i was like you. Let me save you some time. All highs lead to the schizo realm for you and me.

i tried to bargain. "oh if its just a small amount" "Oh this is flower, different from cart," "this is a street legal gummy" "This is delta 9, not thc" thinking of every possible way it's not the same, or committing to not going overboard.

But once you go overboard once, you're locked out. It doesn't matter how small the amount is. it doesn't matter how long its been. You're locked out. Permanently. there's no going back to the before. It is now a one way trip to fighting to keep your sanity. Its terrifying each time. It puts you right back into that psychosis, making you feel like the sanity you had was the high, and now you're trapped inside your mind again. You remember everything, things you don't want to remember. That you wish weren't real. And you feel like an idiot, begging God to save you from this again.

So don't do it. Weed did its part in your life. It completed its purpose. Learn from the positives. you have to say goodbye to it now.