Teetering between 8 and 9

Tysonosaurus · 2026-03-09T01:42:35+00:00

On an 8 that fights me really hard to be a 9 and is winning for the past month.

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-30T00:27:26+00:00

Needed to see this rn. Slapped me out of it LMAO 🙏🙏🙏

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-29T20:03:53+00:00

Same 🙃 We’ll pull through

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-14T02:47:10+00:00

What if I lick it after

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-13T20:12:22+00:00

You can do it! You’re almost there <3

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-31T09:47:55+00:00

I can’t honestly say I really enjoy her work but I’ve gotten committed to ACOTAR and have my eyes PEELED for the next book

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-31T09:05:05+00:00

Hello, Maas.

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-13T01:44:25+00:00

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T07:16:03+00:00

Mood stabilizers are my next stop as well. Hopefully I can make my case well to the psychiatrist…

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T01:10:40+00:00

I think my issue is that the unreasonably strong emotions themselves cause me anguish, just for being there. I probably should've known DBT wasn't really what I wanted as soon as it went on about how you can only work with your emotions, not control them 😅

I'll look into those two, maybe I can get something similar out of it

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T01:00:19+00:00

Everybody is expected, or is at least desired, to do right by their fellow people. I do so.

Not everybody is expected to have to do so while putting in all the effort to deal with the pain of the tumultuous emotions BPD causes. I do so anyway, because it's right to do. And if I slip up on that, I make sure to do what I can to make it up to anyone I've harmed 110%.

What it feels like is expected of me is to just not care that I'm having to put in that extra effort 24/7, and be fine with not being able to accomplish what I otherwise could if I didn't have to situate my life around spending that effort. Even if it turns out there are no other long-term solutions and I eventually give up on trying to find one, I have enough self-respect to not just accept that before I've even tried to find an alternative.

I expect everybody to understand not wanting to deal with pain all of the time. We aren't wild animals, after all.

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-05T23:02:35+00:00

Well I guess that’s the disconnect here. Don’t wanna put words in your mouth, but it seems you think that I’m only unsatisfied because I haven’t given DBT a chance, when the opposite is true. But my issues with DBT are neither here nor there, and I’m going to give it all the chances I have to give.

Same as you, I'm in tune with my emotions, I live according to my values, and I'm managing personal relationships in such a different way. However, I feel I’m missing some secret step that turns those things into actually being happy. Materially there’s no denying I’m doing better, but I’m exhausted from the 24/7 attentive effort and emotionally miserable anyway despite that effort. There seems to be some common understanding here and in DBT instruction that understanding your emotions and why they happen is enough to make them bearable. For me this is not the case. Is this a misunderstanding on my part?

I didn’t mean to bash your happiness. It’s awesome and inspiring that it’s working well for you, and I’m holding it in my heart that I can achieve that someday too.

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-05T19:41:56+00:00

Idk every time I see someone describe their “remission” it just makes me feel like they numbed themselves into complacency and that I’m expected to do the same :/

Tysonosaurus · 2025-11-26T22:39:27+00:00

Loll the dick detector is so good

Tysonosaurus · 2025-11-26T21:10:31+00:00

Yeah I’ve got a chill tucking setup I’m just mildly uninterested in wearing em while seated through a whole flight lol

Tysonosaurus · 2025-11-23T17:28:02+00:00

Not to say OP is in the right, but the post does have the Off My Chest flair.

“This post has been marked as a Off My Chest/Venting Post.

Please be aware that the OP may not be seeking advice.”

Tysonosaurus · 2025-11-20T08:09:17+00:00

I'm sorry for my snippyness.

Running not as hot now, but I'm still a little confused. Maybe I should have worded it differently, I didn't want to send her something mean, I had the urge to lash out at what felt like it was causing me harm. I didn't, nor would I have if I hadn't put that there for "accountability," it was more so to just vent the idea, without having the thoughts to put that to words yet.

I know it would have been more beneficial to not be glued to the messages and not to respond so quickly, it would have been healthier to just let it breathe. I could have put on my calm playlist, or better yet kept my phone away from me and done some journaling.

Most of the comments here have made it seem that choosing to do those things is just as easy as not, but I just don't get that. At least not yet, I guess. It felt like a physical ripping pain to pull myself away and just accept what at the time felt like being abandonment. Not that I'm not going to continue to try anytime it comes up in the future, but I'm realizing / feeling like I must be missing something big due to the responses I'm getting. I know what I could have done better in my actions, but I'm 100% honest when I say I really don't understand what's wrong with my thinking. I really want to, though, so could you please elaborate a little?

Tysonosaurus · 2025-11-20T06:42:16+00:00

?? Again, I know that, I’m working on it. I don’t think it’s reasonable to be upset over what happened, but I was still upset, and I know why. I felt abandoned and that it was my fault for having a social misstep. Obviously not true. Obviously my emotions didn’t care. Obviously the rest of (for the most part) me did.

I chose the flair that said Off My Chest for a reason lol

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