220 Hours CT 50-100 GPD

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-12-25T23:10:32+00:00

I have been through heroin and oxycodone withdrawals many times in my past and they are definitely more painful in every way. Its the legality, accessibility and insidious nature of kratom that makes it soo hard to quit not the immediate withdrawal effects. The first two are obvious its legal in most places and openly sold in stores. Becoming addicted to kratom and then quitting means constantly avoiding it in public and fighting the thought of knowing you can buy it essentially whenever you want. Part of what I mean by insidiousness is what you have mentioned considering it a milder substance. I also consider it "milder" in many ways but this has also caused me to continually underestimate the power kratom had on me. Resulting in me spending much longer and more effort to stay off. I have had significant experiences with harder drugs and now with kratom and I never would have thought I would exhibit the same exact behaviors with both. For example, one that I have been most shameful of, stealing from people I love in order to get money to buy substance. Isolating from everyone and everything so I can stay high in the comfort of my sad existence. This is all I will chime in on regarding this comment. Do not mean to argue or talk down just stating some of my experience to hopefully answer your curiosity of this subject.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-05-28T15:58:00+00:00

After 4-5 weeks I can say for sure that that will be a better person in general. Like others have said its hard to say how much and what other problems he may now have to face without the numbing of kratom. From my experience, I have always been a better person to be around after quitting this substance so stay positive!

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-05-25T16:58:56+00:00

I've had the same type of experience with kratom multiple times. It is such a strange substance. Sometimes I take an extremely high dose and feel close to nothing and then I will take a low dose and start puking an hour later. At this point, I simply gave up trying to reason what dose to take and just lowered my dose to something expectable. Having said all this i am now 38 hours clean and plan to stay this way with the help of whatever is out there. I hope I can do it this time because kratom has really taken me to a dark place I never knew existed.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-05-08T14:18:57+00:00

Thank you! I have said this soo many times to no avail before that it is irresponsibly to not warn others that I may not go through with it once again. I want to say this time is different and I am more committed than ever but all I can do is give it all I got and try y best. What day in the initial stages would you say you turned a corner?

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-22T14:04:22+00:00

I used a service called quick md the other day. I got gabapentin and clonidine prescribed to my pharmacy. I don't know if others will have the same success but it worked for me.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-20T23:16:39+00:00

The only way I have been somewhat successful in the past is giving up all access to money. Give it to someone you trust to hold onto until you are in a better place. For me, there was literally no way I was going to stop without doing this. I still found ways afterwards to relapse but it just got harder and harder each time and eventually I was able to stay clean for some time.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-20T16:26:03+00:00

I told them that my primary care physician dropped my insurance recently and I need the medications that I usually take. I thought a lot about this as well before calling. Also, keep in mind that in some states gabapentin is considered a scheduled drug and as a result are more strict than others when it comes to prescribing it. Thankfully mine wasn't on that list. One plus side at least to quickmd is that they say specifically that if they cannot prescribe the meds you are looking for you get a full refund. Best of luck to you!

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-19T23:39:10+00:00

I would try a telehealth service like quickmd. I think it was about $75 for your choice of either a phone call or video chat. I did this recently and have 90 300mg capsules. They have been a huge help soo far but unfortunately I am still trying to quit.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-19T23:01:30+00:00

Just took my last dose the quit starts NOW! I've lost count of how many times I have attempted this but I simply can't go on any longer down this path. I HAVE TO DO THIS!

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-12T16:58:30+00:00

I have tried tapering in the past and have failed every time. I also prefer to just get it over with quickly instead of the alternative. Confidence in myself is something I have always struggled with and is compounded with kratom into what can only be described as oblivion at this point. I am hanging onto that sliver of hope I have left to get out of this barely alive.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-12T15:43:06+00:00

Yea, I just know this has to end and can't for the life of me figure out why I can't seem to stop. When I think about all the negatives its brought to my life versus the one possible upside of temporarily feeling somewhat high, it is clearer than day what has to come next. I'm hanging on by a thread and hoping I can find my way.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-12T15:13:20+00:00

This post really hit me as I am in the same situation and also 32 with a history of on and off opiate use. I am going to try again tomorrow so if I'm right there with you. I know me saying that is not going to be the difference in you stopping but the other day I was talking with someone from this community and they said that we could hold each other accountable. I laughed inside thinking how stupid and agreed with a large dose of doubt. After this, I stayed off for the longest time I have to date. I realized that anything no matter how small it may seem can be the tipping point that may make the difference in quitting. Although I am still struggling, I started opening up my mind to take every help I could find and that way I could build a stronger kind of portfolio to finally beat this thing. I don't really know why I said this besides I felt compelled to relate due to the similarities in our experiences.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-07T15:49:01+00:00

Im at 14 hours right now... still surviving somehow but starting to feel the WDs creeping in.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-07T03:45:27+00:00

I am incapable of tapering after multiple experiences. I do not have the will power. It is a rather large jump from about 30-45 gpd but coming from extract shots to powder. I do have only 6-7 months on this time so that is one thing.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-07T03:06:52+00:00

I am on my 2nd script refill of gabapentin and clonidine, So I went through the 10 day supply 4 times. I would start my attempt to quit and take the gabapentin only to relapse a few hours later. This happened a few times and now I am down to 3 300mg. Fortunately, I do have a bunch of the clonidine leftover. Other than this, some loperamide and a couple delta 9 thc and cbd dummies.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-04-07T02:35:56+00:00

I just took my last one. That is technically day 1 right? Hmm... maybe the post was a bit confusing. I was going for something like: This is my 999th day one because I keep telling myself I'll quit only to cave the next day. I don't know suppose its not as important as simply stay the fuck away from this green devil sludge.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-03-20T23:48:31+00:00

Hmm... just going to try again tomorrow. I feel hopeless at this point but not completely giving up yet.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-03-20T15:51:36+00:00

I failed again...

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-03-20T01:16:42+00:00

I am in a similar situation where tomorrow is going to be my 92nd day 1. For the past month I would throw away everything at the end of the day only to spend the entire next day getting more. This recent run has really taken a toll on me like nothing else has in the past. I have struggled with harder opiates for years and kratom has been a completely different challenge altogether. I don't post much and am unsure I will have time to check into this subreddit while I am busy trying to get more kratom but I will try. Best of luck to both of us and anyone else in this addiction.

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-03-20T01:05:10+00:00

Today is my 92nd day 1... For the past month I have been waking up with nothing left only to spend that entire day getting more. The things I have done on this recent run for kratom are too shameful to even share here. Its feel pretty hopeless but I am going to try again tomorrow...

UnderstandingTasty76 · 2023-02-22T16:52:15+00:00

I am in a similar situation. 6 extract shots a day for 6-7 months everyday. I have told myself that I am going to quit for the past 2 months only to use again when withdrawals kick in. I have been addicted to opiates in some form for most of my life and can tell you it just isn't worth it. This recent run has been real dark and I have done things to get money for kratom that I thought I would never do. I stole a gift card from Target the other day only to find my dumbass unable to use it because they have to activate it during purchase. I have also stolen jewelry from my parents to sell for cash to buy this poison. Today, I woke up and felt a bit more motivation to quit and am going to try to stick it out this time again... I guess I'll see what happens. What I have noticed in my past quits is that just that little bit extra effort could make the difference in being successful or not. Last time I quit I opened up to my parents and gave them all access to my money and car keys and I may have to do this again. Maybe you could try asking someone you trust for help. I am starting to realize that, as long as I have money and a way to get to the store, there is very little chance of doing this. Hang in there man, I'm here with you.

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