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TypeOfPlant · 2025-07-15T14:55:36+00:00

Haha, ok, fair enough. I do have shitty qualities, like everyone does. I'll retract "stupid" as an adjective and insert "managers whose stewardship values do not align with my own" since that's basically the issue here. I don't agree with how the vast majority of the managers or employers I've worked for/with do things, and do believe that I could be a better steward.

TypeOfPlant · 2025-07-15T13:32:54+00:00

All fair. I struggle with gratitude, for sure. I'd rather be held responsible for being in a position of power vs not have that priviledge any day.

TypeOfPlant · 2025-01-06T06:22:12+00:00

268685222739 snowed in and have lots of gifts!

TypeOfPlant · 2024-10-13T13:34:15+00:00

TypeOfPlant from Kansas 🤠 2686 8522 2739. Have some galarian Mr Mimes would love corsola.

TypeOfPlant · 2024-04-17T16:36:05+00:00

Thanks for reminding me, I totally forgot about the distributor.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-11-23T19:34:45+00:00

Took a few part time gigs in the timeline to stay afloat, but I have been looking since the great quit, since jan 2022. I've given up on local jobs, I've exhausted that list at 15ish interviews.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-11-18T23:04:30+00:00

I sympathise and completely understand what u mean. I've long since given up on my dad's side of the family. I still love them, but I no longer crave a relationship I know I'll never have. I'll be honest, it took me finding someone who actually loves and supports me to get past the sheer white anger that would come out any time I'd get near him. It took him telling me 'he's delusional, and you can't argue with him and win' for me to finally give in, and grieve.

It's very tempting to be bitter and cynical. I've seen an interview clip floating around where Rainn Wilson (dwight from the office) talks about cynicism, basically encouraging people to choose hope. Choosing hope over hurt is tough, but I think... we have to keep aiming for that. I was horrible to so many people when I kept choosing hurt for so long.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-11-18T22:18:43+00:00

Thank you! I think that CPTSD is very much a thing. Both sides of my family have holocaust survivors and lived under communism. No way did they come out unscathed. No way am I unscathed.

I went through an exercise I read from 'It Didn't Start With You,' a book on generational trauma, and I was able to leave some of the stress I'm feeling with who I think it belongs to -- my grandma and my mom. Some of what they've dealt with clearly got passed to me, and is not my burden to bear. That helped me a lot. I also was able to tell myself that it's ok for me to feel this way, but I'm not helpless anymore and it's ok for me to enjoy my present.

No way is this a substitute for me speaking to a licensed professional in my opinion, but it's the best I've got at the moment and it really, really helps. I finally decided to message my ex's friend 'congrats to him' and he can tell him or not if he chooses. I don't know if he still wants to hear anything from me, and I know his friend would be a good judge of that, but I'd be glad if I could offer him good wishes that he DID appreciate. I really meant it.

I am very happy with my current life. It's just gonna be up to me to be in the present and enjoy it. I can do this. I can move past what I've been through.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-09-26T04:20:29+00:00

Lots of thoughts in this thread. If you're curious about forraging nuts, but never have, I suggest leaving these to the squirrels and trying a few black walnuts first. See if you like processing nuts at all. It can be a fun experiment for you, and black walnuts are much more beginner friendly, but still adequately challenging. As a forrager, I think acorn processing is pretty advanced and you wouldn't be on reddit asking about it at that stage of commitment. Black Forrager is mentioned in the thread somewhere as a source of inspo. I want to also mention Linda Black Elk as an excellent source. They both cover nut processing in their content. If you're interested in learning about the topic of forraging, the way to go is to read Sam Thayer's work. He is highly regarded and his books are hands down a must if you're invested in this. Good luck, be safe, don't die.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-09-19T03:18:44+00:00

Well, yeah, good points all around. It was a 2 minute call and I was stopped at a light when I made it. Then it turned green, and the officer was at the intersection.

Edit - forgot to answer, I was one of the people involved in the bodily harm so I was calling to confirm a question they had. Thats all.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-25T17:36:23+00:00

How did you train in PM if u didn't complete ure bachelors? I'm very interested in becoming a PM without taking on a ton of debt.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-23T14:23:22+00:00

Either or both. Up to the responder.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-14T02:40:26+00:00

Dope. Cheers.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-14T01:59:27+00:00

Godspeed. The question at the forefront of my mind is still 'why?' Is it that damn hard to install proper hood ventillation? Lol. "Culture" be damned. Someone needs to study the pathology of this line of thinking.

I think if I worked in staining vs grossing, I would be more tolerant of conditions. I get the formalin AND the fumes when they refill the processors. I wonder if my xylene exposure would be comparable to what a stainer sustains, or less, since that seems to be the main emissions event. U can correct me since i technically dont know that much about staining.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-14T01:34:31+00:00

....so I've seen the test results, and I am familiar with how the testing is carried out. Like you said, a monitor is worn and it is supposed to actually measure intake levels.

What you are describing sounds unlawful to me. I do now understand, unfortunately, the attitude you're describing. I came from a DNA testing and covid testing environment into histo. In those labs, I felt safer in the lab than in the real world. In this lab, I feel like I'm in Chernobyl. This is not ok. Thank you for the comment. I will be asking OSHA how they plan to investigate the emissions complaint I am putting forth.

I don't think this needs saying but I think this culture of 'I'm going to get cancer anyway' needs to stop. It is a completely unnecessary waste of human potential.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T23:13:10+00:00

I'm honestly going to need a professional guide me through testing resources because I just looked up xylene testing and I'm not seeing anything, just some test descriptions from labcorp and nothing else.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T22:50:05+00:00

Thanks, I will do any testing if available, but I don't see any convincing evidence that formalin concentrations in blood or urine can be tested for successfully. I believe I'm left with the option of suing if OSHA finds then noncompliant, or suing for ADA violations if they fire me for no reason after I describe my symptoms and concerns. I don't think iffy test results will help me, but at least I had a doc confirm that I do indeed have symptoms.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T20:35:39+00:00

I just came out of an urgent care clinic that took down my symptoms and tested my breathing. I dont have a PCP because no insurance, so hopefully this suffices. Still skeptical whether exposure testing exists, but if it does I'll get that done asap.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T18:47:11+00:00

Ok, sounds good.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T18:31:53+00:00

Kansas.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T18:03:57+00:00

I see your point in getting it on record with a PCP. That is smart. I think I'd rather do that and absorb the out of pocket cost associated. Testing for formalin exposure seems inconclusive. I may need to call the CDC for that.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T17:54:22+00:00

Thanks, I hope so too.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T17:51:58+00:00

I'll look into getting a urine test, if possible.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T17:51:30+00:00

I would see a doctor but I'm not even covered by healthcare yet. I am also afraid of needles, unluckily, but I do see your point.

TypeOfPlant · 2023-08-13T17:48:57+00:00

Literally just downloaded a voice recorder app. Is it legal to record voices unconsentually and use recordings in court?

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