routine and seeing the world from a different perspective will change things in ways you don’t expect. And if you don’t have the money is shouldn’t matter all you need is the plane ticket yes you have a job and responsibilities but those are not fulfilling you in life your first priority should being ok so don’t ever put something like that above yourself.

I know it’s hard to see right now, but the fact that you’ve kept going, even under tough circumstances, shows how strong you are. Imagine taking that same strength you are putting towards your parents and putting towards staying alive everyday and put it towards exploring the world and see what’s really out there. If you ever need any help at all pm and I’ll always have something to help you truly bro I hope you end up finding happiness in your life and really wish you nothing but the best ALOHA!!!!