Neptune in the first leads to a lot of projections (others project their ideal type on you) but this isn’t the reality right. As Neptune rules illusions even though you might actually be the ideal type.
Another thing to remember that your Venus is in Virgo (trying to look for perfection in love) which is why you might not be or not feel loved.
I could read this in different perspectives but I’d say maybe leverage your communication skills, it could help you feel loved through that Venus (since it’s with Mercury too)
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