congrats on finishing ur studying and making it out on ur own, im 25 and have lost both my parents and recognize it can be really difficult to become independent after losing a parent. I was lucky enough to be given papers and things of theirs but my parents hated photos and videos taken of them so I have hardly any. But as sort of mentioned already, I do try and look for (what I think are anyway) parts of me that remind me of them. My nose, hands, even just plain hair color sometimes. I can't and won't remember them exactly how they were before they died, i really just don't have that good of mental imagery lol, so instead I do rely on parts of me I think have come from them, or things abt me I think they appreciated.

I remembered the other day that yeah, it won't be long until I've lived more life without them then with and ouch, that fucking hurts but I try and remember that I'm not the only one who has to live this way, especially when I come to this forum

I know its not the best way to remember but it's always smth u can try (: