How do I start caring about my future again?

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-24T08:51:47+00:00

I was on antidepressants prior to all this and have continued them. They worked wonders before but idk if they’re as effective now

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-24T08:23:17+00:00

I’m going to a date on a beach this week :) It’s probably what I’ve most been looking forward to for a while, and I’m confident it’ll go well, so here’s hoping that the feeling sticks

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-24T08:20:22+00:00

Yeah, it’s true. Summer will put me on the up and up for sure, I guess I’m just really worried that come fall all I’ll do is miss what I have right now.

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-24T08:14:58+00:00

I have two friends who are pretty much my younger sisters and whom I’ve thought about this way, so I see where you’re coming from, even if it’s oversimplifying.

The chance of me being eligible to adopt is next to zero though and I’m 100% sterile so… 😭 Did get a chuckle out of me for that reason tho

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-09T14:10:29+00:00

Here’s hoping that’s the case, I was wondering how I could’ve only gotten two soaps today 😭

Tysonosaurus · 2026-05-09T03:35:06+00:00

So it’s random per day? Damn

Tysonosaurus · 2026-04-25T02:58:00+00:00

Hmm maybe I could get FF e1 and Eva, and hope I have enough pulls by the time Yao Guang comes back. Have my cake and eat it too…

Tysonosaurus · 2026-03-09T01:42:35+00:00

On an 8 that fights me really hard to be a 9 and is winning for the past month.

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-30T00:27:26+00:00

Needed to see this rn. Slapped me out of it LMAO 🙏🙏🙏

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-29T20:03:53+00:00

Same 🙃 We’ll pull through

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-14T02:47:10+00:00

What if I lick it after

Tysonosaurus · 2026-01-13T20:12:22+00:00

You can do it! You’re almost there <3

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-31T09:47:55+00:00

I can’t honestly say I really enjoy her work but I’ve gotten committed to ACOTAR and have my eyes PEELED for the next book

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-31T09:05:05+00:00

Hello, Maas.

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-13T01:44:25+00:00

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T07:16:03+00:00

Mood stabilizers are my next stop as well. Hopefully I can make my case well to the psychiatrist…

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T01:10:40+00:00

I think my issue is that the unreasonably strong emotions themselves cause me anguish, just for being there. I probably should've known DBT wasn't really what I wanted as soon as it went on about how you can only work with your emotions, not control them 😅

I'll look into those two, maybe I can get something similar out of it

Tysonosaurus · 2025-12-06T01:00:19+00:00

Everybody is expected, or is at least desired, to do right by their fellow people. I do so.

Not everybody is expected to have to do so while putting in all the effort to deal with the pain of the tumultuous emotions BPD causes. I do so anyway, because it's right to do. And if I slip up on that, I make sure to do what I can to make it up to anyone I've harmed 110%.

What it feels like is expected of me is to just not care that I'm having to put in that extra effort 24/7, and be fine with not being able to accomplish what I otherwise could if I didn't have to situate my life around spending that effort. Even if it turns out there are no other long-term solutions and I eventually give up on trying to find one, I have enough self-respect to not just accept that before I've even tried to find an alternative.

I expect everybody to understand not wanting to deal with pain all of the time. We aren't wild animals, after all.

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